𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔡 𝔬𝔣 𝔶𝔬𝔲
#taekookau where bad boy Jungkook doesn’t believe in school, or a 9-5.
So signing up as a phone sex operator was the best thing he ever did. But when he got addicted to a frequent caller the last person he expected was his potential step-brother.
#taekookau where bad boy Jungkook doesn’t believe in school, or a 9-5.
So signing up as a phone sex operator was the best thing he ever did. But when he got addicted to a frequent caller the last person he expected was his potential step-brother.
x: most if not all photoshopped pictures are from ‘jeonsedit’ as stated on pictures
x: ignore timestamps😭
x: first au omg
x: lowkey hella spelling fails
x: try not to break the thread milkies🥺😪
x: I LOVE YOUR FEEDBACK SO LIKE YES PLS ily
x: ignore timestamps😭
x: first au omg
x: lowkey hella spelling fails
x: try not to break the thread milkies🥺😪
x: I LOVE YOUR FEEDBACK SO LIKE YES PLS ily
Jungkook’s People:
x: Kim Namjoon
x: Min Yoongi
x: Jung Hoseok
All: 22 and over 💕 + out of school
x: Kim Namjoon
x: Min Yoongi
x: Jung Hoseok
All: 22 and over 💕 + out of school
Taehyung’s People:
x: Park Jimin
x: Kim Seokjin
All: under 20💕 + still in school
x: Park Jimin
x: Kim Seokjin
All: under 20💕 + still in school
3. Jungkook doesn’t get it. He’s spent his whole life trying to get his father to change. To be an actual example for him so that they could do things. Father-son things. But he never would. But when a woman comes he ready to risk it all. Doing anything and everything to show-
4. - he’s worthy. But Jungkook can’t recall one time where he’s made the same effort for him. His own son. What’s worse is his whole ‘you don’t know love’ analogy.
Can he blame him for not knowing love? He doesn’t know love. He never showed it to him.
Can he blame him for not knowing love? He doesn’t know love. He never showed it to him.
6. Jungkook doesn’t even feel in the mood to clock in for his night shift. He doesn’t know what would make him feel better right now.
7. Appears a smile on his face when his phone buzzes again
11. Taehyung ate the whole night with his mother. On Netflix with ice cream and sushi (with other things that don’t match) until Taehyung was convinced he, himself was turning into a middle aged woman.
Rushing to his room upon realisation, he collapsed onto his bed.
#taekookau
Rushing to his room upon realisation, he collapsed onto his bed.
#taekookau
19. Jungkook almost found himself laughing at his state. Hasn’t seen the baby, hasn’t heard the baby, but was currently placing a firm hand over his pulsing dick to tame what he was already doing to him.
He begs.
And he begs well.
Jungkook likes that.
He begs.
And he begs well.
Jungkook likes that.
29. best friends are there to get you through hard times. they’re also there to interrupt your oral sessions
#taekookau
#taekookau
31. Taehyung almost couldn’t take it. The praise. He’s never had a dom confident enough to go intimately go through every detail. Show him exactly what he does to him and it was making his head spin. His chest fluttered every time he called him, his boy, or baby, or princess-
32. He made him feel so confident. Like the sexiest he’s seen and it was making Taehyung wonder what he looked like. What he sounded like. How his voice would sound saying all these things to him. Why and how he was this giving and desperate for a complete stranger.
33. He didn’t know if he should be sad or grateful that this man through text was the best he’s ever had. The way he made him feel. Cockiness filled his head as Sir took another 5 minutes to reply. Just like the last time. He loved how he got to him, loved to show off for him.
37. Taehyung could confidently say he’s never felt so empty in his life. He couldn’t stop watching, pulsing, bucking, whining all at once. He didn’t know whether to call Jimin and cry or to pull his hair out from going insane. Watching it he couldn’t focus on anything else-
38. - grabbing his huge bunny plushie and grinding slutty against it, his eyes not leaving his phone. It was the most beautiful he’s ever seen. So thick and long, there was almost no way it would fit in him even if he tried but that’s what turned him on so much more, his size-
39. - kink drowning him in sexual frustration. He whimpered against his plushie, cuddling against it and moving his hips consistently, anything to ease the pain of what he was witnessing. Every scenario of how he wanted it flooded his brain and all he could think about was him-
40. How bad he’d destroy if he was here. The type to make him feel it for weeks. Tae’s moans got louder as he replayed it continuously. He should be embarrassed of his state, barely being touched but so so close to cumming with the sound of his name. If sir could watch him now-
42. Jungkook found it adorable. Too adorable. And it made him groan with the inability to take it. The difficulty to type, the disarray that his dick caused. He wanted to spoil him with it every night, watch him fall apart all because of him.
43. But he could tell. Tell there was something more. Something he was holding back, and judging by his texts it wasn’t hard for Jungkook to gather. This was his baby and he knew what he needed. Like he was meant for him.
45. Taehyung being scared to call Jungkook daddy without his permission because he was scared he was gonna leave him and give him a time out, did THINGS to Jungkook personally. So scared to be without him for even a night, he made him so hard and soft at the same time.
47. ‘D-daddyyy-mmmhhng, my g-god-‘ Taehyung stuttered against his plushie, Jungkook’s words getting to him and making him feel light headed. He was glistening in his own sweat, dewy skin against his damp sheets, holding on to his dear bunny for strength.
49. After these particular instructions, he timed his baby. Monitoring from a distance and notice how much longer it was taking him. How much more he was struggling than when they first started talking. Checking up on his baby:
50. Note taken: when teased and stimulated for too long, baby gets sensitive and emotional. Part of getting to know what Taehyung likes was also part of knowing when the boundary was even if he didn’t say it hisself. He had to know when to be soft, when to be sadistic, persistent
53. Butterflies filled his stomach. Suddenly feeling super shy and needy, Taehyung nervously played with his sheets. He couldn’t describe the burning ache to be perfect for the stranger, to be everything he’s ever wanted. But he ached please him. So what if he can’t?
55. His nerves turned into excited anxiety, insecurities and fear leaving his body almost immediately. So so so comfortable, he didn’t want to let this go. Just the constant question:
Do you trust me? Can you let me take care of you?
Do you trust me? Can you let me take care of you?
57. ‘Baby?’
To that you’d hear Taehyung’s soul leaving his body into resurrection, and his heart left miserably into non existence with the DEPTH of this man’s voice. Embarrassingly, a word didn’t leave his mouth. Rather an uncontrollable shameful moan because of daddy.
To that you’d hear Taehyung’s soul leaving his body into resurrection, and his heart left miserably into non existence with the DEPTH of this man’s voice. Embarrassingly, a word didn’t leave his mouth. Rather an uncontrollable shameful moan because of daddy.
58. ‘Just listen to you. Is this what daddy’s doing to you?’
Taehyung was still in shock and overwhelming amounts of pleasure, cuddling his plushie harder, the cutesy whine Jungkook’s ever heard to be dismissed. So so fucking gone, it was admirable.
‘Fuck baby. So fucking wet.’
Taehyung was still in shock and overwhelming amounts of pleasure, cuddling his plushie harder, the cutesy whine Jungkook’s ever heard to be dismissed. So so fucking gone, it was admirable.
‘Fuck baby. So fucking wet.’
59. After Taehyung's pretty please's and muffled moans, Jungkook's will to tease him almost vanished. Too weak himself to not give him what he wants. He was gonna make Taehyung cum tonight and he was gonna make him cum hard. He needed to hear what that beauty would sound like.
64. Taehyung’s torso length bunny that Jimin swears is too big/terrifying and has gone through way too much
#taekookau
#taekookau
67. Jungkook’s heart and dick warmed. He really would do anything for his little bean. He could just imagine him whining against the sheets, tugging on everything and anything to be touched again. Such a baby boy. Taking care of him was his favourite.
71. Taehyung giggled into his sheets. Appreciative of the fact that he can carry a conversation and that his humour isn’t deader than his exes🥰☺️he felt so unexplainably warm and comforted.
#taekookau
#taekookau
79. Taehyung’s heart might have crumbled at the reply. Hating that his friends were right he just wanted something positive to take away the fact that he’s in one of the most difficult times of his life. He just wanted something he loved to be real. Just for a little while.
80. He knew it was a fantasy, but he wanted to at least get to the second chapter.
83. Jungkook wondered what made him so insecure about them all of a sudden. Given their circumstances he can understand, but he genuinely thought he did everything he could to show him he was something to him. He forgot he was doing his job from the moment he said hello.
85. A genuine smile spreading on Taehyung’s face. It scared him because it didn’t stop. This is all he wanted to do, talking to him all day on his bed. Finding out everything about him. But-
92. The reactions-
Daddy🥺
Daddy🥺
98. After talking with his boys for an amount of time, Jungkook realised his baby took FAR too long to respond and it was unbearable. As if Tae could read his mind-
#taekookau
#taekookau
100. Jungkook carded a hand through his hair, as he laid back frustratedly onto his bed. His hands almost shook with ache, he was losing control that bad. Reading back over Tae’s texts he got hard in less than a minute, slowly palming over himself in attempt to cool down.
101. There’s no way, Guk thought. If he’s this good just over the phone, if he can make him feel the way he does with a damn keyboard, he’s almost positive if they made things happen physically Guk would fall in love. He was almost embarrassed because this isn’t him-
102. Shit doesn’t get to him at all, he doesn’t let it. So to feel this weak, damn near vulnerable showing this side to Tae so early on, it practically scared him. He’s usually in control, with everything. He didn’t like the fact that he was feeling so much attachment and need.
103. He didn’t like the fact that this pretty boy was reminding him of what he buries so deep inside himself with other people. Other people except him.
And kinda Hoseok but don’t tell joon, he’ll feel left out.
And kinda Hoseok but don’t tell joon, he’ll feel left out.
111. They both asked the question. Because it’s technically...delusional right? So why were they both willing to look it?
114. Jungkook wanted to throw his phone out the window, in denial. He knows that when it comes to Hoseok he’s forced to be honest. Him being the hardest to lie to. But the process still pained him. Expression being when he’s the most uncomfortable.
115. ‘Okay no, over it. I’m blocking myself.’ Guk smiled comedically in his pain.
117. A few hours. That’s all Guk had to wait for, but the anxiety didn’t stop from building slowly. He was already tired of this. This is why he just has fuck buddies, there’s barely any feelings to consider or deal with.
124. Hoseok and Guk has actually a good time. Jungkook almost wasn’t dreading for the call from the dad to say he’s one his way with the new fam. They had ice cream, chilled on Netflix and of course Hoseok cuddled him into sanity. He thankfully felt better about how he felt.
125. He still wanted to know what was going on with seok. Good thing that he wasn’t gonna wait for him to tell him himself, and instead find out on his own.
131. ‘I’m...’ Jin sat back in his chair. Jimin couldn’t contain the sadness that filled his chest. The way Sir spoke to Taehyung is quite literally all that Taehyung has ever wanted. Their conversations of finding a modern day Prince Charming, one that treats you like the last-
132. -jewel on earth, the complete opposite to how Taehyung’s been treated for 94% of his life by boys, and HERE it was. In this man. He could see how and why Tae was so comfortable with him. How beautiful he was made to feel.
133. After the frat party, Jimin couldn’t see Taehyung ever speaking to a boy like this again. To the point where they both kind of felt emotional. He’s so closed off and cold to so much in the world, it blew them away that Sir was able to get Tae out of that.
134. ‘We should...’ Jimin began. Still speechless. ‘We have to? Jimin, we literally have to.’ Jin agreed. They needed this for Tae, needed to see him genuine happy again. To not be so traumatised by what happened that night. For him to understand not every boy is like that one.
135. ‘What’s that?’ Jin squinted his eyes. ‘Oh the media finally loaded. God, he talks so fucking hot, how did Taehyung handle this?’ Jin was flustered himself. ‘Just let it load.’
136. ‘OH MY GOD-‘ Jimin clutched his chest, unable to save a current choking Jin.
144. Jimin couldn’t stand it. He knew he should’ve done something about this back then. But he wanted to respect Taehyung’s decision. It didn’t make sense.
145. TODAY, Namjoon and Tae rekindled the same exact time that Jungkook is surprisingly in the family that Taehyung’s mom is now apart of. In a place where he has to deal with Jungkook again, after what happened last year.
146. Something close to hatred filled his gut and Jin had to force him to think rationally. Watching Taehyung go through what he did, broke him to a million pieces. He can’t stand by this time.
(Guys forgive my spelling mistakes, I’m lowkey dumb?? Find out next time on milkythighs can’t spell 😉💖)
155. Namjoon almost couldn’t hear his own thoughts. So much going through his brain he wanted to turn it off. As well as needing to find the truth from Taehyung, he also had to figure out why he was being threatened. He stared at the messages again.
157. The person knew his name. And he knew Taehyung. So what mutuals could they possibly have? Other than Jungkook himself. Whoever it was, Namjoon had a feeling he knew where to start. All questions pointed to Taehyung.
158. What does Taehyung know? What danger Tae could’ve been in in the first place? Why would Jungkook be of danger to him? Why he never told Namjoon the real truth of what happened. Why NEITHER of them, told him. They were all so close. It didn’t make sense.
159. From protecting them both, things quickly turned into finding out what they both hid. What truly happened. He had to find out.
162. Taehyung looked in the bathroom mirror and adjusted himself. He wanted to run, never face this again. But something else inside him told him he had to. He had to know finally why Jungkook acts like he never existed. And why Namjoon was always the damn tie.
163. He was gonna meet up with joon. And he was gonna get the answers he wanted with jungkook. It’s just too bad he’s gonna have to lie to people to get them.
166. Jungkook was just about to reply when he walked past the bathroom and heard the quiet and heart-breaking sobs. His mom said he wasn’t feeling his best that day and since then they’ve been talking in the living room. The fact that he was still in there caused something that-
167. -Jungkook believes the humans call, ‘worry’.
174.
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175. Promise?
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181. A sucker for those too, aren’t you?
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(Delay on the rest of the update babies, sowwwy. TOMORROW promise 🌙 I’ll take it easy on your tears for just tonight)
183. The family had what should’ve been an awkward family dinner. But instead of awkward, strangely not.
It was just something...unfamiliar.
It was just something...unfamiliar.
184. Taehyung’s mother and Jungkook’s father were so into each other that their energy never lacked. And as for Taehyung and Jungkook themselves, there was an odd comfort. An odd need that both of them shared.
185. Neither have them have thought about their parents once tonight. Not even for a second. Just the connection that they were currently having with each other. Only Taehyung was the only one who knew why.
186. Tae truly tried not to look too much, his face. His fucking arms. Height. Tattoos. His hair that now came to the bottom of his nose. He grew up so...so fucking well. And it made Taehyung so fucking mad.
187. How even with everything that Jungkook did to him, he still wanted to jump on him. He still wanted to pull in his hair. Still wanted to be the victim of his muscles, (in a good way). His slave.
188. Maybe the fact that he’s not who he used to be. That’s what’s getting Taehyung so excited. The fact that he has to get to know him all over again. Get to know what weakens him.
He had to shake himself off multiple times throughout the dinner.
He had to shake himself off multiple times throughout the dinner.
189. He wasn’t, slutty for him. He guesses. It was just...thoughts. The thoughts. They passed him consistently the more he looked at every detail on the built man. They were younger when they fell in love. And Jungkook is simply just not that anymore.
190. He wondered what Jungkook thought. How he saw him. If there was anything in him that could remember who he used to be to him. Underneath all the anger and hurt there was still so much admiration, attraction, and care. And it confused him.
The rollercoaster of emotions.
The rollercoaster of emotions.
191. To get a break from Jungkook’s gaze, Taehyung decided to collect the dishes. And take them to the kitchen while everyone else made their way to the living room. But of course, Taehyung is a flustered mess and has sweaty hands.
192. ‘Woah. You okay?’ Jungkook steadily held Taehyung’s hip, catching the plates that he would’ve dropped if Jungkook didn’t catch them + him.
193. ‘Y-Yeah, I’m um...clumsy.’
Jungkook laughed lowly before taking the plates off of him and going into the kitchen.
‘Cute.’
Jungkook laughed lowly before taking the plates off of him and going into the kitchen.
‘Cute.’
194. They cleaned up together. Mostly I’m comfortable...flustered silence. For something so comfortable it was also quite torturous. Both of them wanting to say something but also wanting to just be in each other’s presence. Look at each other for a while. Familiarise. Admire.
197. Taehyung almost found it cute. Reminded him of when.
‘I would never ever douse myself flowers just for a boy. Do I look romantic to you?’
‘I would never ever douse myself flowers just for a boy. Do I look romantic to you?’
199. He went on his phone. For the first time, daring to go into that folder. The folder that he hasn’t looked at since. The folder with the memories that still tie them together.
Flowerboy.
Flowerboy.
201. Taehyung had the habit of lying to Jimin on what he’s deleted and what he hasn’t. Pictures and videos are memories of what shouldn’t have happened - he’d always say.
He’s sorry that he hasn’t let go. But he could never delete him. Not these.
He’s sorry that he hasn’t let go. But he could never delete him. Not these.
202. Taehyung recognised the thumbnail immediately. It’d been four months in. And Jungkook was still trying. Still trying to get him to be his.
That night, Jungkook and his bad editing (to his disagreement) did a thing. And it made Taehyung’s heart skip.
That night, Jungkook and his bad editing (to his disagreement) did a thing. And it made Taehyung’s heart skip.
203. The thing:
The Make Me Yours Production; by your gukkie😊🌙✨
The Make Me Yours Production; by your gukkie😊🌙✨
205. Tae smiled to himself, genuine happiness remembering that night.
Jungkook told him he was in love with him.
