#sakuatsu hurt/comfort | where kiyoomi has never been truly kissed before. heās had one night stands and sloppy make out sessions, kisses that felt more like arguments than affection.
which is why itās so strange when atsumu shows up in his life, ham-fisted and clumsy +
in nearly everything he doesā¦and yet, when he kisses kiyoomi for the first time, the final credits of a stupid american movie playing softly in the background while they sprawl against each other on kiyoomiās couch, atsumu kisses him gently.
where kiyoomi doesnāt know how to respond when atsumu cries - he doesnāt know how to respond when anyone cries. atsumu is no exception to that rule.
no one ever cried in the sakusa family household, mainly because no one was willing to risk +
the emotional beat down that would ensue. so when atsumu cries in front of him for the first time, puffy eyes rimmed with tears, kiyoomi freezes.
he looks small, and vulnerable, and so easy to hurt if kiyoomi isnāt careful.
atsumu doesnāt sound right when he cries - and truly cries. not when cries at the sappiest scene in a romance movie or cries at his brotherās wedding.
when he cries because kiyoomi made him cry. thatās when the doesnāt +
sound like himself.
thatās when kiyoomi has to turn the volume down on his phone for a moment because atsumuās tinny sobs filtered through the static of the phone feel like someoneās digging a knife under his ribs.
āi canātā¦ā he tries when the sobs turn to +
he never smiles - he doesnāt smile the first time they kiss, unexpected and sudden and sweet in a way that makes atsumu giggle. he doesnāt smile when he finally asks atsumu out on a date, sparing only a curt +
nod and what looked like the vaguest inclination toward an expression of joy atsumu could imagine. he didnāt even smile when heād said āi love youā for the first time. he had said it, stoic as ever, blank faced.
where kiyoomi cannot stand the way atsumu talks about their relationship.
everything between them is good - great, wonderful, even. beyond anything kiyoomi couldāve imagined when he was alone and wondering if anyone would ever +
love him genuinely, truly. atsumu makes him happy in a way kiyoomi didnāt even know existed before meeting him.
which is why itās so bizzare when atsumu grins at his old friend kita-san and casually proclaims, āthis is my boyfriend, omi- well, least fer now +
they love him with an insane devotion that kiyoomi has never seen them love with when it comes to someone outside the family. they love him just as kiyoomi had hoped they would love him. +
and itās really quite a strange happening, because the sakusa household is not one based on love and tender affection. in fact, kiyoomi canāt remember the last time his father gave him anything more than a handshake.
throughout his whole childhood, kiyoomi had +
Apr 9, 2023 ā¢ 26 tweets ā¢ 5 min read
#sakuatsu day one: hanahaki | angst w happy ending
atsumu wouldnāt say he adores his job - itās not exactly the most heartwarming, counseling people into falling out of love, detailing all the ways they might snuff out the flame of a wonderful thing. he wouldnāt +
even say he likes it. but there is a morbid sense of fulfillment that comes with saving a life, even though the cost is arguably greater than the benefit.
sometimes it just doesnāt feel right, taking from them the one thing that truly matters in this world. +
au where kiyoomi and atsumu went to the same highschool, and kiyoomi was a a popular jock who played three sports and still maintained a 4.0 while atsumu was a nerd who stayed after school to take private lessons with the math teacher because he was +
too far advanced for their honors math class.
where kiyoomi bullied atsumu in the way only someone with a savage intellect and an equally savage heart could - ruthlessly, cruelly. he never laid a hand on atsumu but he did make his highschool experience hell. +
growing up as two equally needy boys on the salary of a single mother meant that most holidays others considered especially significant went by without so much as an acknowledgement. +
of course, they were always aware - going to school and seeing other kids donning newly purchased christmas presents or goodies carried over from their easter celebrations. atsumu and osamu never had anything to show off, and valentineās day had always just been +
but kiyoomi doesnāt believe in highschool romance - he doesnāt believe there really is such a thing as true love. because all love is temporary, but that of the adolescent heart is ten times more fickle and equally as fleeting. +
so he dances around atsumu, a tiptoed waltz that he dances or perfection.
when they find each other during matches, kiyoomi is careful to count the seconds that he allows his gaze to linger on atsumu. he is meticulous about the words he chooses, the way he acts. +
atsumu stops, lips agape, hazel eyes wide. kiyoomi already knows what heās going to say - or rather, what he /was/ going to say before kiyoomi stopped him.
kiyoomi isnāt ready to hear it. +
which sounds stupid and childish, but atsumu was looking at him all pretty and full of adoration, and kiyoomi is sure he canāt stand to hear the words from atsumuās lips.
theyāre still early in this thing they call a relationship - weāll, maybe a year isnāt all that early, +
his cousin always told him that a cemetery was a dreary place to spend his birthday - and he would agree. even he in all his love for the macabre knows thereās nothing to be said for cold +
stone and damp grass and gray skies. he knows that he should be home, with his family.
