Thread by @UncleMthwithi

Yesterday Marked 1 month since I went into hiding. I will tomorrow do 5 threads to share my experiences over the last month. I will also reveal the identity of one Ferret enabler. I have learnt to tell my story as a means to stay afloat
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There are days we are hopeful that a New Zimbabwe will come and we will go back home. Then there are days, like today, where I am overwhelmed, discouraged & Hopeless. As a Depression Survivor I get episodes and emotional rollercoasters

I find myself missing my son who calls me Commander 🤣 and wonder if I will see him again. I miss dancing with him and watching his jolly self play. I catch myself gazing in Oblivion planning my own funeral and wondering if this is the Zimbabwe that our fathers died for

I at times contemplate going back to hand over myself to these guys, walk into a certain death. It's a suicide mission in the hands of the State but it's better than taking one's own life. It's a mess 😭😭

I have learnt that communicating our fears and struggles is not weakness, but therapy in its self. I have read many ZPRA War diaries and saw how our Stalwarts had these moments jotted in their diaries. In any case we might die and none will tell our story. It's a mess 😭😭 😭

I have asked Colleagues to Drap my Black Casket thus, should that fateful day come. It's a mess. 😭😭😭. It's one of those bad days. Tomorrow we rise. We Push. We Phanda. We Pray. Dulce et Decorum Est Pro Patria Mori is a Lie😭