And still Taehyung didn’t believe him. He thought it was infactuation. Not love. He giggled, remembering how he cried still like a bitch.
Jungkook told him he was in love with him.
And still Taehyung didn’t believe him. He thought it was infactuation. Not love. He giggled, remembering how he cried still like a bitch.
206. Thinking it would die down soon, but it didn’t. Jungkook said it that night and every night to come after that.
He still remembers what it felt like to hear him say it.
He still remembers what it felt like to hear him say it.
208. Tae’s cheeks were hurting from giggling. He was so bad at acting like shit didn’t effect him. God, if he could go back in time. Guk saw right through that shit.
211. Tae had to cover his mouth in case he was heard. Jungkook was so...damn goofy. So excited for the littlest of contact that he could get with him. He’s so glad he didn’t delete these 🥺💐 he’s so glad he gets to reminisce for bit
#taekookau
#taekookau
212. He still remembers how clingy they were that night. Taehyung used to sneak him into his bedroom window like he did almost every day of the week without his mother knowing. Only after 10 of course. And it’d be perfect. So so perfect.
They were.
They were.
213. Sleeping together. Waking up together and throwing Jungkook and his belongings out the window so Tae’s mother wouldn’t notice.
Meeting again that same night. He loved it. He loved them together.
Meeting again that same night. He loved it. He loved them together.
214. Taehyung got excited seeing more videos that he saved, thanking his past self.
They were so in love.
Yet Tae was always so scared to say it out loud.
They were so in love.
Yet Tae was always so scared to say it out loud.
217. Taehyung bit his lip involuntarily, remembering the type of kisser Jungkook was.
He was so possessive. He knew how to get what he wanted out of Taehyung with just his lips. He didn’t need to use his hands, his body,or his words. He just had to kiss Taehyung right there.
He was so possessive. He knew how to get what he wanted out of Taehyung with just his lips. He didn’t need to use his hands, his body,or his words. He just had to kiss Taehyung right there.
218. The way he used to look at him. Bite on him, spank him, lick his skin wet, pink.
Taheyung truly admired himself for how long he waited until he finally let Jungkook hit.
Taheyung truly admired himself for how long he waited until he finally let Jungkook hit.
219. He scrolled on more videos on his phone, nearly pouting. He hasn’t had such affection since. Not since Sir, a couple days ago.
Who he almost completely forgot after seeing Jungkook.
Who he almost completely forgot after seeing Jungkook.
220. Taehyung smiled at the next video. Jungkook used to be so obsessed with his stomach. His soft skin. He’s always been the opposite to Guk. He’s always been hard, built. Whilst Tae has been plumper, softer.
221. ‘Shut the fuck up.’ Tae laughed, no way he saved this. His eyes by default watered, the previous memory warming him. Watching the video over and over again.
They were so fucking corny.
They were so fucking corny.
224. Tae shook his head, holding his stomach from the slight stitch he was getting.
It would’ve worked! If Jungkook would resist for a minute of Tae’s lips not on his.
It would’ve worked! If Jungkook would resist for a minute of Tae’s lips not on his.
228. Tae awww’d out loud. He remembered this. It was hard time but he can’t look back at laugh at how scared he was. I mean, for good reason but...he had no idea how to own his feelings. He probably still doesn’t.
This was 9 months in. Jungkook still fighting for Tae.
This was 9 months in. Jungkook still fighting for Tae.
229. He was feeling sad that day, and Jungkook went long and beyond to cheer him up. Surprising him with flowers and dinner later that evening.
(Also Sorry hyungsik, love you, I don’t wanna do this to you hunny but you a real dick in this au, but ly xo xo)
231. Something in Taehyung still drops when he hears that name. Just like right now as he’s reading it, and back then reading it.
It still hurt.
It still hurt.
236. The first time Jungkook saw Taehyung it was on stage.
Jungkook thought he saw God.
He was a biker. Captain of the rugby team at the time. Taehyung was modelling. And in performing arts; drama major.
After the school won the tournament, the school celebration play-
Jungkook thought he saw God.
He was a biker. Captain of the rugby team at the time. Taehyung was modelling. And in performing arts; drama major.
After the school won the tournament, the school celebration play-
237. -was right after. And Jungkook only went to see who he was gonna bring to the party that night. He just won them the tournament, he deserved some exquisite ass.
Nothing in the history of ass-a-nomics could’ve prepared him for Taehyung.
Nothing in the history of ass-a-nomics could’ve prepared him for Taehyung.
238. The pretty boy in the silk dressing robe, hemmed cherry blossoms, getting ready backstage. His glow, beauty so unmatched.
239. One man show 🌙✨
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milkies, should I post what happened between hyungsik and taehyung tonight? Or tomorrow night? I feel like I already posted a lot and I don’t wanna overwhelm with new information??? lol help??
milkies, should I post what happened between hyungsik and taehyung tonight? Or tomorrow night? I feel like I already posted a lot and I don’t wanna overwhelm with new information??? lol help??
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Now is a good time to warn all you lovelies that there will be mentions of sensitive topics such as harassment and violence. Further down the line, this may include incidents of trauma, drug use, neglect and other mental health related issues.
If this is something you are sensitive, I urge you to stop reading now ✨🌙 I appreciate my loyal readers but please think if this could come of affect to you before you continue this au. I care about you and your emotions more, hopefully you do too💕
Harassment, abuse and rape aren’t things I take lightly, having that I’m no stranger too it. If it has happened to you I’m so so sorry and I’m always here to talk and give advice on healing yourself and self love. I care.
Don’t do what Tae did and bury your experience. You don’t deserve that 💕
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257. Taehyung stopped before he remembered too much. He suddenly felt extreme anxiety. His body telling him to stop before he triggered himself. Everything was good until then.
He had Jungkook. They’d declared each other as theirs. And they had the perfect place to call them.
He had Jungkook. They’d declared each other as theirs. And they had the perfect place to call them.
258. That night went so unexpectedly. And Taehyung wasn’t strong enough to go further into memory lane before he remembered the bad that happened that night.
Why he lost Jungkook in the first place.
Why he lost Jungkook in the first place.
259. ‘Baby, you in there? I have to gooo.’ Taehyung was startled by his mother knocking on the door.
‘Yeah. Yeah mom, sorry I’ll-‘ he stumbled a little his legs weak from the same position he’s been in, unlocking the door.
‘Yeah. Yeah mom, sorry I’ll-‘ he stumbled a little his legs weak from the same position he’s been in, unlocking the door.
260. ‘Sweetheart, I asked Jungkook to show you your room.’
264. Seeing his face, Taehyung could hate him right now. Jungkook could see right through him and he made sure to show Taehyung that he could see right through him. It was almost a lustful threat. That he was gonna test him until he got it out of Taehyung.
265. It suddenly reminded Taehyung of their relationship before. It was torturing, and addictive. Sexual and triggering.
Bring the worst out of each other, but for each other.
And that’s exactly why they couldn’t let go.
Bring the worst out of each other, but for each other.
And that’s exactly why they couldn’t let go.
273. Taehyung reaches for his phone before he realises he can’t...share any of this with anyone. He can’t tell Jimin the plan because he wouldn’t agree with it for a second. He doesn’t trust Taehyung as it is around Jungkook. And he definitely doesn’t trust Jungkook himself.
274. He can tell Jin, he’s most likely to listen but, he’s also most likely to not keep it from Jimin.
Can’t tell his mother because that’ll break the happiness she’s been building with this man for so long.
Can’t speak to his step brother to be and damn well not his step-
Can’t tell his mother because that’ll break the happiness she’s been building with this man for so long.
Can’t speak to his step brother to be and damn well not his step-
275. -step father.
He can’t tell Namjoon because then he’d have to explain what happened that night between him and Jungkook. And the real reason he’s been distant with him.
He had no one.
No one to guild him through this, tell him it’ll be fine.
He can’t tell Namjoon because then he’d have to explain what happened that night between him and Jungkook. And the real reason he’s been distant with him.
He had no one.
No one to guild him through this, tell him it’ll be fine.
276. Taehyung had no possible idea on how he was going to manipulatively rebuild with someone that he already had a foundation with, without exposing what’s been hidden.
He just wanted one person who he could tell the truth to. Be honest on what he was doing but-
He just wanted one person who he could tell the truth to. Be honest on what he was doing but-
277. He didn’t have that option.
279. What about...Sir?
The thought rang through Taehyung’s head, a light almost being shone on his state of pity and hopelessness. Fucking Sir.
His..comfort place. He was perfect. This was perfect.
The thought rang through Taehyung’s head, a light almost being shone on his state of pity and hopelessness. Fucking Sir.
His..comfort place. He was perfect. This was perfect.
280. All he had to do was explain to Sir what was happening. Who Jungkook is and of course, of course he’d help!
Taehyung smiled widely in gratitude as he began to text back.
He wasn’t alone anymore. Sir could help him face Jungkook.
Taehyung smiled widely in gratitude as he began to text back.
He wasn’t alone anymore. Sir could help him face Jungkook.
282. Jungkook stared at his screen. This felt...wrong. Altered. How could he pretend he’s not feeling two thousand things for someone who is not him.
287. Jungkook has a friend for every situation.
Hoseok - to openly express feelings he’s afraid to admit and needs to release.
Yoongi - his boy. The one he can be an asshole with. Literal partner in crime.
Then Namjoon.
Hoseok - to openly express feelings he’s afraid to admit and needs to release.
Yoongi - his boy. The one he can be an asshole with. Literal partner in crime.
Then Namjoon.
288. The one to help him things he doesn’t understand. Namjoon..saved Jungkook from something bad some time ago. He doesn’t remember much before that but sometimes things happen in Jungkook’s head.
And Namjoon is the only one that help him make sense of it. Somehow, he’s the-
And Namjoon is the only one that help him make sense of it. Somehow, he’s the-
289. -only one qualified to. This is the most activity he’s had to deal with since then. He was going to had to tell him about this soon if he didn’t want to go completely mentally insane.
292. ‘What am I t-thinking?’ Taehyung froze. Reading the message over and over.
He just spoke about how much he needed Sir today. Made such a scene about how much he effected him. Even got him to get off the hotline because he wanted something real.
And now...he was going-
He just spoke about how much he needed Sir today. Made such a scene about how much he effected him. Even got him to get off the hotline because he wanted something real.
And now...he was going-
293. -to tell him that he needs him to help him get over another man? Go down a path that isn’t his to begin with? This is between him and Jungkook. Pulling him through baggage and distractions..
Sir is gonna think he’s crazy. He can’t do that. He’ll lose him.
Sir is gonna think he’s crazy. He can’t do that. He’ll lose him.
294. Sir is the least complicated thing in his life right now, he can’t lose that. He means something to him. He does.
296. Tae needed to think straight. It was a lot to take and his brain has been scrambled the whole night but regardless, he needed- NEEDED to think straight. He could change everything if he slips up.
297. He put his phone down, laying back down onto the bed, over the covers. He sighed. Quieting his mind and becoming still, hearing all the sounds in the luxurious house. Looking up at the ceiling and around the room, he never thought Jungkook would end up in a house like this.
298. He was so much of a rough junkie, the beauty of imperfect. He loved things more...ridged. Not so upkept. Reflective and pretty. It was the type of place that Taehyung would fantasise about and Jungkook would tease him about living in a constant fairytale.
299. Only this time it was his reality. Jungkook’s.
He’s so pretty. Intimidating.
Visions of Jungkook filled his mind while Sir took some time away. Uninvited and rent free, he was like a virus.
Taehyung whined, squirming against the sheets, his eyes closing in fantasies.
He’s so pretty. Intimidating.
Visions of Jungkook filled his mind while Sir took some time away. Uninvited and rent free, he was like a virus.
Taehyung whined, squirming against the sheets, his eyes closing in fantasies.
302. Was it really his fault though? The drastic change in gukkie was enough for anyone to be flustered. Relationship history or not.
303. Just in ansight;
The Jungkook That Taehyung had-
The Jungkook That Taehyung had-
304. The Jungkook that has Taehyung a wet messy slut touching himself over the covers with the door unlocked completely exposed with fingers in his mouth and incomplete versions of his name barely passing through them over a year later
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309. Jungkook got out, minimally drying so he was dripping wet. Hands dry enough to get his phone from the room and come back to the bathroom. He sat on the tiled bench in his shower.
Yes, he is boujee, and his shower has a seat.
Yes, he is boujee, and his shower has a seat.
311. Babyboy definitely took care of him. Jungkook barely had to do anything, ask for anything. He knew what to do. And even though he couldn’t hear his baby tonight, the effect was somehow just as strong. As if babyboy was flustered and needed him too.
Always so ready for him
Always so ready for him
313. Jungkook stayed still for a few moments, floating in his post-ga phase.
Part of him needed babyboy to help him forget the boynextdoor but more of him needed to see if what he had for him was real. Or if he just wanted it to be real.
And it fucking was.
Part of him needed babyboy to help him forget the boynextdoor but more of him needed to see if what he had for him was real. Or if he just wanted it to be real.
And it fucking was.
314. Babyboy managed to make his heart flutter the same. Ache the same. Need the same.
Nothing changed from this morning. He craved him...and was still obsessed with him. How he makes him feel.
He still wanted to build with him.
He does want him.
Nothing changed from this morning. He craved him...and was still obsessed with him. How he makes him feel.
He still wanted to build with him.
He does want him.
315. Guk couldn’t move. All his senses blocked and all that existed was his confusion, staring weakly into nothing he just tried to answer the question. Why.
‘So do I just...want two people? Why do I need these two people that I barely even know?’
‘So do I just...want two people? Why do I need these two people that I barely even know?’
319. He missed him so much.
And he was right here.
One door away.
And he was right here.
One door away.
321. Tae put his phone down, shoving it under his pillow. His eyes automatically teary, his emotional state not the best right now. Anxiety getting the best of him and the situation he was in.
So much of him didn’t wanna do this. Didn’t wanna go through this.
So much of him didn’t wanna do this. Didn’t wanna go through this.
325.
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333. So free. Liberated, to be able to say it to Jungkook without all the baggage. For him to say it back.
It was all good until Jungkook took more than 15 minutes to reply. His anxiety kicking in. Wondering if it was a bad idea to bring Jungkook here.
It was all good until Jungkook took more than 15 minutes to reply. His anxiety kicking in. Wondering if it was a bad idea to bring Jungkook here.
334. ‘Tae, helloooo, gosh. Who would’ve ever guessed you of all people would be the downer of the party?’ Jin, a lot better than 20 minutes ago, stirred.
‘Yeah, take another shot,’ Jimin stirred further.
‘Guys stop. One of us have to be responsible-‘
‘Yeah, take another shot,’ Jimin stirred further.
‘Guys stop. One of us have to be responsible-‘
335. ‘-you guys can’t even stand right.’
‘That’s a fucking lie.’ Jimin coughed.
‘You can’t stand right dad.’ Jin fell into his lap.
‘I’m...nauseous and you’re never gonna call me that again.’ Taehyung groaned taking his phone out.
‘That’s a fucking lie.’ Jimin coughed.
‘You can’t stand right dad.’ Jin fell into his lap.
‘I’m...nauseous and you’re never gonna call me that again.’ Taehyung groaned taking his phone out.
337. Another 15 minutes and Taehyung doesn’t know how he lasted this long. He was going to get him. He wasn’t about to lose him here. Not with the plans they had tonight.
‘Aw come on Tae, Jungkook is grown. You afraid he got distracted by the the strippers on the way here?’
‘Aw come on Tae, Jungkook is grown. You afraid he got distracted by the the strippers on the way here?’
338. Taehyung had to remind himself that they were drunk. And when they’re drunk they happen to be annoying. He got up, pushing them off him so he can go find Guk.
339. ‘Imn-sure a cute boy is keeping him safe taehyungie you don’t need to worry.’
‘Why do you keep saying that?’ Taehyung turned around, stopping from leaving. The pain of just that suggestion was enough to have him insecure. And he didn’t know why.
‘Why do you keep saying that?’ Taehyung turned around, stopping from leaving. The pain of just that suggestion was enough to have him insecure. And he didn’t know why.
340. After how much Jungkook poured his heart out, another boy shouldn’t even be in his mind.
‘Yeah, Jin-w-what gives?’ Jimin put down his glass, trying to straighten up, noticing it too.
‘He wouldn’t do that.’ Tae said quietly.
‘Yeah, Jin-w-what gives?’ Jimin put down his glass, trying to straighten up, noticing it too.
‘He wouldn’t do that.’ Tae said quietly.
341. ‘I-I’m not saying he would! I’m just saying. That’s what N-Namjoon told me.’
‘What?’ Tae prayed he was hearing things. He was drunk too so he was...just saying stuff. Right.
‘Jin what in the fuck.’ Jimin came awake. Alert. He didn’t play when it comes to Taehyung.
‘What?’ Tae prayed he was hearing things. He was drunk too so he was...just saying stuff. Right.
‘Jin what in the fuck.’ Jimin came awake. Alert. He didn’t play when it comes to Taehyung.
342. ‘Namjoon told you fucking what?’
Jin just groaned, holding his phone up. ‘You guys are so fucking loud, why are you in my ear. I’m hungryy.’ He allowed his phone to be taken by Jimin. ‘Wanna go homee.’
‘Yeah yeah.’ Jimin mumbled, looking at the chat. Tae behind him.
Jin just groaned, holding his phone up. ‘You guys are so fucking loud, why are you in my ear. I’m hungryy.’ He allowed his phone to be taken by Jimin. ‘Wanna go homee.’