but the flowers are wilting.
and the sun is setting behind bleak gray clouds, and everything is coming to an end that kiyoomiās not ready for. so he sets down the flowers +
atsumu who loves and loves until his well runs dry, but never stops to think about how much heās giving until thereās nothing left to give. and kiyoomi who never lets him get to that point without giving just as much love in return, kiyoomi +
who matches every gift with an equal amount of his own.
atsumu who tears himself in half and pushes himself to the breaking point to be the best, even when his definition of best is out of the realm of human possibility. and kiyoomi who forces him to slow down, +
sometimes it confuses people, they ask him to explain, they ask him to repeat himself, they guess crudely at what heās trying to say. soemtimes they even ask him to reword it.
but kiyoomi never does - he never has to. +
because he knows that when atsumu looks at a sunflower and says, ālookinā at this makes me feel like steppinā outside in summer.ā it means that sunflowers are his favorite,
and he knows that when atsumu comments, āyāknow what this onigiri tastes like?ā with +
Feb 6, 2023 ā¢ 21 tweets ā¢ 4 min read
#sakuatsu omegaverse (sfw) hurt/comfort | beta! atsumu x alpha! kiyoomi
where atsumu just wants to go home. heās sat through an entire night of watching omegas and alphas alike lay it on thick across kiyoomiās unwilling shoulders while the team celebrates obliviously +
around them.
they never shouldāve come out. betas are nutritiously stigmatized, especially in the sports world. they shouldāve stayed nearly in secrecy like they always have, waited until retirement to thrust themselves into public spotlight like this. +
Feb 4, 2023 ā¢ 5 tweets ā¢ 1 min read
kiyoomi crowds into his space then, lips looming inches away from atsumuās, minty breath warm on his skin then as the spikerās expression softens.
atsumu dares himself to speak, ādidja just call me ugly, omi?ā
kiyoomi shakes his head, āno. i think youāre the +
most beautiful man iāve ever met. i said that it isnāt just because of your looks.ā he takes a breath, ātell me, when have i ever settled?ā
then kiyoomi drops his head to atsumuās shoulder and presses the sides of their faces together so tender that atsumuās lungs +
Feb 4, 2023 ā¢ 18 tweets ā¢ 4 min read
#sakuatsu hurt/comfort | where atsumu is terrified of kiyoomi mot loving him as he gets older.
heās twenty-five and obsessively lining the walls of their shower and the shelves of their bathroom with skincare and hair care products alike, twenty-five and spending +
his few off-days a year at the gym. heās twenty-five and alrsady worrying that kiyoomi will wake up in ten years and find the beauty heād first seen in atsumu fading.
he knows itās not normal - fear of aging is normal, fear of being unattractive to oneās partner +
Feb 4, 2023 ā¢ 23 tweets ā¢ 5 min read
#sakuatsu omegaverse (sfw) | beta atsumu x alpha kiyoomi returns
atsumu has never been the wanted one. not that he grew up in a bad family or a cold home, he always had his family to rely on. he was loved, he is loved.
but heās not wanted. +
he first started to notice it in highschool, when people would dawn over osamu left and right, melting at his scent, his smile - new obsession people had with his brother, atsumu was always there to bear witness to it. they doted on him, suna in particular. +
Feb 1, 2023 ā¢ 13 tweets ā¢ 3 min read
#sakuatsu hurt/comfort | where kiyoomi never learned to apologize.
itās not because he doesnāt feel sorry, nor because he doesnāt feel the guilt weighing on his chest. heās just never been forced to learn.
his father was a man of pride, a man who never apologized for +
anything - and lived happily doing so. he didnāt care about the grudges people would hold or the dirty looks cast his way. and he taught kiyoomi to be the same, fircely self-assured and rock-solid in his convictions
kiyoomi used to admire that independent spirit in him. +
Jan 31, 2023 ā¢ 9 tweets ā¢ 2 min read
#sakuatsu fluff | with model kiyoomi x college student atsumu
where atsumu loves to weave flowers into kiyoomiās hair. he loves the way the pale, snow white of honeysuckles contrasts with dark curls, the way lavender looks crowding next to long lashes, the way pinks +
and reds and oranges of wildflowers stand out against pale skin and make him glow even more than he already does.
kiyoomi calls it silly, childish. and atsumu understands why. heās done it before with past boyfriends, all of whom had been decidedly less patient +
Jan 29, 2023 ā¢ 4 tweets ā¢ 1 min read
#sakuatsu soulmate au | where you and your soulmate recieve the same injury when you get hurt.
but the problem with that is that atsumu is a professional boxer and kiyoomi is a police office so neither of them know if the injuries came from them or the other person. +
which leads both of them to believe that they, in fact, must not have soulmates.
if kiyoomi wakes up with an unexplained bruise on his chest, he assumes it must be from tackling a runner the day before. if atsumu comes home with a shiner, itās simply the result +
