My dear queers who attend mega churches:
It is only a matter of time before they betray you. You can totally be the advocate, the person who is a light in a place, the one to make a difference, and I am sad to tell you that it will most likely be a waste of time. A church who isn’t already on a trajectory of inclusion takes a whole lot more power building and organizing in order to make substantive changes that are felt. And it has everything to do with money.

Friends… I love this. This is literally my whole life practice summed up and so perfectly said.

https://twitter.com/joelakamag/status/1470167745698439169

For many this feels impossible because of everything they’ve been thru and everything their living with now. But it is my belief that even in the midst of the hardest shit, there is a way to be happy, to find peace.

Yesterday on Instagram I posted a video where in a positive the idea that you’re not mad with God that you’re mad with the people who hurt you in the name of God.

and then as people do, they took it in a totally different direction I didn’t expect. I started off with a statement saying “you’re not mad at God.” And of course some folks that triggered by that statement because they believe and I’m trying to tell them what they feel. I’m not. I’m pausing an idea in a strong way that you are allowed to reject.

“Am I wrong for feeling this way about [insert whatever the fuck you feeling a certain kinda way about]?”

The answer is always no. Feelings gonna feel. They pop up and affect us and then we judge ourselves because we think we should feel differently. And maybe you should. Maybe you should be more mature. Maybe you should be over it by now. Maybe you should be healed. You have the time and tools and practices. You’ve been doing yoga and meditating. You’ve been pouring on the self love and then BAM something ticks you off.

Babes... the enneagram is not a list of excuses for your unhealthy behavior or your unwillingness to give up your bullshit. It’s a tool to show you where you get caught up, where you cling, and how you can let go. If you can’t form an opinion because “you’re a two” and are always thinking about what others think and that’s just that... ummmm codependent much?

I’m gonna do a live this week called “how to apologize: do’s and don’t’s.”

Do:
-specifically name what you did wrong.
-address how it hurts folks
-talk about how you came to realize it was wrong.
-name the ways you’ll do better when critiqued.
-say you’re sorry. Again.
-repeat Don’t:
-blame it on your ignorance.
-blame it on your team.
-blame it on your upbringing.
-center yourself and your hurt feelings about how you got called out.

You are here now, and now you know better.

Good morning.

According to scripture, Jesus appeared to Mary Magdalene first. She was the first apostle. She was to lead. And then the church suppressed her.

Today, I remember the resurrection. I remember that Christ appeared to the one they would reject... again. And the cycle is still happening.

Will you recognize the Christ when they appear to you? In the hungry, the poor, the disenfranchised? The queer kid who gets kicked out? The Black man who is targeted by police? The single mom who is working three jobs?

Hi, a word from this “difficult/intimidating person:”

It’s not my fucking fault if you can’t tell me what the fuck is going on is that pretty little head of yours. I’m intuitive, not psychic. If you have an issue with me, tell me or get over it. It is 2020. We don’t have time to hold grudges and I don’t have time to fix your feelings about the offensive thing I said three weeks ago. If I fuck up, you call me out in time like every other asshole on here. You don’t wait till it builds to a boiling point.

“How did you reconcile your faith and sexuality?” I get asked this question a lot. And the simple answer is I didn’t.

Reconciliation implies at some point I was welcome. It implies a return to something, a reconnection. That’s not what I experienced. The truth is there is no where and no one to return to. I was never there. They never knew me.

Who I am was never welcome there, and do the real me never showed up, just the version I needed to be.

They never met me because likely they’d have distanced themselves from me.

So a few weeks back @lisagungor calls me and says “do you want to come out here and be in my music video for ‘Woman?’” And automatically my body was like YES I WANT THAT.

She explained the concept, what she wanted me to do in the video, dress and heels and make up and femme... And I was so shocked at how on board my whole self was. Like I knew I needed to do this.

In the south, it’s not always safe to be femme presenting as an AMAB person. Plus I’ve got a beard, and hair on my arms and legs.

I'm gonna make this into a thread so that I can answer this friend below, and also clear up anything y'all might be wondering about.

https://twitter.com/thezwomann/status/1152460140894986243

I got into tarot a few years ago when my friend @JenileeDowling invited me to do a energy healing session with her. And what I experienced during that was the presence of the Holy. Like it was LOVE. It was God. I was already familiar with that feeling.