‘Yeah yeah.’ Jimin mumbled, looking at the chat. Tae behind him.
344. ‘Oh.’ Taehyung sunk.
Confused because Namjoon KNOWS about Taehyung. Knows that him and Jungkook have been at this for months. So...why would he say that unless Taehyung didn’t really mean that much to him? Has he done this before while they were talking?
Confused because Namjoon KNOWS about Taehyung. Knows that him and Jungkook have been at this for months. So...why would he say that unless Taehyung didn’t really mean that much to him? Has he done this before while they were talking?
345. Jin looked at Taehyung’s face, also coming more alert. Trying to fix things in fear he fucked something good up,
‘U-uh but maybe, you know, you and Jungkook are together now so! Maybe Namjoon doesn’t know that.’
‘U-uh but maybe, you know, you and Jungkook are together now so! Maybe Namjoon doesn’t know that.’
346. ‘Even if he doesn’t, even if they weren’t together like he could thought, that doesn’t excuse Jungkook fucking other boys and having fucking orgys when he’s been trying to pursue Taehyung, claiming to be serious about him.’ Jimin was angry, clenching slightly on jins phone.
347. ‘Jimin...’ Jin tried to signal at Taehyung’s face. Already this close to breaking apart, it would help if Jimin was a bit more sensitive right now.
‘Hey taehyungie, maybe...we should take you home and-‘
‘No! I can’t believe you.’ Taehyung looked at them both.
‘Hey taehyungie, maybe...we should take you home and-‘
‘No! I can’t believe you.’ Taehyung looked at them both.
348. ‘Jungkook isn’t c...cheating. We just got together. That doesn’t even make sense. He’s in trouble, and he needs me to find h-him, I have to-‘
‘Taehyung. You don’t even believe that. We get here and the first thing he does is shoo you away? While he-‘
‘Taehyung. You don’t even believe that. We get here and the first thing he does is shoo you away? While he-‘
349. ‘-recruits boys for his next orgy? You don’t find it weird? You just got together. He should be no where other than next to you. He should only wanna be with you right now.’
Tae scoffed, ‘you were the captain of Guk’s fan club tonight what happened? Changed your mind?’
Tae scoffed, ‘you were the captain of Guk’s fan club tonight what happened? Changed your mind?’
350. ‘After this, Yeah.’ Jimin held it in his face again. ‘You should be too. Or are you too naive to see it?’
‘Hey. Jimin, what the fuck?’ Jin hit him, he never talks like this. ‘The fuck is wrong with you?’
‘No jin. Leave it. I am guess I am naive.’
‘Hey. Jimin, what the fuck?’ Jin hit him, he never talks like this. ‘The fuck is wrong with you?’
‘No jin. Leave it. I am guess I am naive.’
351. ‘Too naive to think he could actually be in trouble, after being at the party of my fucking abuser.’
‘What? Jimin held him from leaving, ‘you t-told him? Taehyung I didn’t know-‘
‘Exactly Jimin. You don’t. And I don’t where he is so if you don’t mind I’m gonna go-‘
‘What? Jimin held him from leaving, ‘you t-told him? Taehyung I didn’t know-‘
‘Exactly Jimin. You don’t. And I don’t where he is so if you don’t mind I’m gonna go-‘
352. ‘-make sure he hasn’t gotten himself into some shit because of me. Don’t fucking follow me.’
‘No wait Tae, no. I don’t think we should...’ Jimin sighed after Tae successfully left his hold. ‘...leave you alone right now.’
‘No wait Tae, no. I don’t think we should...’ Jimin sighed after Tae successfully left his hold. ‘...leave you alone right now.’
363. ‘I don’t know jin, I don’t really have a good feeling.’ Jimin had his hands on his hips, looking in the direction Taehyung left in.
‘Well you did a good fucking job Jimin, now we don’t know where either of them are. I mean what if, if hyungsik knows that Jungkook...’
‘Well you did a good fucking job Jimin, now we don’t know where either of them are. I mean what if, if hyungsik knows that Jungkook...’
364. ‘No. Jin. Shut up. Okay? Shut up-‘
‘We’ve fucking seen drunk Hyungsik Jimin.’ Jin raised his voice, ‘ANGRY, drunk Hyungsik, the one that got Taehyung into this in the first fucking place- we are in HIS house, if he finds out NOW that Jungkook knows what he did-‘
‘We’ve fucking seen drunk Hyungsik Jimin.’ Jin raised his voice, ‘ANGRY, drunk Hyungsik, the one that got Taehyung into this in the first fucking place- we are in HIS house, if he finds out NOW that Jungkook knows what he did-‘
365. ‘Jin I’m trying to think.’ Jimin repeated multiple times trying to calm himself as well. He was really drunk.Jin was yelling in his ear. He doesn’t know where Taehyung is.And he’s in the house of the man who abused him- his now boyfriend only just finding out. Also missing.
366. Jimin’s hand had a mild shake. Sounds from his surroundings fading out, white noise filling his ears uncomfortably. He got flashbacks of that night.
When Jimin was in this exact position.
When Jimin was in this exact position.
367. Too drunk to find Taehyung. Lost. Only that time he was too late. Hyungsik had his way with him...because he didn’t find Taehyung in time. He shouldn’t have fucking left in the first place, he shouldnt have and now..
Now...
Now...
368. ‘J-Jin we gotta..tae...we cant let...’ Jimin couldn’t even form sentences, too terrified of the scenarios being built in his head.
‘Wait what do you say?’
‘What?’ Jin massaged his head, just wanting Namjoon to get here already.
‘Jin what did you say?’ Jimin grabbed him
‘Wait what do you say?’
‘What?’ Jin massaged his head, just wanting Namjoon to get here already.
‘Jin what did you say?’ Jimin grabbed him
369. ‘Hyungsik’s house? This is Hyungsik’s house?’
‘Yeah, Namjoon, that’s why he said he can’t come, h-he said that Hyungsik’s new house is too far.’
If Taehyung knew this was his place, he’d never come here. He wouldn’t have any suspicion either that this is his place-
‘Yeah, Namjoon, that’s why he said he can’t come, h-he said that Hyungsik’s new house is too far.’
If Taehyung knew this was his place, he’d never come here. He wouldn’t have any suspicion either that this is his place-
370. -because Taehyung used to be at Hyungsik’s old place all the time when they were together.
‘Jimin, have you noticed...that...’ Jin just stared in the distance.
‘What?’ Jimin looked too. It was safe to say both of them were battling delirium and anxiety at the same time.
‘Jimin, have you noticed...that...’ Jin just stared in the distance.
‘What?’ Jimin looked too. It was safe to say both of them were battling delirium and anxiety at the same time.
371. ‘He’s alone.’ Jin voice shook slightly, swallowing. Jimin could catch on to what he was thinking immediately.
They both looked at hyungsik near the stairs. Looking up at them.
He wasn’t with his boys. His boys that he was supposed to be sharing this celebration with.
They both looked at hyungsik near the stairs. Looking up at them.
He wasn’t with his boys. His boys that he was supposed to be sharing this celebration with.
372. It was unexplainable. Suspicious.
They never see hyungsik outside of crowds unless he was up to something. They both glared at him,
Instead of partying he was smiling up towards something at the stairs.
Before he turned slowly...slowly, and smiled at them.
They never see hyungsik outside of crowds unless he was up to something. They both glared at him,
Instead of partying he was smiling up towards something at the stairs.
Before he turned slowly...slowly, and smiled at them.
373. Their hearts dropped. His smile coated in something close to evil, looking right through them. It was terrifying because he didn’t break his stare, tunnel vision as if they were the only two in the room for him to look at.
As if he could hear them. This entire time.
As if he could hear them. This entire time.
374. He blinked, the first sign that he was human, before toasting his glass in the air.
Cheers.
Cheers.
375. Jin let out an audible exhale, sinking.
‘Jin- Jin, how much did you drink? How much did you fucking drink?’
The same as me...
Jimin came to the realisation.
They’ve both been insanely intoxicated all night.
They’ve been drinking...all night.
‘Jin- Jin, how much did you drink? How much did you fucking drink?’
The same as me...
Jimin came to the realisation.
They’ve both been insanely intoxicated all night.
They’ve been drinking...all night.
385. Remember?
What he said?
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What he said?
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387. Taehyung looked at the room they were in.
It didn’t feel...like a guest room, it was...lived in.
Like the sporty bed sheets...
The full walk in closet...
And the frames on the wall.
It didn’t feel...like a guest room, it was...lived in.
Like the sporty bed sheets...
The full walk in closet...
And the frames on the wall.
388. The frame on the nightstand.
389. ‘With me in it.’
390.
Location📍-
Hyungsik’s Bedroom.
Location📍-
Hyungsik’s Bedroom.
391. It felt like a mission and a half but they made the stairs. Jin trying to text him over and over.
‘Hyungsik.’
‘Thought you two would stay over there all night. I wanna thank you for coming-‘
‘Suck a dick. Choke. And die. Where’s Taehyung and where’s Jungkook?’
‘Hyungsik.’
‘Thought you two would stay over there all night. I wanna thank you for coming-‘
‘Suck a dick. Choke. And die. Where’s Taehyung and where’s Jungkook?’
392. Jin looked up from his phone. The last thing they need is for Hyungsik to be on their case too. They are already at the disadvantage. They can’t be his targets too when Taehyung and Jungkook are clearly in danger.
‘Jimin.’ He sterned quietly.
‘Jimin.’ He sterned quietly.
393. Hyungsik took a sip.
‘You know Jimin, I can’t help but feel like...you have this...raging anger against me, you know? It’s like you see me and you look just...sick. I do hope I’m getting the wrong impression.’ He smiled.
‘You know Jimin, I can’t help but feel like...you have this...raging anger against me, you know? It’s like you see me and you look just...sick. I do hope I’m getting the wrong impression.’ He smiled.
394. ‘Hyungsik, we are in your house and I’ll still nail you to your own floors. Answer my fucking question.’ Jimin took a step closer but not without losing balance for 0.000002 seconds.
‘Woah, partner. You’re tipsy. So this is what Tae meant when he said you’re a drunk.’
‘Woah, partner. You’re tipsy. So this is what Tae meant when he said you’re a drunk.’
395. ‘He’s told me you were a wild drinker before but I was saddened I never got the chance to see. Up until now, that is.’
‘Aw, well I can make you feel more than saddened if you were man enough to try. See, part of being a man Hyungsik, just so know, isn’t forcing yourself-‘
‘Aw, well I can make you feel more than saddened if you were man enough to try. See, part of being a man Hyungsik, just so know, isn’t forcing yourself-‘
396. ‘-onto indefensible pretty boys when you don’t get what you want. Because that would be....rape! And harassment but, you know all about that because...who would willingly sleep with you? It’s a career isn’t it?A little boy who sulks and takes the weak way out.’
397. ‘Must be so mad, that Jungkook didn’t even have to fucking try. Never used force once, and still, fucking still got the boy of your dreams. I mean, what type of man keeps frames pictures of their ex in their new furnished house. Still so obsessed aren’t you?’
398. Jin watched Hyungsik’s hold on his glass tighten. ‘Jimin, that’s enough. We came to look for Tae.’
‘Poor Hyungsik. A little boy at his finest. Which is why it’s impossible for Tae OR Jungkook to respect you. Now how sad...is that?’
‘Poor Hyungsik. A little boy at his finest. Which is why it’s impossible for Tae OR Jungkook to respect you. Now how sad...is that?’
399. Hyungsik nodded, taking in what he’s had. Laughing because that’s what he does best. That’s how he shields pain best.
‘Everyone here can see right through you. And although people are too scared to stand up against you, report and fight against what you did..we all think-‘
‘Everyone here can see right through you. And although people are too scared to stand up against you, report and fight against what you did..we all think-‘
400. ‘The same thing.’
‘Yeah?’ He was angry. Livid. ‘What the fucks that Jimin?’
‘Poor Hyungsikie.’ He taunted.
‘All that, and Taehyung is still fucking your best friend in your bedroom.’ Jin, flared with confidence suddenly. Jimin looking back at him, questioning when he-
‘Yeah?’ He was angry. Livid. ‘What the fucks that Jimin?’
‘Poor Hyungsikie.’ He taunted.
‘All that, and Taehyung is still fucking your best friend in your bedroom.’ Jin, flared with confidence suddenly. Jimin looking back at him, questioning when he-
401. Found that information out.
‘Bet it’s good. From the man himself.’ Jin held up his phone. ‘Something you could never give him.
‘Bet it’s good. From the man himself.’ Jin held up his phone. ‘Something you could never give him.
402. ‘Hah. Well unlike you clueless peasants I don’t have to rely on texts to get the update. I knew.’
‘What?’
‘Why have it described to me when we can all just...watch it?’ He smiled horrifyingly, holding his phone which would appear to me Jungkook and Taehyung already doing-
‘What?’
‘Why have it described to me when we can all just...watch it?’ He smiled horrifyingly, holding his phone which would appear to me Jungkook and Taehyung already doing-
403. ‘You really thought my best friend, mine, would betray me? Fall for Taehyung? For who he really is? Taehyung cried victim. And your theory is cute compared the reality of Taehyung and Jungkook being a shit show waiting to happen.’
404. ‘Have you failed to realise that your trustworthy Jungkook has him in a room naked, with all, yes, every single of our teammates, watching and filming front row, right now? Who would envy Jungkook Jimin? Everyone’s going to know and believe-‘
405. ‘Everything I’ve said since. Taehyung is easy. Anyone can have him. Anyone can watch. Who’s going to believe your dumb harassment bullshit after this? After his slutty sextape to the school? Is Jungkook raping him now too?’ He taunted the screen in front of him again.
406. To their horrors, they looked up the stairs, the rooms were closed.
It was happening now.
‘Jimin.’ Jin ran up, seeing Jimin wasn’t behind him. Jimin debating where to fuck Hyungsik up now or run to Tae’s rescue. He just hated him so much. And he knew he was up to this.
It was happening now.
‘Jimin.’ Jin ran up, seeing Jimin wasn’t behind him. Jimin debating where to fuck Hyungsik up now or run to Tae’s rescue. He just hated him so much. And he knew he was up to this.
407. ‘Jimin!’ Jin screamed this time, the fears of what Taehyung was being manipulated into scaring beyond control.
‘I swear to fucking god, Hyungsik you’re gonna get what’s coming to you and I’m going to be right there, first in line, to watch you burn-‘
‘Ooh. The hatred.’
‘I swear to fucking god, Hyungsik you’re gonna get what’s coming to you and I’m going to be right there, first in line, to watch you burn-‘
‘Ooh. The hatred.’
408. ‘I’m still here Jimin. I don’t see one person here fit enough to take me out. Unless?’
Jimin allowed jin’s rushed and loud footsteps up the stairs to be strong enough to wait for that day. Right now Taehyung needed him and Hyungsik was gonna have to wait.
Jimin allowed jin’s rushed and loud footsteps up the stairs to be strong enough to wait for that day. Right now Taehyung needed him and Hyungsik was gonna have to wait.
409. ‘Taehyung!’ Jin called, leaving without him. He had to get to him.
Jungkook wasn’t who he thought he was.
Who any of them thought he was.
Jungkook wasn’t who he thought he was.
Who any of them thought he was.
425. mayday.
426. wakeup.
427. Taehyung rose from his sleep, sweaty, panicked, scared. It was dark, only his erratic breathing to remind him of his own presence. He could move, he could taste.
His mouth was dry in oppose to his face and eyes. He felt sore, alone.
And he didn’t understand.
His mouth was dry in oppose to his face and eyes. He felt sore, alone.
And he didn’t understand.
428. He didn’t understand why he had to be here again.
He started crying, aloud. Trying to use the sheets to ground him. Remind him of his surroundings, know that he wasn’t there anymore. It was just a dream. He’s not there anymore.
He started crying, aloud. Trying to use the sheets to ground him. Remind him of his surroundings, know that he wasn’t there anymore. It was just a dream. He’s not there anymore.
429. Except he is.
Because his nightmare lives next door.
And his nightmare would soon be permanent.
Because his nightmare lives next door.
And his nightmare would soon be permanent.
430. He laid back down. His heart regulating. Until he just felt...nothing.
He hasn’t dreamt so vividly that night since last year. But now as he shut his eyes, the images played over and over and over.
The loser of the fight. The toy of the game.
He hasn’t dreamt so vividly that night since last year. But now as he shut his eyes, the images played over and over and over.
The loser of the fight. The toy of the game.
431. As if his dreams were haunting him further than his already horrid reality;
432. He couldn’t do it.
He couldn’t stay here. And he can’t face this again.
He had to leave. Let it be alone, he had to leave.
He checked the time,
4:04am. Lights out. Everyone asleep.
Perfect.
He couldn’t stay here. And he can’t face this again.
He had to leave. Let it be alone, he had to leave.
He checked the time,
4:04am. Lights out. Everyone asleep.
Perfect.
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440. He couldn’t take this. He couldn’t handle the self truth. He wish he could apologise. Take back all the hurt he caused on other people because he was too weak to move on.
441. Under all the regret, he couldn’t tie the Jungkook he knew, the Jungkook that hurt him..to the Jungkook,
today.
They’re like two different people.
today.
They’re like two different people.
442. He started to think about what he was doing. What the fuck he was actually doing.
Run away?
Where the fuck was he gonna run away TO?
Who the hell does he know?
Run away?
Where the fuck was he gonna run away TO?
Who the hell does he know?
443. Where would he settle? Survive off what? With what money? Strength? Stability?
How would this effect his mother? She’d crumble. His best friends?
God.
Taehyung what are you doing?
How would this effect his mother? She’d crumble. His best friends?
God.
Taehyung what are you doing?
444. He remained in his position, coming to terms that he’s going through a lot right now. Sir, Jungkook, his own emotional blockages. But he can’t leave his mom.
Especially knowing how dangerous Jungkook has been. Who’s to say his father is completely sane. He needs to breathe
Especially knowing how dangerous Jungkook has been. Who’s to say his father is completely sane. He needs to breathe
445. He needs to breathe...
He needs to breathe...
Breathe.
The rain thudding on his back, drenched from head to toe, his head banging so hard from the constant crying this whole night that he feels hazy.
He looked around where he was.
He needs to breathe...
Breathe.
The rain thudding on his back, drenched from head to toe, his head banging so hard from the constant crying this whole night that he feels hazy.
He looked around where he was.
446. And this wasn’t the environment to exactly settle for the night.
Mild anxiety started to brew. He was on his own out here.
Given his nightmare, he needed to get out there. The house. From the family, yes.
But coming out here...and at this time wasn’t smart or safe.
Mild anxiety started to brew. He was on his own out here.
Given his nightmare, he needed to get out there. The house. From the family, yes.
But coming out here...and at this time wasn’t smart or safe.
447. He felt unsafe. Scolding himself in his head for going, t h i s f a r away from the house. He had no idea how to get back.
His phone on 12%.
He shook the thoughts. Really, it was him shivering from the cold but, shaking his thoughts worked too.
His phone on 12%.
He shook the thoughts. Really, it was him shivering from the cold but, shaking his thoughts worked too.
448. Helped him to melt them from his mind and just...think.
He sniffles, taking out his phone, his hands numb and sore. It was freezing. And he was starting to want to go home.
‘Fuck. Please.’
He sniffles, taking out his phone, his hands numb and sore. It was freezing. And he was starting to want to go home.
‘Fuck. Please.’
449. Tae shivered, holding the phone to his ear.
‘Answer...answer...answer.’
His phone rung. And he was reminded of his dream. Those rings taunting him towards fear and pain.
The more it rang, the more he started to cry again.
He just wanted to get away from that dream.
‘Answer...answer...answer.’
His phone rung. And he was reminded of his dream. Those rings taunting him towards fear and pain.
The more it rang, the more he started to cry again.
He just wanted to get away from that dream.
450. To stop. Forget.
‘Please...p-please,’ Tae sobbed quietly. He needed it to stop. He needed him to pick up.
‘Hi, look-yeah-I know it’s absurd timing, my phone is gonna die but...’ Tae breathed, trying to get his crying out of control.
‘Meet me. I need to see you.’
‘Please...p-please,’ Tae sobbed quietly. He needed it to stop. He needed him to pick up.
‘Hi, look-yeah-I know it’s absurd timing, my phone is gonna die but...’ Tae breathed, trying to get his crying out of control.
‘Meet me. I need to see you.’
Walking...
Walking....
Walking ...
Unwelcome....
Walking ...
Walking ....
Still bodies and falcons...
Walking....
Walking ...
Unwelcome....
Walking ...
Walking ....
Still bodies and falcons...
481. Why haven’t they stopped yet?
Why aren’t they home?
Taehyung would pay to be anywhere but here. How, why did he end up here.
He tried to not look to close at anything. It wasn’t until now that he saw how deadly his surrounding was.
Why aren’t they home?
Taehyung would pay to be anywhere but here. How, why did he end up here.
He tried to not look to close at anything. It wasn’t until now that he saw how deadly his surrounding was.
482. How any one of these could’ve been him.
If Jungkook didn’t come.
If Jungkook wasn’t here.
Why...why is he here? If he didn’t come for him...why was Jungkook in,
‘Juchai.’ Taehyung whispered to himself. Seeing the word stained into the dirty street. With...
Sick.
If Jungkook didn’t come.
If Jungkook wasn’t here.
Why...why is he here? If he didn’t come for him...why was Jungkook in,
‘Juchai.’ Taehyung whispered to himself. Seeing the word stained into the dirty street. With...
Sick.
482. Together- until they weren’t.
485. ‘Where’s your friend going? Thought we could all get to know each other.’ The masked man laughed, on his motorbike stopping right in front of Jungkook.
More bikes, more men, more alter ego’d purge boys. Jungkook didn’t feel a single fear in his body.
More bikes, more men, more alter ego’d purge boys. Jungkook didn’t feel a single fear in his body.
486. Now that Taehyung was out of danger, he really couldn’t give a fuck about what was to happen from here.
He was smart.
And he’s been where they are right now. His conversion is the only reason he has a nice house and bills paid.
He was smart.
And he’s been where they are right now. His conversion is the only reason he has a nice house and bills paid.
487. He knows how they work. How they think. How they live. Him and his dad.
They’ve studied this thoroughly.
Only his dad is the one struggling to still get out.
‘I’d rather we did.’
They’ve studied this thoroughly.
Only his dad is the one struggling to still get out.
‘I’d rather we did.’
488. ‘Perfect. We can start with this.’ The man held up the package that Jungkook dropped before he saw Taehyung.
‘This better be worth it. I don’t like my time wasted, or my animals hungry.’ A man came from the middle. Not masked, just gelled back hair-
‘This better be worth it. I don’t like my time wasted, or my animals hungry.’ A man came from the middle. Not masked, just gelled back hair-
489. Muscles and terrible tattoos.
‘Meat is their favourite.’
A threat. Guk supposes.
But he stands by what he came here to do. And he was gonna follow through.
‘Cute. I am a provider after all.’
‘Meat is their favourite.’
A threat. Guk supposes.
But he stands by what he came here to do. And he was gonna follow through.
‘Cute. I am a provider after all.’
490. They didn’t like it. Not a single speck of fear in his eyes, the adrenaline, the anxiety, they wanted that.
Spitting out his toothpick the pride shattered man stepped forward.
They both planned to have fun.
It’s their favourite sport.
Spitting out his toothpick the pride shattered man stepped forward.
They both planned to have fun.
It’s their favourite sport.
510. The questions. Jesus, the questions. He knew how bad Jungkook wanted Taehyung. He wanted him more than he wanted himself. And he wanted to give Jungkook that.
But with the memories triggering such dangerous emotions for Jungkook with his condition...the doctors..
But with the memories triggering such dangerous emotions for Jungkook with his condition...the doctors..
511. They couldn’t afford that. Especially if Namjoon actually wanted to see him better.
They had to leave Taehyung...behind. No mentions, no pictures, erased.
He remembered one time, Jungkook was on the bed. Watching Namjoon take everything that could remind him of Taehyung.
They had to leave Taehyung...behind. No mentions, no pictures, erased.
He remembered one time, Jungkook was on the bed. Watching Namjoon take everything that could remind him of Taehyung.
512. He stared at him like he had no hope. No hope that he could do this on his own. Without Taehyung beside him.
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514. ‘Namjoon...please. They don’t understand.’
‘Who Jungkook?’ He sighed, still taking his shit.
Jungkook balled the sheets in his fists, he wish he could fucking move. Get someone in here, anyone in here to listen to him.
‘Who Jungkook?’ He sighed, still taking his shit.
Jungkook balled the sheets in his fists, he wish he could fucking move. Get someone in here, anyone in here to listen to him.
515. ‘The doctors Namjoon, who do you think.’ He watched Namjoon completely ignoring him. Guk tried not to cry.
‘I’m not the bad guy here Jungkook.’
‘I’m not saying you are! Joon, god please. You can’t do what they’re asking you. It’s evil. It’s...how can you do that to me?’
‘I’m not the bad guy here Jungkook.’
‘I’m not saying you are! Joon, god please. You can’t do what they’re asking you. It’s evil. It’s...how can you do that to me?’
516. Namjoon turned towards Guk, shocked.
‘How can I do this to you? Fix you? Heal you? From this shit you’ve gotten yourself into?’
He regretted it as soon as he said it. He was emotional. He had the longest day from the doctors-
‘How can I do this to you? Fix you? Heal you? From this shit you’ve gotten yourself into?’
He regretted it as soon as he said it. He was emotional. He had the longest day from the doctors-
517. And the decision was being put on his shoulders. Whether to keep Taehyung in Jungkook’s life or follow doctor procedures and completely erase him.
As much as Jungkook loved him, he knew this would work. That’s why he was so scared. The pictures is all he has.
As much as Jungkook loved him, he knew this would work. That’s why he was so scared. The pictures is all he has.
518. It’s been over a month and Taehyung still hadn’t seen him in the hospital. His mind was already so disarrayed, only remembering bits and pieces. But now the doctors want to take it all. The little he has. They didn’t even want him to have that.
519. If Joon +the doctors really made that decision, it would work. Guk knew it would. He didn’t trust his brain to function long enough to hold onto him. The memories. He was already falling apart. If they did this..this would be it. He doesn’t know if he can find his way back.
520. ‘You blame me. I get it. You think I was looking for trouble and I deserve this, like everyone fucking else, Namjoon I get it, but this-‘
Namjoon’s chest filled with sorrow. ‘That’s not what I meant Guk, I didn’t mean-‘
‘Yes you do! You all fucking do! Stop lying to me!’
Namjoon’s chest filled with sorrow. ‘That’s not what I meant Guk, I didn’t mean-‘
‘Yes you do! You all fucking do! Stop lying to me!’
521. ‘My dad won’t even come to see Namjoon! And I know how you really feel too. I’m sorry to be your fucking burden but I didn’t do this! I d-didn’t. And no one fucking believes me. I was targeted. Someone did this to me and no one is trying to help me.’
The tears falling down-
The tears falling down-
522. -his cheeks and the beeping of his monitor startled Namjoon enough to calm his movements. To show Jungkook he was listening. He didn’t want him to hurt himself.
‘Jungkook don’t cry, I believe you. I’m here aren’t I? Jungkook I promised you I’d fix this. And I will swear I-‘
‘Jungkook don’t cry, I believe you. I’m here aren’t I? Jungkook I promised you I’d fix this. And I will swear I-‘
523. ‘I’m gonna find out what happened to you-‘
‘So now it’s something that happened to me? I’m pretty sure you were tired not even a minute ago of cleaning up the shit that I gotten myself into.’
‘I didn’t mean to say that, Jungkook please. I’m...this shit is hard!’
‘So now it’s something that happened to me? I’m pretty sure you were tired not even a minute ago of cleaning up the shit that I gotten myself into.’
‘I didn’t mean to say that, Jungkook please. I’m...this shit is hard!’
524. Namjoon couldn’t help breaking down too.
‘Do you know what its like? Seeing you like this? You’re my best friend but now I’m responsible for you too? I have n-no fucking help Jungkook. How am I supposed to make these decisions, these are-‘
‘Do you know what its like? Seeing you like this? You’re my best friend but now I’m responsible for you too? I have n-no fucking help Jungkook. How am I supposed to make these decisions, these are-‘
525. ‘-people’s lives. I can’t do this on my own-‘
‘You’re not!’ Guk pulled him, ‘Namjoon, fucking listen to me! I’m trying to talk to you. I’m trying to make you see sense! You’re right, it shouldn’t be down to you. And I’m so so sorry. You don’t even..have to be here.’
‘You’re not!’ Guk pulled him, ‘Namjoon, fucking listen to me! I’m trying to talk to you. I’m trying to make you see sense! You’re right, it shouldn’t be down to you. And I’m so so sorry. You don’t even..have to be here.’
526. ‘But as it’s my life..do you not think I should have a say? Do you not think I should be apart of this decision too?’
Namjoon sighed.
‘Namjoon?’
‘You’re not in your right frame of mind to make this decision Jungkook.’
Namjoon sighed.
‘Namjoon?’
‘You’re not in your right frame of mind to make this decision Jungkook.’
527. ‘How?! What frame of mind do I have to be in to know whether I still want someone in my life or not?!’
He just didn’t get it. This was so so stupid to him. They can’t just take Taehyung away from him. Everything they ever created, shared, loved. They can’t do that to him.
He just didn’t get it. This was so so stupid to him. They can’t just take Taehyung away from him. Everything they ever created, shared, loved. They can’t do that to him.
528. ‘Calm down. Now.’
The monitor got louder and louder.
‘Jungkook I’m doing this...to help you, you’ll see-‘
‘No! I won’t ever, ever Namjoon justify or accept what you’re going to do.’ Jungkook yelled at him with what Joon believed were
hatred in his eyes.
The monitor got louder and louder.
‘Jungkook I’m doing this...to help you, you’ll see-‘
‘No! I won’t ever, ever Namjoon justify or accept what you’re going to do.’ Jungkook yelled at him with what Joon believed were
hatred in his eyes.
529. ‘I love him Namjoon! With everything I have, I love him. I c-can’t just do this without him. I can’t just live my life like he never existed. He’s all I w-wanted to fucking live for! You know what my life is really like. He’s the only...good thing. And you’re taking that.’
530. Namjoon was at such a loss. He wanted to believe so bad that the doctors...were right. That had to know what they were talking about. Jungkook...he had to be wrong. They were gonna fix this. He were.
531. Nurses rushed in, his monitor going on for far too long and Namjoon should’ve called it in. But he was frozen. So beaten and just...frozen.
Getting Jungkook’s tubes, they prepared to insert a liquid that Namjoon couldn’t identify.
Getting Jungkook’s tubes, they prepared to insert a liquid that Namjoon couldn’t identify.
532. ‘Namjoon...’ Guk weakly called for him. Almost like a cry of help, a beg.
He couldn’t face him, he couldn’t see him like this.
He turned his back and did the poorest job at holding his tears.
He couldn’t face him, he couldn’t see him like this.
He turned his back and did the poorest job at holding his tears.
533. ‘If you do t-this...’ Jungkook slowly tranquillised. ‘do t-this...and you’re not j-just like my father. You’re worse.’
Namjoon shook his head, the words hitting him like a bomb.
No. He’s nothing like his father. He’s a coward. And he’s homophobic, he’s..
Namjoon shook his head, the words hitting him like a bomb.
No. He’s nothing like his father. He’s a coward. And he’s homophobic, he’s..
534. ‘G-guk...’ joon’s voice shook.
‘Y-you don’t, Jungkook you don’t mean that, come on, please, you-you have to see why I’m doing this, I’m trying to save you-‘
‘Taking...Taehyung..’ Guk tried to get out, ‘w-would...be...’
‘Y-you don’t, Jungkook you don’t mean that, come on, please, you-you have to see why I’m doing this, I’m trying to save you-‘
‘Taking...Taehyung..’ Guk tried to get out, ‘w-would...be...’
535. ‘..killing me. You’d be losing me.’
Jungkook finally opened his eyes and looked up at Namjoon like he was the only one in the room.
‘And if that’s the case, you should’ve left me in front of that fucking car where you found me.’
Namjoon fell numb. Completely numb.
Jungkook finally opened his eyes and looked up at Namjoon like he was the only one in the room.
‘And if that’s the case, you should’ve left me in front of that fucking car where you found me.’
Namjoon fell numb. Completely numb.
536. Jungkook lifted up as far as the nurses would let him to shout. To yell. His vocals strained and painted with betrayal.
‘Why didn’t you just leave me for dead?! Why are you trying to kill me more?’
A nurse immediately escorted Namjoon out.
‘Sir, it’s for the best.’
‘Why didn’t you just leave me for dead?! Why are you trying to kill me more?’
A nurse immediately escorted Namjoon out.
‘Sir, it’s for the best.’
537. ‘We’ll call you once we’ve calmed him down. But we cannot have you currently in the room, it’s only provoking him. Hmm?’
The nurse sat him, making sure Namjoon was okay before heading back for Jungkook’s room and closing the doors.
The nurse sat him, making sure Namjoon was okay before heading back for Jungkook’s room and closing the doors.
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539. Finally snapping out the memory, he looked over at Taehyung.
The guilt was so powerful. So overbearing.
He’d never be able to tell Taehyung that he’s the reason that Jungkook has no idea who he is now.
The guilt was so powerful. So overbearing.
He’d never be able to tell Taehyung that he’s the reason that Jungkook has no idea who he is now.
540. He knows he wasn’t the sole reason. Whoever set Jungkook up, whoever targeted him, hurt him that night...they’re the reason Jungkook was never the same again but,
Namjoon knew he played a big big part of why he is the way he is now.
Namjoon knew he played a big big part of why he is the way he is now.
541. After their argument, Jungkook fell asleep. Not knowing how much he’d remember of it, Namjoon was jealous.
He sat on the chair opposite his bed.
He wishes he’d forget too. To not feel the things he just did.
‘Namjoon...?’
4am. Dark. Quiet.
Alone in his hospital room.
He sat on the chair opposite his bed.
He wishes he’d forget too. To not feel the things he just did.
‘Namjoon...?’
4am. Dark. Quiet.
Alone in his hospital room.
542. ‘Y-Yeah?’ A sad response.
‘We won’t forget each other...right?’
‘Me and you?’
Jungkook nodded softly.
‘No buddy. Stuck with me. Won’t ever leave you behind. Okay?’
‘Okay.’
‘We won’t forget each other...right?’
‘Me and you?’
Jungkook nodded softly.
‘No buddy. Stuck with me. Won’t ever leave you behind. Okay?’
‘Okay.’
543. ‘Namjoon?’
Joon kept his tears as silent as possible. Glad Jungkook couldn’t see them falling aggressively down his cheeks.
‘And Taehyung?’ Jungkook asked. Hopefully.
Namjoon looked up at the ceiling. Begged for strength. Swallowing his sobs.
‘Goodnight Jungkook.’
Joon kept his tears as silent as possible. Glad Jungkook couldn’t see them falling aggressively down his cheeks.
‘And Taehyung?’ Jungkook asked. Hopefully.
Namjoon looked up at the ceiling. Begged for strength. Swallowing his sobs.
‘Goodnight Jungkook.’
545. Namjoon’s never spoken about the accident in this much detail since it happened.
He hated how it felt.
The images that rushed to his head.
The memories, painful, painful, painful-
He hated how it felt.
The images that rushed to his head.
The memories, painful, painful, painful-
548. Joon forced himself to reel.
Constantly having to remind himself where he was.
He wasn’t there anymore.
He wasn’t in that room with Jungkook.
He wasn’t suffering mentally, he was with Taehyung.
At a coffee shop.
Constantly having to remind himself where he was.
He wasn’t there anymore.
He wasn’t in that room with Jungkook.
He wasn’t suffering mentally, he was with Taehyung.
At a coffee shop.
549. Bad men.
550. Questions.
557.
‘Why don’t you rest up hyung?
I’ll take care of you.’
‘Why don’t you rest up hyung?
I’ll take care of you.’
559. Namjoon took the time to mentally thank god for not being in that time of his life anymore. Him and Jungkook.
Even though they’ve moved forward, and made enough progress to make Namjoon cry with joy, there’s still tones that stick.
Even though they’ve moved forward, and made enough progress to make Namjoon cry with joy, there’s still tones that stick.
560. Like with their friend group. Yoongi And Hoseok were Namjoon’s best friends, and during the time he was healing Jungkook they all got really close. Of course, they weren’t there for the really bad bits but,
They came at the perfect time.
They came at the perfect time.
561. When Jungkook was facing temptations and needed the distractions. Needed friends. Which is why Namjoon’s so grateful for that. He wasn’t on his own all the way.
But it doesn’t stop the on going playful hatred.
But it doesn’t stop the on going playful hatred.
562. Jungkook treats Namjoon differently than how he treats Hoseok and Yoongi. To the point where it’s beyond noticeable.
To the point where Hoseok literally makes Jungkook apologise, even though Jungkook defends it as simply ‘humour’.
To the point where Hoseok literally makes Jungkook apologise, even though Jungkook defends it as simply ‘humour’.
563. It hurts sometimes but Namjoon knows why he’s doing it.
Subconsciously Jungkook meant what he said.
Now Yoongi and Jungkook are joint by the hip. Jungkook and Hoseok have such a strong emotional relationship.
And now, him and Jungkook haven’t been more distant.
Subconsciously Jungkook meant what he said.
Now Yoongi and Jungkook are joint by the hip. Jungkook and Hoseok have such a strong emotional relationship.
And now, him and Jungkook haven’t been more distant.
564. He tried to tell me.
565. He couldn’t be surprised. He didn’t even have the right to,
he told him.
Jungkook said he’d never forgive him. And he hasn’t. No matter how many treatments, conditions or mental disorders Jungkook can inherit.
The betrayal for him is always there.
he told him.
Jungkook said he’d never forgive him. And he hasn’t. No matter how many treatments, conditions or mental disorders Jungkook can inherit.
The betrayal for him is always there.
566. He’ll always have an unexplainable subconscious hatred for Namjoon.
And Namjoon sadly can’t expect any different.
How could he when he took away everything he loved.
He knows Jungkook loves him. There’s just something there that Jungkook can’t fake. Even with the meds.
And Namjoon sadly can’t expect any different.
How could he when he took away everything he loved.
He knows Jungkook loves him. There’s just something there that Jungkook can’t fake. Even with the meds.
573. Namjoon didn’t respond.
‘Joonie.’
He’d beg if he had to.
‘Please. Did...did Jungkook ever want me? Did he, ever try to come back to me? I need to know if he was happy to move on without me in his life...’
‘Tae...you don’t need to know that. It’ll only-‘
‘Namjoon...’
‘Joonie.’
He’d beg if he had to.
‘Please. Did...did Jungkook ever want me? Did he, ever try to come back to me? I need to know if he was happy to move on without me in his life...’
‘Tae...you don’t need to know that. It’ll only-‘
‘Namjoon...’
574. He wanted to.
He wanted to tell the truth but, Jungkook already will never forgive him.
He can’t take it if Taehyung can never too.
He loves him too much.
Too too much.
He wanted to tell the truth but, Jungkook already will never forgive him.
He can’t take it if Taehyung can never too.
He loves him too much.
Too too much.
575. And if Taehyung really has moved on like he said he has, opening that chapter again will do more damage than good.
Especially since Jungkook has someone new. He doesn’t want to hurt him.
Especially since Jungkook has someone new. He doesn’t want to hurt him.
576. But maybe he should, say the truth. Because if Taehyung did still love him...he’d be making the same mistake he did with Jungkook. After all, he separated them once. Did he have to do it again?
His mind split. It all depended on Taehyung.
It all depended on his answer.
His mind split. It all depended on Taehyung.
It all depended on his answer.
576. ‘Say you don’t love him. Miss him..’
The answer Taehyung.
‘I told you. I don’t. He has someone, and I have someone too.’
You know...sir.
The one he’s barely been able to even think about.
‘I just regret the past and I...I just want the truth. Finally. That’s it.’
The answer Taehyung.
‘I told you. I don’t. He has someone, and I have someone too.’
You know...sir.
The one he’s barely been able to even think about.
‘I just regret the past and I...I just want the truth. Finally. That’s it.’
577. ‘Don’t you think I deserve that?’
‘Yeah. Yeah Taehyung of course you do. It’s just not easy for me to say.’
‘I’ll listen. Promise.’
‘It’s just...’
‘Yeah. Yeah Taehyung of course you do. It’s just not easy for me to say.’
‘I’ll listen. Promise.’
‘It’s just...’
578. I’m sorry.
579. His world crashed.
Stupid, so idiotic of him to think there was still a tiny chance that maybe,
god maybe, Jungkook loved him the same way he did.
Even if it was only for a second.
He’d take it. He needed it.
He needed to know they meant something.
Just once.
Stupid, so idiotic of him to think there was still a tiny chance that maybe,
god maybe, Jungkook loved him the same way he did.
Even if it was only for a second.
He’d take it. He needed it.
He needed to know they meant something.
Just once.
580. The reality hitting him left, right and centre.
Jungkook probably only came back after him that night to explain himself.
Cause he knew what he did. Just wanted to clear his conscious.
This isn’t a fairytale.
And this wasn’t the part where Romeo runs for Juliet.
Jungkook probably only came back after him that night to explain himself.
Cause he knew what he did. Just wanted to clear his conscious.
This isn’t a fairytale.
And this wasn’t the part where Romeo runs for Juliet.
581. This wasn’t the part where they confess and be together for as long as they breathe, because all they want is each other.
This was truth.
Jungkook never chose him and Taehyung had to face it. He was never enough.
He was never the one.
This was truth.
Jungkook never chose him and Taehyung had to face it. He was never enough.
He was never the one.
582. Joon didn’t know how he was going to look himself in the mirror after this.
He knew what that hatred did to him and Jungkook. He lost him then.
And he’s still doing the same with Taehyung.
He wasn’t the victim but, Joonie swears he needs saving.
He knew what that hatred did to him and Jungkook. He lost him then.
And he’s still doing the same with Taehyung.
He wasn’t the victim but, Joonie swears he needs saving.
586. Jungkook couldn’t be exposed to danger. In case he relapsed and starting hurting again.
That would be bad.
Kind of like...
Being left alone in Juchai right now.
In broad daylight.
Where he could be seen.
Where he could be hurt.
That would be bad.
Kind of like...
Being left alone in Juchai right now.
In broad daylight.
Where he could be seen.
Where he could be hurt.
587. Where he could be killed.
Thoughts of ‘what the fuck were you thinking’ rampaged Taehyung’s mind.
The anxiety made him dizzy. He couldn’t let what happened to him happen again.
Jungkook had to get out of there.
Thoughts of ‘what the fuck were you thinking’ rampaged Taehyung’s mind.
The anxiety made him dizzy. He couldn’t let what happened to him happen again.
Jungkook had to get out of there.
588. Lightheaded.
What if he blacked out there?
What if he’s been overpowered?
What if he ruined all of Namjoon’s and the doctor’s hard work?
What if he’s hurt Jungkook again?
‘I’ve abandoned him...a-again, I-‘ Taehyung whispered to himself. Trapped in his head. Scared.
What if he blacked out there?
What if he’s been overpowered?
What if he ruined all of Namjoon’s and the doctor’s hard work?
What if he’s hurt Jungkook again?
‘I’ve abandoned him...a-again, I-‘ Taehyung whispered to himself. Trapped in his head. Scared.
589. He thought of ways to get to him.
He didn’t have Jungkook’s number.
He can’t ask Namjoon to call him. He doesn’t know they have anything to do with each other.
He’s gonna have to go back.
He had to go back to Juchai. He can’t leave him.
He didn’t have Jungkook’s number.
He can’t ask Namjoon to call him. He doesn’t know they have anything to do with each other.
He’s gonna have to go back.
He had to go back to Juchai. He can’t leave him.
592. Wait..
593. Taehyung thought quick. He could be lying.
With his history, and the relationship he had with Namjoon, would he admit that he was in a place like Juchai? After all his progress?
He’s forbidden to go places like that. He knows that. Namjoon knows that.
With his history, and the relationship he had with Namjoon, would he admit that he was in a place like Juchai? After all his progress?
He’s forbidden to go places like that. He knows that. Namjoon knows that.
594. Jungkook has lied before. Taehyung needed to be sure. This time. He could afford to be too late.
He tested him.
He tested him.
596. So he told the truth. He’s...okay.
But...package?
In Juchai?
If he has no business there, what business does his dad have?
But...package?
In Juchai?
If he has no business there, what business does his dad have?
598. Taehyung’s eyes started to sting again. Blinking away tears and quickly looking at Joon. He was next and didn’t have much time.
He just wants to hold Jungkook. Tell him he’s sorry. Tell him they’ll figure it out together.
Even if they can’t be together, he fucking cares.
He just wants to hold Jungkook. Tell him he’s sorry. Tell him they’ll figure it out together.
Even if they can’t be together, he fucking cares.
600. Taehyung’s mouth slowly dropped the more he read. He couldn’t describe how he felt.
This was hurting Jungkook too and he didn’t know how to make it go away.
For either of them.
But Jungkook needed him right now.
And so there’s only one place he needed to be.
This was hurting Jungkook too and he didn’t know how to make it go away.
For either of them.
But Jungkook needed him right now.
And so there’s only one place he needed to be.
601. Namjoon started to make his way back, and Tae quickly deleted the chat.
Which now he realised was dumb because Jungkook was in his recents. It would’ve made more sense to just delete the sent messages. Not the chat altogether. It was suspicious.
Which now he realised was dumb because Jungkook was in his recents. It would’ve made more sense to just delete the sent messages. Not the chat altogether. It was suspicious.
605. It was odd. And Namjoon knows Taehyung too well.
Something was going on.
And Taehyung needed help. He could see it.
He sat back down at his seat. His phone vibrating.
Something was going on.
And Taehyung needed help. He could see it.
He sat back down at his seat. His phone vibrating.
607. Did Namjoon find it awfully coincidental that Jungkook was asking about Taehyung the exact same time Taehyung was asking about Jungkook?
Absolutely.
Was Namjoon being held from the complete truth?
Absolutely.
Absolutely.
Was Namjoon being held from the complete truth?
Absolutely.
608. Joon thought about the questions Taehyung asked. His state. His weakness. His urgency.
Namjoon sat back in his chair.
‘What are you doing Taehyung? What are you trying to find out?’
Namjoon sat back in his chair.
‘What are you doing Taehyung? What are you trying to find out?’
609. Taehyung almost ran home. So numb with emotions, all he wanted to see was Jungkook.
He was this close to leaving.
And if he knew how much Jungkook needed him right now, he wouldn’t even think to do that.
He wasn’t there before. He had to be now. At least...for a while.
He was this close to leaving.
And if he knew how much Jungkook needed him right now, he wouldn’t even think to do that.
He wasn’t there before. He had to be now. At least...for a while.
610. At least until he could give them the answers they both want. Yeah, then...
Then it’ll be over.
Jungkook can continue to move on with his new person. And Taehyung can have closure.
Because as long as they’re left in the dark, the more no one is going to move.
Then it’ll be over.
Jungkook can continue to move on with his new person. And Taehyung can have closure.
Because as long as they’re left in the dark, the more no one is going to move.
612. It hurts that he has someone else but, he wants Jungkook to be happy. And he can’t be that, if the chapter they share is still open.
He’s not just doing this for him anymore, he has to find out what happened, for them.
It’s the only thing that’ll heal them both.
He’s not just doing this for him anymore, he has to find out what happened, for them.
It’s the only thing that’ll heal them both.
613. The only thing that’ll set them free.
And as for Jimin. He can settle him later.
He cannot believe he spoke to Namjoon that way. Sending those texts. He already told him to keep Namjoon of all people out of it.
And as for Jimin. He can settle him later.
He cannot believe he spoke to Namjoon that way. Sending those texts. He already told him to keep Namjoon of all people out of it.
614. He can’t continue to blame and dislike Namjoon. He wasn’t at the party and he’s been through enough.
He’s not the villain Jimin and Jin think he is.
He didn’t make Jungkook do anything.
Whatever Hyungsik and Jungkook foolishly betted on, they did it on their own.
He’s not the villain Jimin and Jin think he is.
He didn’t make Jungkook do anything.
Whatever Hyungsik and Jungkook foolishly betted on, they did it on their own.
615. It’s what happened after is what Taehyung is concerned with.
He also knew he had a decision to make.
He could continue to do this on his own. Get the answers he needs. Face Jungkook and the past alone.
He also knew he had a decision to make.
He could continue to do this on his own. Get the answers he needs. Face Jungkook and the past alone.
616. Or...he can tell Namjoon. Everything.
And he can help. Namjoon knows this Jungkook better. He’s treating him. He has the resources and connections to dig into the past. Jungkook’s condition is tender. And Taehyung has no experience with it.
Namjoon could be a key asset.
And he can help. Namjoon knows this Jungkook better. He’s treating him. He has the resources and connections to dig into the past. Jungkook’s condition is tender. And Taehyung has no experience with it.
Namjoon could be a key asset.
617. Namjoon could be the key thing to get the truth. He’s been trying to solve Jungkook’s case and still hasn’t found anything. But if they work together..they can bring pieces of the puzzle to one.
Namjoon is the only thing that connects them both.
Him...and Hyungsik.
Namjoon is the only thing that connects them both.
Him...and Hyungsik.
618. Taehyung wasn’t willing to reconnect with that man. But he would have to if he was gonna solve Jungkook’s case.
If he had Namjoon, he could cover that part.
There were so many benefits.
As for the cons...
If he had Namjoon, he could cover that part.
There were so many benefits.
As for the cons...
619. He didn’t know if he could trust Namjoon. He’s emotionally invested. And couldn’t stop talking about his happiness for how things are.
With Jungkook moving on and being ‘happy’, out of fights, focused on friends and family...he doesn’t know how much of Namjoon-
With Jungkook moving on and being ‘happy’, out of fights, focused on friends and family...he doesn’t know how much of Namjoon-
620. -would want to go down that route. He’s still traumatised. He’s still guilty of his past. There’s things he wants to block out.
He has a feeling Namjoon would be too committed to the present to give his 100% to the case.
He has a feeling Namjoon would be too committed to the present to give his 100% to the case.
621. Things still felt odd. They’ve known each other for a long time, taehyung can tell when something is off just as much as Namjoon.
How much of Namjoon can he really trust? What if he tries to talk him out of this? He’s the most protective of Guk and...this could go so wrong.
How much of Namjoon can he really trust? What if he tries to talk him out of this? He’s the most protective of Guk and...this could go so wrong.
622. With or without him, this was risky. Dangerous.
He only had one chance and he had to,
Had to,
Do this right.
What will he choose?
He only had one chance and he had to,
Had to,
Do this right.
What will he choose?
623.
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I’ve decided to make you guys more involved in my creations as it challenges me as a writer and connects you as the audience. For each staple in the au, you’ll get a choice.
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624.
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Trial I.
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643. As much fear and guilt he obtained, parts of him didn’t believe his father. He’s lied to get what he wants before. And if he really wanted out, if he really intended to be out... Why wasn’t that the first thing he mentioned?
644. Why was he so tense and piercing, almost defending his lifestyle this morning if he was going through this major change?
He approached Jungkook with such urgency, it just...seemed more like a deal than retirement.
He approached Jungkook with such urgency, it just...seemed more like a deal than retirement.
645. Nothing made sense in his head. He didn’t know who to trust. He didn’t know where he was safe.
He wants to believe his father. But what if he can’t?
What if this is the part where he lets him down? Again.
He wants to believe his father. But what if he can’t?
What if this is the part where he lets him down? Again.
646. He can’t take it if he does He just wants a father. His father. Dealing with this shit is hard. And yeah he has Namjoon. But Namjoon can’t replace a fathers love. He’s been fucking up his entire life and right now, Jungkook’s never needed him more.
647. He’s looking for safety but...he’s starting to question if he’s looking for it in the right place. If he’s ever going to truly get that from his father. He’s scared more than anything that he never will.
651. Look what I did.
Look what I did. Look what I did.
Look what I did.
What have I done.
What have I done.
What have I done.
What have I done.
It was everywhere...everywhere
Look what I did. Look what I did.
Look what I did.
What have I done.
What have I done.
What have I done.
What have I done.
It was everywhere...everywhere
653. He didn’t stop. He wanted to, he swears, at one point he genuinely wanted to stop. But then there was that fuel. That rush that for some reason that Jungkook wasn’t proud of, fulfilled his being. The pain infliction. He didn’t see the people of Juchai.
654. With every hit, all he saw was himself.
The fight.
The heart.
The blood.
The screams.
The gushes.
The mess.
The smoke that he had right after.
Sick.
The fight.
The heart.
The blood.
The screams.
The gushes.
The mess.
The smoke that he had right after.
Sick.
655. One of his victims dropped a pack after he was beaten to the ground.
Sober.
Jungkook had been since he started treatment. His proper treatment. He hadn’t smoked since. They would make his blackouts worse. His memory worse. His mental strength and independence worse.
Sober.
Jungkook had been since he started treatment. His proper treatment. He hadn’t smoked since. They would make his blackouts worse. His memory worse. His mental strength and independence worse.
656. They aided in his irresponsibility. He was forbidden.
But when he had one after his blackout, a gift from his bloody unconscious victim, the sensation reminded him that you can’t bury the dark truth. Had he changed at all?..Or was he just numbed to believe he changed.
But when he had one after his blackout, a gift from his bloody unconscious victim, the sensation reminded him that you can’t bury the dark truth. Had he changed at all?..Or was he just numbed to believe he changed.
657. He was obsessed with it. Messing up something that was meant to be pure. In the moment he tried to justify. Tell himself people of Juchai deserved this.
They did. They were due.
What scared him was the fact that he’d do exactly this to people...who weren’t...of Juchai.
They did. They were due.
What scared him was the fact that he’d do exactly this to people...who weren’t...of Juchai.
658. Just like his other last victims.
Just like...that n-night...
No-no...no,
No....I’m sorry.
’m sorry.
’m sorry.
’m sorry.
Just like...that n-night...
No-no...no,
No....I’m sorry.
’m sorry.
’m sorry.
’m sorry.
659. What if he saw you? What if Taehyung came back? What if he saw you for who you really were?
Evil.
You’re evil.
Evil.
You’re evil.
661. s’not me, it’s not me
it’s not-
Yes it is.
it’s not-
Yes it is.
662. Remember?
664. The story. Remember the story.
667. He has to.
Come...back.
He needs to...and he will. Right?
Dad, he will right?
Come...back.
He needs to...and he will. Right?
Dad, he will right?
668. Too many voices.
And they were all after me.
It was coming...I was going to hurt again, if I didn’t see him.
It’s making me do it.
It was making me pain.
I don’t know you but you’re the only thing that’s going to keep me alive.
And they were all after me.
It was coming...I was going to hurt again, if I didn’t see him.
It’s making me do it.
It was making me pain.
I don’t know you but you’re the only thing that’s going to keep me alive.
669. hush.
676. multiple times a day, he might get lost.
Namjoon just prays Jungkook’s not on his own when it happens. Or around the thing or person that set him off in the first place.
Namjoon just prays Jungkook’s not on his own when it happens. Or around the thing or person that set him off in the first place.
678. That feeling. It was here. Right now. He tried to warn him he...he tried to tell his father. It was,
Happening again. He was gonna hurt.
But he never listens. He never...never listens.
Happening again. He was gonna hurt.
But he never listens. He never...never listens.
679. ‘Son. Just breathe for me. Yeah?’ Father Jeon had one hand out as a sign of surrender. Mama Kim still confused behind him.
‘Honey-‘ she began to ask.
‘He’s had a long morning. A lot of anxiety. But you’re feeling better right Son? There’s nothing to be worried about?’
‘Honey-‘ she began to ask.
‘He’s had a long morning. A lot of anxiety. But you’re feeling better right Son? There’s nothing to be worried about?’
680. Father Jeon spoke like he was drilling words into Jungkook’s head. Like he was coaching him. Telling him what to say. How to feel. To be normal, for him...his stupid girlfriend...his fake life...his lack of care for his own son,
Jungkook kept thinking and thinking of the-
Jungkook kept thinking and thinking of the-
681. -things his father did that made him so...fucking angry.
Angry...he was so...angry.
Father Jeon watched Guk’s knuckles on the doorknob turn white. He was getting angrier. His anger fueling the blackout to come. Scared to experience his blackout here. He can’t protect-
Angry...he was so...angry.
Father Jeon watched Guk’s knuckles on the doorknob turn white. He was getting angrier. His anger fueling the blackout to come. Scared to experience his blackout here. He can’t protect-
682. -himself or mama Kim. Jungkook could hurt them both. He knew he could. He handled multiple goons of Juchai by himself. This would be nothing to him.
Fears of his son going to prison. Being labelled as a murderer. Cases to do with attempted homicides, filled his mind.
Fears of his son going to prison. Being labelled as a murderer. Cases to do with attempted homicides, filled his mind.
683. ‘Son. Look at me.’
All he had. That’s all Father Jeon had. If they could lock eyes & Guk could remember who he was. Why hurting him,mama Kim would change all of their lives forever, then maybe he wouldn’t do this.
Maybe he wouldn’t almost kill for the second time today.
All he had. That’s all Father Jeon had. If they could lock eyes & Guk could remember who he was. Why hurting him,mama Kim would change all of their lives forever, then maybe he wouldn’t do this.
Maybe he wouldn’t almost kill for the second time today.
684. Jungkook turned around. And Father Jeon thought he didn’t have a son. That wasn’t Jungkook.
He’s picked him up from places after his blackouts. But that was after he came back down. He’s never seen him...look like this. His eyes.
His son...where was his son...
He’s picked him up from places after his blackouts. But that was after he came back down. He’s never seen him...look like this. His eyes.
His son...where was his son...
685. Father Jeon froze. He didn’t know who he was looking at. His arms lowered to his body, almost mentally erasing his surroundings.
For the first time,
Father and son looked back at each other, not recognising who each other were.
For the first time,
Father and son looked back at each other, not recognising who each other were.
686. Mama Kim’s gasp would be the only sound to fill the room.
‘Sweetheart. Oh my goodness! Jeon don’t just stand there.’ She hit Father Jeon, quickly going towards Jungkook. ‘You poor thing. You know my Taehyungie deals with anxiety all the time! You must feel so uneasy.’
‘Sweetheart. Oh my goodness! Jeon don’t just stand there.’ She hit Father Jeon, quickly going towards Jungkook. ‘You poor thing. You know my Taehyungie deals with anxiety all the time! You must feel so uneasy.’
687. ‘Honey!’ She exclaimed again, after seeing Father Jeon hadn’t moved.
‘Get him a towel, he’s got the cold sweats! Bring some blankets too, I’m going to make him some tea. He needs to feel safe, why are you standing there! He’s anxious, not a monster, Jeon. He won’t bite.’
‘Get him a towel, he’s got the cold sweats! Bring some blankets too, I’m going to make him some tea. He needs to feel safe, why are you standing there! He’s anxious, not a monster, Jeon. He won’t bite.’
688. Mama Kim, strokes the hair out of Jungkook’s face. Only then did she see the scars, the fear and anger in his eyes. A lot different to the Jungkook she met yesterday afternoon.
‘I...sweetie....what’s the matter? Tell me what’s wrong?’ She was almost speechless.
‘I...sweetie....what’s the matter? Tell me what’s wrong?’ She was almost speechless.
689. ‘You’re safe here. You’re home now. See. Me and your father. We’re not going to let anything happen. Just talk to me. Your father is clearly useless.’ She kindly joked, trying to ease him. Her tone of voice was soft, welcoming. Jungkook hadn’t experienced that since...
690. Well since his mother.
Father Jeon could see how his eyes snapped to her, finding familiarity.
God son. She’s not your mother. He thought. Too much suspense, just waiting for Jungkook to snap.
‘Love.’ Father Jeon sterned to Ms Kim.
Father Jeon could see how his eyes snapped to her, finding familiarity.
God son. She’s not your mother. He thought. Too much suspense, just waiting for Jungkook to snap.
‘Love.’ Father Jeon sterned to Ms Kim.
691. ‘I w-wouldn’t....um, you need to step back honey. Right now. Literally right now. Just...slowly come back over here to me baby.’ He tried to quietly warn. Not wanting to anger Jungkook while he had Mama Kim in his arms. ‘Please. Now.’
‘What are you-‘
‘What are you-‘
692. Ms Kim inhaled suddenly, Guk holding her back with need. His appearance was frightening. Ms Kim could admit. He looked...extremely different. But all she saw was a scared boy.
She just wanted to help. She doesn’t understand why his father was acting like this. so distant.
She just wanted to help. She doesn’t understand why his father was acting like this. so distant.
696. The colder air hit his face and he didn’t understand his reality. He was sure, sure, he was going to hurt her.
He just wanted to...be held.
He doesn’t know what the fuck is happening. His blackouts never felt like this before.
He just wanted to...be held.
He doesn’t know what the fuck is happening. His blackouts never felt like this before.
697. He’s never felt so much at one time. He’s never been this angry. Scared. Of himself.
His stomach was still in agony. His whole body sore, his mind taken apart.
Could no one...actually help him?
‘Am I stuck like this? I-Is this who I a-am...’ he stopped.
His stomach was still in agony. His whole body sore, his mind taken apart.
Could no one...actually help him?
‘Am I stuck like this? I-Is this who I a-am...’ he stopped.
698. The fear hitting him like bolts. As if they were being forced out, tears, groans of pain and abandonment towered him.
He was drowning within himself.
He didn’t want to do this anymore.
He was drowning within himself.
He didn’t want to do this anymore.
699. Breathless apologies, and melodies of help escaped his mouth consistently. He was sorry.
To his every victim.
To his family.
To hisself.
To everything he ever loved.
To things he didn’t understand.
‘I-I’m poison.’
To his every victim.
To his family.
To hisself.
To everything he ever loved.
To things he didn’t understand.
‘I-I’m poison.’
700. ‘Jungkook?’
703. This close, Jungkook felt...alive. Normal. Valid.
His eyes must’ve been it’s natural form again because...Taehyung...wasn’t looking at him like a monster.
He wasn’t...scared.
‘Y-you can see me?’
He can see me.
His eyes must’ve been it’s natural form again because...Taehyung...wasn’t looking at him like a monster.
He wasn’t...scared.
‘Y-you can see me?’
He can see me.
704. Actual acknowledgement. Love that warmed Jungkook to his bones, what was the meaning of this?
He’s wrong...shouldn’t...?
Shouldn’t Taehyung be scared? He didn’t understand it. Why he wasn’t like everyone else. Why he wasn’t seen as danger to him, like everyone else.
He’s wrong...shouldn’t...?
Shouldn’t Taehyung be scared? He didn’t understand it. Why he wasn’t like everyone else. Why he wasn’t seen as danger to him, like everyone else.
705. The beauty of this boy was rare and somewhat...illegal. Jungkook doesn’t think he noticed it in this much detail before.
He was beautiful. Mesmerising and Jungkook wouldn’t look away if he had a gun to his head.
Pull the trigger.
He was beautiful. Mesmerising and Jungkook wouldn’t look away if he had a gun to his head.
Pull the trigger.
709. He felt it too.
He couldn’t have...been crazy, Taehyung...gets it, right? I mean he’s not judging him.
He had conversations with himself in his mind.
What if that just made *them* crazy. What if they were curse before the flames. What if they were both wrong. For this.
He couldn’t have...been crazy, Taehyung...gets it, right? I mean he’s not judging him.
He had conversations with himself in his mind.
What if that just made *them* crazy. What if they were curse before the flames. What if they were both wrong. For this.
712. Taehyung was saying so much that didn’t make sense at all in Jungkook’s head. He barely knew what he was talking about.
Losing him for the second time? Needing him back- he couldn’t comprehend.
But he didn’t care.
He just prayed.
Losing him for the second time? Needing him back- he couldn’t comprehend.
But he didn’t care.
He just prayed.
713. Jungkook prayed he’d remember this when he woke up. When he was out of his subconscious state of instability.
He knew he wasn’t fully back down, he knew he was still close. He couldn’t...forget this. He needs to ask him what he means when he wakes up.
He knew he wasn’t fully back down, he knew he was still close. He couldn’t...forget this. He needs to ask him what he means when he wakes up.
714. He needed these answers when he came back down. When he was more conscious than he is right now. When he could actually make sense of things and his surroundings. He tried tying this moment to his brain, past all the toxic events currently happening with him mentally.
715. The unstable man whispered to himself,
‘I can’t forget you again Taehyung. I have to remember this. Remember this. W-what you s-said.’
‘I can’t forget you again Taehyung. I have to remember this. Remember this. W-what you s-said.’
716. Jungkook doesn’t know how long he was in Taehyung’s arms.
Or how long Taehyung stroked his hair...until he stopped shaking.
Or when the hell they arrived on this hill, watching the waves cave back and fourth.
Or how long Taehyung stroked his hair...until he stopped shaking.
Or when the hell they arrived on this hill, watching the waves cave back and fourth.
717. When he was laid against Taehyung’s chest, his heartbeat being the only thing Jungkook could understand.
The only thing to be bring him closer and closer back to life, reality.
Further and further away from his blackout, he could slowly breathe.
The only thing to be bring him closer and closer back to life, reality.
Further and further away from his blackout, he could slowly breathe.
718. The hitch in Jungkook’s throat hurt Taehyung beyond words. He wasn’t able to breathe in without a small wince of pain, without clutching into Taehyung just a bit tighter everytime he did.
719. There was peace.
There was...nothing.
No pain. No anger. No confusion. No mental battles. Self hatred. Abandonment,
Nothing.
Just....still.
He was still.
There was...nothing.
No pain. No anger. No confusion. No mental battles. Self hatred. Abandonment,
Nothing.
Just....still.
He was still.
720. breathe, baby.
721. ‘Gukkie...’ Taehyung whispered gently against his hair.
‘Mmm?’ Quiet, relaxed.
‘As much as I could stay up here...for eternities with you, eventually-‘
‘I know.’
‘Mmm?’ Quiet, relaxed.
‘As much as I could stay up here...for eternities with you, eventually-‘
‘I know.’
722. With this one experience,Taehyung somehow found Jungkook more beautiful. The drastic change, in his blackout vs coming back down. It was a side to Jungkook he hadn’t known. Just pure and honest. Raw. Something like an art form
Holding him like this fulfilled him so deeply.
Holding him like this fulfilled him so deeply.
723. All the chances he missed to do exactly this. All the time apart, seeing him like this perhaps he’s a little less hateful on timing.
He held him all the way back down, until he was SURE, Jungkook was minimum 70% conscious.
He held him all the way back down, until he was SURE, Jungkook was minimum 70% conscious.
724. He could see how fatigued he was getting by the second. Sluggish, drained. He needed to get Jungkook in bed. Namjoon expressed how he would typically sleep afterwards and he has no plan letting Jungkook do that in these colder conditions.
725. ‘Are you ready?’ Taehyung kissed his head, an audible sigh from Jungkook.
‘Are you ready to go home Jungkook?’
It wasn’t anything forceful. He wasn’t rushed. It was a question, a genuine question that allowed Jungkook to think for himself.
To feel for himself.
‘Are you ready to go home Jungkook?’
It wasn’t anything forceful. He wasn’t rushed. It was a question, a genuine question that allowed Jungkook to think for himself.
To feel for himself.
726. Jungkook sleepily wrapped both arms tighter around his waist. He snuggled his face further into his clothes which, Tae originally tried to stop him from doing when they first sat down.
He was dirty! His clothes, were not cute. He’d been out all night, Jungkook also.
He was dirty! His clothes, were not cute. He’d been out all night, Jungkook also.
727. // 🧚🏽♂️ earlier //
‘Jungkook, Stop, my clothes are gross.’
‘You’re not though.’ Guk tried to push through Taehyung’s persistent arms, trying to keep him from coming that close.
‘That’s not the point.’ He couldn’t stop himself from giggling.
‘Come on.’ Guk whined-
‘Jungkook, Stop, my clothes are gross.’
‘You’re not though.’ Guk tried to push through Taehyung’s persistent arms, trying to keep him from coming that close.
‘That’s not the point.’ He couldn’t stop himself from giggling.
‘Come on.’ Guk whined-
728. - finally getting what he wanted. ‘See. Both gross.’ He smiled softly, sighing into him satisfied.
// 🧚🏽♂️ //
‘Home...? Are....are you coming?’ Guk asked hesitantly.
He wasn’t going if Taehyung wasn’t.
‘Of course I am. Not leaving you. Remember?’
// 🧚🏽♂️ //
‘Home...? Are....are you coming?’ Guk asked hesitantly.
He wasn’t going if Taehyung wasn’t.
‘Of course I am. Not leaving you. Remember?’
729. Jungkook didn’t trust Taehyung yet, he could tell. But he didn’t blame him. He’s left him before. So had his father. So had his mother. So had his best friends before the accident.
He had abandonment issues that Taehyung’s not even sure Jungkook knows he has.
He had abandonment issues that Taehyung’s not even sure Jungkook knows he has.
730. He was expecting Taehyung to leave at any moment. Just like what he tried to do early this morning. But he could earn his trust again, he knew he could. Just as how Jungkook would eventually have to earn his too. Until they figured their shit out. Their past. Their present.
731. ‘Hmm?’ A caressing movement on every place Taehyung could reach.
‘This is...this is evil.’ Jungkook fell victim to his soft touches, his lips everywhere in places that wasn’t too intimate. Away from the places Jungkook really wanted them.
‘This is...this is evil.’ Jungkook fell victim to his soft touches, his lips everywhere in places that wasn’t too intimate. Away from the places Jungkook really wanted them.
732. The addicting pulls and relaxing presses on his scalp, the warmth of his body against his-
He was too tired for this shit. It was evil persuasion and he didn’t want to get aroused.
‘This is bribery.’
Taehyung laughed, ‘it’s encouragement and support.’
He was too tired for this shit. It was evil persuasion and he didn’t want to get aroused.
‘This is bribery.’
Taehyung laughed, ‘it’s encouragement and support.’
733. ‘Bribery.’ Guk muttered, trying to get as physically close to him as possible. It was too perfect here. As much as he knew he had to, he didn’t want to get up. He didn’t want to go home. He just wanted to stay here.
‘Stop. When we get home, I’ll take care of you. Promise.’
‘Stop. When we get home, I’ll take care of you. Promise.’
734. Guk’s mind raced in very inappropriate ways and it had him thinking since fucking when was he even capable of sexual fantasies or frustrations after his blackouts.
It was ridiculous. Just how different this blackout had been to every single one he’s ever had.
It was ridiculous. Just how different this blackout had been to every single one he’s ever had.
735. How different Taehyung was...
His head began to hurt, causing a loud groan and a shake of his skull.
‘Guk, what’s wrong?’ Tae became alert immediately.
‘I don’t know t-that just...ow. That really...’
His head began to hurt, causing a loud groan and a shake of his skull.
‘Guk, what’s wrong?’ Tae became alert immediately.
‘I don’t know t-that just...ow. That really...’
736. ‘Show me where it hurts.’
Guk held his head slightly before Taehyung replaced it with his. ‘It’s stopped?’
Guk nodded, confused.
‘What were you thinking about?’
‘I don’t know, I feel like there’s...?’ Guk looked up at Taehyung, as if studying him.
Guk held his head slightly before Taehyung replaced it with his. ‘It’s stopped?’
Guk nodded, confused.
‘What were you thinking about?’
‘I don’t know, I feel like there’s...?’ Guk looked up at Taehyung, as if studying him.
737. ‘What?’
‘Something I was supposed to remember...I don’t know, I feel like I’m forgetting something. Or there’s something I hadn’t done that I was supposed to do...’
‘Be careful. Leave it for now. After you get your rest we can figure it out. Okay?’ Tae soothes him.
‘Something I was supposed to remember...I don’t know, I feel like I’m forgetting something. Or there’s something I hadn’t done that I was supposed to do...’
‘Be careful. Leave it for now. After you get your rest we can figure it out. Okay?’ Tae soothes him.
738. ‘But...’
It was urgent. He knows it was, his head was pulsing in such a weird fucking way, he didn’t want to let go of it now. Especially whilst they were alone. Once they get home, they won’t get privacy like this.
‘Rest. First.’ Tae took his face into his hands.
It was urgent. He knows it was, his head was pulsing in such a weird fucking way, he didn’t want to let go of it now. Especially whilst they were alone. Once they get home, they won’t get privacy like this.
‘Rest. First.’ Tae took his face into his hands.
739. Drilling no into his head which automatically made Jungkook sulk a little.
‘Can I have your phone?’
‘Why?’
‘Gonna call your dad-‘
‘What? Why?’ Guk stiffened immediately making Tae stop what he was doing.
‘Can I have your phone?’
‘Why?’
‘Gonna call your dad-‘
‘What? Why?’ Guk stiffened immediately making Tae stop what he was doing.
740. ‘Guk it’s okay. He’s gonna take us home. We’re too far, and there’s no way you’re stable enough to walk.’ He scanned Jungkook face for any discomfort.
‘It’s going to be fine.’ He smiled, ‘I’m right here. Okay? He’s not mad at you. None of us are mad at you.’
‘It’s going to be fine.’ He smiled, ‘I’m right here. Okay? He’s not mad at you. None of us are mad at you.’
741. ‘But he...’ he stopped to think. He just had a feeling against his father at the moment, a feeling that he was very angry with him. A feeling that he probably shouldn’t show his face to him right now.
‘Did something happen? What has you so worried to see him?’
‘Did something happen? What has you so worried to see him?’
742. From looking at things around him he finally looked back at Taehyung. He had a look that told him it was okay to trust him.
To let him in.
‘You can tell me gukkie.’ His hands in his. Striking electricity through his body again.
To let him in.
‘You can tell me gukkie.’ His hands in his. Striking electricity through his body again.
743. ‘Um..I...I don’t know..what happened I just. I don’t...have a good feeling. I think I did something wrong...I think he’s angry with me..’
‘Because of your blackout?’
Guk nodded slowly after about 20 seconds. His eyes, if Taehyung wasn’t mistaken, getting...glossy?
‘Because of your blackout?’
Guk nodded slowly after about 20 seconds. His eyes, if Taehyung wasn’t mistaken, getting...glossy?
744. Taehyung immediately connected them closer. ‘Gukkie, don’t. You don’t need to be scared-‘
‘I d-don’t know what I did Taehyung. I think I did something. I must’ve...look at me.’ Guk looked down at his clothes. His stained, stained bloody clothes.
‘I d-don’t know what I did Taehyung. I think I did something. I must’ve...look at me.’ Guk looked down at his clothes. His stained, stained bloody clothes.
745. ‘Why else would I..would I have this feeling?’
Fucking hell gukkie. Taehyung just wanted to cradle him.
He wanted to tell him he was wrong. That he didn’t hurt his father until he bled. Rather the people of Juchai’s blood, on his clothes. He can’t imagine what this must-
Fucking hell gukkie. Taehyung just wanted to cradle him.
He wanted to tell him he was wrong. That he didn’t hurt his father until he bled. Rather the people of Juchai’s blood, on his clothes. He can’t imagine what this must-
746. -feel like. To wake up from something and have no idea what happened. Or what you did. What pain you could’ve caused. Who you could’ve hurt.
He wanted to tell him what happened but he didn’t want to scare him more. Stop him from coming home completely.
A different tactic.
He wanted to tell him what happened but he didn’t want to scare him more. Stop him from coming home completely.
A different tactic.
747. ‘How about I find out?’ Taehyung held his hand out, Jungkook looking down at it. ‘Your phone gukkie. I’ll talk to him. You can see for yourself.’
Guk looked back at him from a place of anxiety and mercy.
‘He wants you home baby. He does. We all do. Especially me.’
Guk looked back at him from a place of anxiety and mercy.
‘He wants you home baby. He does. We all do. Especially me.’
753. Here...
754. Taehyung did a good job at muffling his tears. His face fitted snug in between Jungkook’s neck and shoulder, holding him as he sat behind him. He’s glad Guk couldn’t see his face. He wouldn’t have been able to hide his pain if he saw his eyes.
755. It just fucking hurt.
Taehyung has had all of 24 hours to process being in each other’s lives again and finding out only half the truth of the event that traumatised him for so long.
Found out what...Jungkook had been dealing with...without him.
Taehyung has had all of 24 hours to process being in each other’s lives again and finding out only half the truth of the event that traumatised him for so long.
Found out what...Jungkook had been dealing with...without him.
756. He wishes he could describe what this felt like.
To hold him but not to have him.
To see him but not have his Jungkook.
To smell him and sense a whole different journey. A journey...he wasn’t apart of.
It. Hurt.
To hold him but not to have him.
To see him but not have his Jungkook.
To smell him and sense a whole different journey. A journey...he wasn’t apart of.
It. Hurt.
757. It hurt that he didn’t know this entire time. It hurt that now that he had Jungkook face to face again, where he could feel him...touch him...
He still couldn’t fucking apologise. Tell him he loved him.
He still couldn’t fucking apologise. Tell him he loved him.
758. Because that would be telling the truth. That would be telling Jungkook who he used to be. What his life used to be. What Taehyung used to be to him. And who..Jungkook was able to be. Before the conditions. Before the mental problems. Before the pain.
759. And he couldn’t do that. Not...yet. The dangers of it...not even worth the sabotage it would do to Jungkook right now. Taehyung had to wait. And that was the hardest part. Having to wait with Jungkook already in his fucking arms.
760. What if Jungkook never forgave him?
Taehyung started to cry heavier however still silent.
When he finds out the truth...when himself, Namjoon, the doctors can finally afford to tell him...
What if he never speaks to them again. What if he can never see Taehyung the same?
Taehyung started to cry heavier however still silent.
When he finds out the truth...when himself, Namjoon, the doctors can finally afford to tell him...
What if he never speaks to them again. What if he can never see Taehyung the same?
761. I mean, how could he? Can he really expect Jungkook to fully understand?
How is it possible that Taehyung can know everything and still not tell Jungkook? After seeing how much it’s killing him?
Jungkook takes things *personal* when Taehyung hides from him.
How is it possible that Taehyung can know everything and still not tell Jungkook? After seeing how much it’s killing him?
Jungkook takes things *personal* when Taehyung hides from him.
762. He remembers Jungkook’s face when he hid the truth about Hyungsik.
Taehyung shivered.
Guk’s pure anger.
The betrayal in his face. The disappointment. The heartbreak.
He hurt Jungkook so bad by keeping him out like that. By hiding. To Jungkook, it was worse than lying.
Taehyung shivered.
Guk’s pure anger.
The betrayal in his face. The disappointment. The heartbreak.
He hurt Jungkook so bad by keeping him out like that. By hiding. To Jungkook, it was worse than lying.
763. It was worse than what Taehyung could ever do to him, in Jungkook’s eyes.
Until now.
This.
This was worse.
To know his past, to know who he was and to not help him get it back. To not give him who he used to be.
Until now.
This.
This was worse.
To know his past, to know who he was and to not help him get it back. To not give him who he used to be.
764. Everytime Jungkook asks Taehyung what they are, or why he feels the way he does, he feels...sorrow. Sorrow that he has to keep them away from themselves. From Jungkook.
He wishes he could tell him it’s not his fault. It’s not either of their faults.
He wishes he could tell him it’s not his fault. It’s not either of their faults.
765. That if Taehyung had his way they’d know the truth about that night. They’d find each other again. Learn to love again.
And they could start over.
He wishes he could just...spoil him in apologies, share his regrets. Tell him just how bad he wishes he held him-
And they could start over.
He wishes he could just...spoil him in apologies, share his regrets. Tell him just how bad he wishes he held him-
766. -every night in that fucking hospital. How bad he wants to destroy the people that did this to him in the first place.
*They did this to him*
The thought clouded his head.
Jungkook is like this...is dealing with this because of someone fucking else.
*They did this to him*
The thought clouded his head.
Jungkook is like this...is dealing with this because of someone fucking else.
767. Even if Jungkook never spoke to Taehyung again, even if Tae went too far this time by keeping the truth,
He owed it to him. He owed it to him to find out what happened. And Taehyung swore on their relationship that THAT is what he’s going to do.
Namjoon, doctors or not.
He owed it to him. He owed it to him to find out what happened. And Taehyung swore on their relationship that THAT is what he’s going to do.
Namjoon, doctors or not.
768. ‘Tae-hyung.’ Guk gasped slightly. The hitch in his throat still occurring everytime he breathed in.
Guk’s hands found its way to Taehyung’s.
‘You make me...’ he struggled slightly to speak, getting slower and slower with his actions. ‘Me...’
Guk’s hands found its way to Taehyung’s.
‘You make me...’ he struggled slightly to speak, getting slower and slower with his actions. ‘Me...’
769. ‘Feel...not broken.’
The words hit Tae like a bolt.
It was...
perfect.
All this while he’s struggled to explain this feeling. The feeling he has when he’s with Jungkook and he...just explained it. Perfectly.
‘You make m-me...feel n-not broken anymore.’
The words hit Tae like a bolt.
It was...
perfect.
All this while he’s struggled to explain this feeling. The feeling he has when he’s with Jungkook and he...just explained it. Perfectly.
‘You make m-me...feel n-not broken anymore.’
770. He couldn’t stop the smile into his damp clothes, the need for him.
Tae shut his eyes shut, his tears blurring his vision.
‘Love you. Gonna get you back Gukkie.’ Tae whispered inaudibly, holding tighter onto his clothes, hugging him.
‘M’gonna get us back. I miss us.’
Tae shut his eyes shut, his tears blurring his vision.
‘Love you. Gonna get you back Gukkie.’ Tae whispered inaudibly, holding tighter onto his clothes, hugging him.
‘M’gonna get us back. I miss us.’
771. Time was passing. And Jungkook was in need of more and more aid.
His head was still pounding painfully.
This stomach was still making him ache.
He’d whimper into Taehyung touch, sinking lower and lower into him as if telling him to fix it. Make it go away.
His head was still pounding painfully.
This stomach was still making him ache.
He’d whimper into Taehyung touch, sinking lower and lower into him as if telling him to fix it. Make it go away.
772. The wind was starting to get tough. Taehyung was starting to worry that Jungkook was out here for too long. He needed, needed, to sleep. He was freezing to the touch, and this wasnt good for him at all.
773. Taehyung hushed his painful whimpers.
‘Sleep baby. Your father is going to be here soon. Sleep right here.’
Guk looked up at him, with acute fear and hesitation.
‘You won’t be alone when you wake up. Staying with you always gukkie, I’m not going to leave you here.’
‘Sleep baby. Your father is going to be here soon. Sleep right here.’
Guk looked up at him, with acute fear and hesitation.
‘You won’t be alone when you wake up. Staying with you always gukkie, I’m not going to leave you here.’
774. Guk groaned again, in pain and confusion. The only thing that was making sense to him at the moment was Taehyung.
‘Going to take you home.’ Tae calmed him, angling Jungkook’s body so he’s now laying against his chest again, laying down in position to sleep.
‘Going to take you home.’ Tae calmed him, angling Jungkook’s body so he’s now laying against his chest again, laying down in position to sleep.
775. The stroke against his cheek was enough for Jungkook to feel grounded again. Absent panic.
‘...gonna get you cleaned up. Make you some food and then...take you to bed. In some warm, warm sheets. Comfy pillows and clean clothes.’
‘...gonna get you cleaned up. Make you some food and then...take you to bed. In some warm, warm sheets. Comfy pillows and clean clothes.’
776. ‘Lay you down...’ Taehyung trailed off slightly. ‘...do exactly this...’ his hands carded through his hair, just the way Jungkook liked. His eyes instantly fluttering shut, his mouth opening at the immense pleasure and relaxation.
‘Until you fall asleep. Feel safe again.’
‘Until you fall asleep. Feel safe again.’
777. ‘Safe.’ Guk mumbled, nodding. Trying to tell him he already did, words, energy not being able to form. He was limp. Weakened.
Tae kissed his head once more before leaning on it, looking back at the shore.
Fairytales only last a little while. Theirs was too short lived.
Tae kissed his head once more before leaning on it, looking back at the shore.
Fairytales only last a little while. Theirs was too short lived.
778. Taehyung held him until he also felt tired. Believing he also drifted off based on the startle he got when he heard the alert on Jungkook’s phone go off.
He grabbed it checking it before checking on Jungkook.
He was so tired. He didn’t even want to wake him.
He grabbed it checking it before checking on Jungkook.
He was so tired. He didn’t even want to wake him.
779. He awed. Giving him another kiss because he simply could not fucking resist. He looked so cute right now and he needed to get his daddy home-
A choke.
Guk jerked a little bit, Taehyung eruption of coughs and sudden body movement.
A choke.
Guk jerked a little bit, Taehyung eruption of coughs and sudden body movement.
780. Okay but. He had to, fucking stop.
He hated how it fell of his tongue in scenarios more than one. This had to be the second or third time. If he didn’t say it out loud, he’d think it. Punching himself mentally, he quickly checked the phone.
He could beat himself up later.
He hated how it fell of his tongue in scenarios more than one. This had to be the second or third time. If he didn’t say it out loud, he’d think it. Punching himself mentally, he quickly checked the phone.
He could beat himself up later.
781. Father Jeon was just turning the block.
He was here.
They could go home.
He was here.
They could go home.
786. I held up my mirror...
but all I saw was you.
do you remember?
would you fall in love with me for the second time?
if you knew we were here before?..
but all I saw was you.
do you remember?
would you fall in love with me for the second time?
if you knew we were here before?..
788. ✧･ﾟ: :* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
789. vs me.
- our first safe place, remember making me yours. You said the same thing. You promise, ours. You promised me, ours.
- our first safe place, remember making me yours. You said the same thing. You promise, ours. You promised me, ours.
790.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
791. we find home together in more places than one; baby why is that?
792. ‘Son, Jesus come here.’ The tension in Father Jeon’s being softened. Just relieved to see them both.
He ran to Jungkook, hugging him before grabbing Taehyung afterwards.
‘Look at you both. You’re gonna make me go bald before I even hit 40.’
He ran to Jungkook, hugging him before grabbing Taehyung afterwards.
‘Look at you both. You’re gonna make me go bald before I even hit 40.’
793. Taehyung and Jungkook smiled, grateful it was over.
‘Quick, come on. You’re both freezing.’
Taehyung nodded, supporting Jungkook still.
‘Can he walk?’
‘Barely.’ Taehyung shook his head.
‘Take my keys. Get the car open, I’ll bring him up.’
‘Quick, come on. You’re both freezing.’
Taehyung nodded, supporting Jungkook still.
‘Can he walk?’
‘Barely.’ Taehyung shook his head.
‘Take my keys. Get the car open, I’ll bring him up.’
794. The hill was quite steep and Taehyung was glad he didn’t have to pull Jungkook all the way up with his little ass.
‘Thank you Mr Jeon.’
‘Hey.’ He smiled, putting a warm hand to his neck. It felt like fucking heaven.
‘Right behind you. Gonna get you boys home now.’
‘Thank you Mr Jeon.’
‘Hey.’ He smiled, putting a warm hand to his neck. It felt like fucking heaven.
‘Right behind you. Gonna get you boys home now.’
795. They all got to the car. Jungkook’s father taking a little longer, carrying Jungkook.
He put him in the back, Taehyung sitting with him because Guk would not let his sleeve go.
‘Make sure he’s on his side. He has the tendency to throw up sometimes.’
‘Really?’
He put him in the back, Taehyung sitting with him because Guk would not let his sleeve go.
‘Make sure he’s on his side. He has the tendency to throw up sometimes.’
‘Really?’
796. ‘He usually warns before he does, so don’t worry.’
Tae blushes softly, ‘no it’s not that I just, I wish I could take it away.’
Father Jeon nodded, laying Guk properly. ‘We all do. Luckily he’s stronger than anyone I’ve met.’
Taehyung doesn’t know why his eyes got glossy.
Tae blushes softly, ‘no it’s not that I just, I wish I could take it away.’
Father Jeon nodded, laying Guk properly. ‘We all do. Luckily he’s stronger than anyone I’ve met.’
Taehyung doesn’t know why his eyes got glossy.
797. He just loved him. So much.
He wondered what he was thinking. If he remembered much. If he feels okay. If he feels his surroundings right now. If he feels ill.
He was knocked out again, but at least this time he can sleep in the warm car.
He wondered what he was thinking. If he remembered much. If he feels okay. If he feels his surroundings right now. If he feels ill.
He was knocked out again, but at least this time he can sleep in the warm car.
798. Father Jeon got in the drivers seat, adjusting his seat belt before taking off.
‘You need the heat up?’ He looked back at them through the mirror.
‘Umm...’ it was pretty warm in here already, Taehyung could melt. In the good way.
‘You need the heat up?’ He looked back at them through the mirror.
‘Umm...’ it was pretty warm in here already, Taehyung could melt. In the good way.
799. He checked Jungkook. He was sweating a little around his neck.
‘I think it’s fine how it is. Thank you.’
Father Jeon nodded his head, checking the route.
‘I think it’s fine how it is. Thank you.’
Father Jeon nodded his head, checking the route.
804. Mind racing. Tae should be used to it by now after these 24 hours.
What could he...say?
That he left because the family was too much? I mean, it’s true. Partially.
But all that’s going to do is create space between them, his mother would make sure of it.
What could he...say?
That he left because the family was too much? I mean, it’s true. Partially.
But all that’s going to do is create space between them, his mother would make sure of it.
805. If his mother heard he was overwhelmed, she’d probably take them both back home. He’s 89% sure.
Space and distance is not what he needs with Jungkook right now. He can’t do the very thing he expressed he wouldn’t. Not again.
He said he wouldn’t leave him. And he won’t.
Space and distance is not what he needs with Jungkook right now. He can’t do the very thing he expressed he wouldn’t. Not again.
He said he wouldn’t leave him. And he won’t.
806. But how is he to explain to MrJeon that he knows? Everything.
How can he explain who he used to be to Jungkook and then carry on playing happy families?
‘Me and your son almost fucked in my ex ex’s bedroom, we spoke for 9 months prior, he’s still the love of my life- hi.’
How can he explain who he used to be to Jungkook and then carry on playing happy families?
‘Me and your son almost fucked in my ex ex’s bedroom, we spoke for 9 months prior, he’s still the love of my life- hi.’
807. That’d ruin...everything for his mother. It would effect them both. His mother is crazy about Father Jeon.
Mr Jeon AND Jungkook have no idea that Tae knows Namjoon, that he knows Guk’s conditions and his past and that he has a role in all of this.
Mr Jeon AND Jungkook have no idea that Tae knows Namjoon, that he knows Guk’s conditions and his past and that he has a role in all of this.
808. How was he to explain all of this in this damn car.
On top of that, Namjoon doesn’t even fucking know Tae’s shacked up with the guy he’s supposedly hadn’t seen in years.
That Guk had his first blackout after a year as soon Tae he came back into his life.
It was chaos.
On top of that, Namjoon doesn’t even fucking know Tae’s shacked up with the guy he’s supposedly hadn’t seen in years.
That Guk had his first blackout after a year as soon Tae he came back into his life.
It was chaos.
809. He hadn’t had the chance to fully breathe yet. To process.
It was just decision after decision.
choice after choice.
It was just decision after decision.
choice after choice.
810.
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
welcome milkies to your second trial.
for every key staple in the au, you get a choice. These decisions change everything. They change every possible outcome of the au.
you are just of the creator as I am.
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
welcome milkies to your second trial.
for every key staple in the au, you get a choice. These decisions change everything. They change every possible outcome of the au.
you are just of the creator as I am.
feel and,
share this investment with me✨
share this investment with me✨
🧚🏽♂️I want you to feel in the story. I want you to connect to every character before you make your decision.
Every decision has a repercussion.
Every decision effects the outcome.
welcome to milky’s game.
welcome to milky’s verdict.
⏳🔮24 hours.
Every decision has a repercussion.
Every decision effects the outcome.
welcome to milky’s game.
welcome to milky’s verdict.
⏳🔮24 hours.
for the final decision,
don’t be late🧚🏽♂️
don’t be late🧚🏽♂️
811. Milkies, Taehyung’s settlement;
Choose wisely.
🧚🏽♂️What is milky’s verdict?
Choose wisely.
🧚🏽♂️What is milky’s verdict?
Trail II.
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
812. 🧚🏽♂️the results are in,
the sentence to unfold
milkies, you chose;
the sentence to unfold
milkies, you chose;
your wish is my command.
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
814. Everything will change.
Taehyung knows that, but...
How long was he supposed to do this on his own? You know, maybe Father Jeon will understand. After all he, wasn’t there for Jungkook straight away. But he’s here now.
They were the same.
Taehyung knows that, but...
How long was he supposed to do this on his own? You know, maybe Father Jeon will understand. After all he, wasn’t there for Jungkook straight away. But he’s here now.
They were the same.
815. Taehyung wasn’t there for Jungkook before but, he wants to be now.
Father Jeon said...
we shouldn’t judge ourselves or each other based on our mistakes so...so maybe this was the right thing.
To just, tell the truth.
Father Jeon said...
we shouldn’t judge ourselves or each other based on our mistakes so...so maybe this was the right thing.
To just, tell the truth.
816. Jungkook was with them so he couldn’t go so far off the rails that they wouldn’t know where he was or what he was going to do. He was right here. Where they could see him.
His mother wasn’t here so he could have a logical, productive conversation with Mr Jeon about it now.
His mother wasn’t here so he could have a logical, productive conversation with Mr Jeon about it now.
817. And maybe even, maybe, find a common ground. You know, help each other help Jungkook.
And if Father Jeon will hear him out long enough maybe this won’t effect his relationship with his mother at all.
What if this makes them stronger?
And if Father Jeon will hear him out long enough maybe this won’t effect his relationship with his mother at all.
What if this makes them stronger?
818. Jungkook would have Taehyung to be the things his father consistently failed to be. The things that maybe Namjoon and the doctors fail to comfort him with.
Yeah.
He felt good about this.
It was going to be okay.
This was okay.
Yeah.
He felt good about this.
It was going to be okay.
This was okay.
819.
🧚🏽♂️But what about your feelings Taehyung? You love him... 🧚🏽♂️
The feeling faded as fast as it was created.
Even with the best scenario possible. They could still be a family but that would still mean him and Jungkook could never be more than that.
🧚🏽♂️But what about your feelings Taehyung? You love him... 🧚🏽♂️
The feeling faded as fast as it was created.
Even with the best scenario possible. They could still be a family but that would still mean him and Jungkook could never be more than that.
820. It would still mean hiding in plain sight.
It would still equivalent to the exact pain he’s feeling now.
He’d have to watch Jungkook find other people, be with other people and still be the same thing to him.
Just a comfort place.
It would still equivalent to the exact pain he’s feeling now.
He’d have to watch Jungkook find other people, be with other people and still be the same thing to him.
Just a comfort place.
821. It hurt. And he spent so much time thinking about it Father Jeon had to approach him the second time.
‘Taehyung. Talk to me. Let me help.’
‘Taehyung. Talk to me. Let me help.’
822. He could regret this but he couldn’t do this anymore.
He couldn’t keep this to himself. If every day has to be like 24 hours he just had; keeping everything in, having no one to talk to, the lies. God, the lies...
Then he didn’t want to do this.
He can’t do this.
He couldn’t keep this to himself. If every day has to be like 24 hours he just had; keeping everything in, having no one to talk to, the lies. God, the lies...
Then he didn’t want to do this.
He can’t do this.
825. Almost everything.
He still didn’t know...
What was in Jungkook’s system...who could’ve drugged him.
Who and how many guys pounded him into the ground once Jungkook left the party.
Who called an ambulance for him before leaving the scene completely.
He still didn’t know...
What was in Jungkook’s system...who could’ve drugged him.
Who and how many guys pounded him into the ground once Jungkook left the party.
Who called an ambulance for him before leaving the scene completely.
826. Who was the ‘bad guy’ Jungkook was terrified of?
Considering it wasn’t Hyungsik, who was after him...Who was he trying to warn Namjoon about?
Who was he running from and trying to save Taehyung from?
Considering it wasn’t Hyungsik, who was after him...Who was he trying to warn Namjoon about?
Who was he running from and trying to save Taehyung from?
827. I needed to find out why the police didn’t do a follow up report after the news about him being jumped.
Why his car crash wasn’t reported on the news but the fight was.
Why he wasn’t further investigated.
Where Hyungsik disappeared to and what answers he took with him.
Why his car crash wasn’t reported on the news but the fight was.
Why he wasn’t further investigated.
Where Hyungsik disappeared to and what answers he took with him.
828. Why the substances in his system weren’t looked further into.
How none of what happened got back to Tae despite all their friends and family being mutual to them both.
Why Jungkook was chasing after him after admitting, Taehyung was just a bet.
How none of what happened got back to Tae despite all their friends and family being mutual to them both.
Why Jungkook was chasing after him after admitting, Taehyung was just a bet.
828. Why Jungkook beat Hyungsik if they were in it together from beginning.
Someone wanted Jungkook gone. And Jungkook had reason to believe Tae wasn’t safe either.
Everything’s been ignored. Taehyung had it get it all back,he needed to find out why.
For his Jungkook.
Someone wanted Jungkook gone. And Jungkook had reason to believe Tae wasn’t safe either.
Everything’s been ignored. Taehyung had it get it all back,he needed to find out why.
For his Jungkook.
830. It was almost...instantly regrettable.
No longer safe.
No longer explainable.
could time take me back to where all I felt was you?
where our chaos made sense?
No longer safe.
No longer explainable.
could time take me back to where all I felt was you?
where our chaos made sense?
833.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
837. The passion in Jungkook’s eyes genuinely made Taehyung hear him out this time. Made him listen. He hated these things. It gave him anxiety, it didn’t make him feel safe. Paranoid would be more fitting.
But Jungkook, loved them. Almost like it calmed him.
But Jungkook, loved them. Almost like it calmed him.
841.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
843.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
844.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ AFTER:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
THE CELEBRATION PLAY
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ AFTER] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ AFTER:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
THE CELEBRATION PLAY
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ AFTER] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
845. shows over.
846. he couldn’t move.
tried to look away but..
why haven’t I seen you?
tried to look away but..
why haven’t I seen you?
847. The lights got bright, the curtains closed and everyone got ready to leave.
‘Guk?.....Hello?’
‘What?’
‘You good man? Didn’t you need the bathroom? we boutta go. The party is going to be, smooooke.’
‘I heard Jimin’s fine ass is going too.’ Another one of his teammates.
‘Guk?.....Hello?’
‘What?’
‘You good man? Didn’t you need the bathroom? we boutta go. The party is going to be, smooooke.’
‘I heard Jimin’s fine ass is going too.’ Another one of his teammates.
848. Jungkook didn’t even know who the fuck that is. His teammates all raved about the party while to Jungkook it might as well have been silence. It held zero importance while he tried to figure out what the fuck just happened.
849. He wanted to be excited about tonight. To the max. They worked so fucking hard, they fought for this. It was a while before Jungkook believed they could do this, that they actually could win.
And now that they have, it’s not even on Jungkook’s mind.
Not after seeing him.
And now that they have, it’s not even on Jungkook’s mind.
Not after seeing him.
850. ‘Hurry up and go, I wanna get my dick wet.’
‘Okay, ew. You’ve been blue balled this whole season, know I’m not driving your ass home.’ Jungkook laughed them off. Subconsciously wondering if the boy was coming tonight.
Surely he was, right? The whole school was.
‘Okay, ew. You’ve been blue balled this whole season, know I’m not driving your ass home.’ Jungkook laughed them off. Subconsciously wondering if the boy was coming tonight.
Surely he was, right? The whole school was.
851. ‘No shit you’re driving. It’s seasonal tournament, you know what that means.’
‘Literally worse than all of us.’
‘Guys, no I’m not repeating last year.’ Guk lied like he did every year.
His boys simultaneously got hype, ‘you’re king orgy, my guy, you’re Jeon Jungkook.’
‘Literally worse than all of us.’
‘Guys, no I’m not repeating last year.’ Guk lied like he did every year.
His boys simultaneously got hype, ‘you’re king orgy, my guy, you’re Jeon Jungkook.’
852. ’Tonight? Crazy. Last year is gonna look like nothing.’
‘Year before last, is gonna look like nothing.’
They laughed, hyping him up. ‘You’re a legend Guk, they boys won’t even be off you for a second tonight.’
Jungkook could FEEL the hangover headache he was due.
‘Year before last, is gonna look like nothing.’
They laughed, hyping him up. ‘You’re a legend Guk, they boys won’t even be off you for a second tonight.’
Jungkook could FEEL the hangover headache he was due.
853. He almost wasn’t looking forward to how fucked they were gonna get. Whenever they party it was always some crazy shit. With his reputation and the whole school coming, Jungkook was gonna get beyond fucked. Literally. Enough boys for him to choose from.
854. ‘I’m going bathroom. Gonna go pray while I’m at it.’ Jungkook started to leave.
‘Hurry. Car’s already out back for us.’
‘Ouuuuu, it’s gonna be liiiiit.’ They did their signature handshake which of course, Jungkook could not resist.
It was tradition.
‘Hurry. Car’s already out back for us.’
‘Ouuuuu, it’s gonna be liiiiit.’ They did their signature handshake which of course, Jungkook could not resist.
It was tradition.
He reached out back, not seeing the boy anywhere.
So maybe he lied.
The bathroom wasn’t even in this direction.
Maybe he played with his hair because he was nervous.
Maybe he double checked if he smelt good.
Because he knew exactly who he wanted to see right now.
So maybe he lied.
The bathroom wasn’t even in this direction.
Maybe he played with his hair because he was nervous.
Maybe he double checked if he smelt good.
Because he knew exactly who he wanted to see right now.
meet you backstage, I liked what I saw.
You didn’t expect me to walk away did you?
You didn’t expect me to walk away did you?
866.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
870. Blossoms.
Jungkook spoke blossoms.
Like the blossoms on his robe.
Like the blossoms of their field.
Jungkook spoke blossoms.
Like the blossoms on his robe.
Like the blossoms of their field.
871.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
THE NIGHT OF HYUNGSIK’S PARTY
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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
THE NIGHT OF HYUNGSIK’S PARTY
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
872. remember?
873.
is it too much to ask for?
can I put my hands on your skin?
take my needs, go back in time
erase
every
sin
is it too much to ask for?
can I put my hands on your skin?
take my needs, go back in time
erase
every
sin
874. blossom.
879. It was unbearable.
His mind wasn’t sending the signals it was supposed to to his body.
He could hear them.
He could hear...everything.
But he would shut down. His eyes would close and he’d have to fight to wake up again.
His mind wasn’t sending the signals it was supposed to to his body.
He could hear them.
He could hear...everything.
But he would shut down. His eyes would close and he’d have to fight to wake up again.
880. It was so so terrifying.
Not being able to speak when you’re fucking....screaming.
He had so much to say, to ask.
These thoughts, memories not making any sense to him.
He sees blossoms...the robe, yellow, yellow light. Faded blonde, wavy hair.
But tournament?
Not being able to speak when you’re fucking....screaming.
He had so much to say, to ask.
These thoughts, memories not making any sense to him.
He sees blossoms...the robe, yellow, yellow light. Faded blonde, wavy hair.
But tournament?
881. Dressing rooms and...parties and...a man called Hyungsik.
Hyungsik.
It didn’t know what it meant.
....what it all meant.
Taehyung was his...those lips were once his. His touch, all his. He didn’t...how...
If they would just stop.
If silence would just...
Hyungsik.
It didn’t know what it meant.
....what it all meant.
Taehyung was his...those lips were once his. His touch, all his. He didn’t...how...
If they would just stop.
If silence would just...
882. His head. It was...fuck.
Excruciating.
It felt like nails being dragged torturously across his brains, his screams piercing his ears but...no one else heard it.
No one else moved. No one else winced.
He was invisible.
His pain, his cries, it was all...
silent.
Excruciating.
It felt like nails being dragged torturously across his brains, his screams piercing his ears but...no one else heard it.
No one else moved. No one else winced.
He was invisible.
His pain, his cries, it was all...
silent.
883. That feeling again, it was here.
It was here.
His stomach twisted, his skin against his clothing, the hardness of the backseat, Taehyung’s hand in his hair,
It was too much.
He needed it off, he had to get out.
He can’t breathe. He was starting to panic.
It was here.
His stomach twisted, his skin against his clothing, the hardness of the backseat, Taehyung’s hand in his hair,
It was too much.
He needed it off, he had to get out.
He can’t breathe. He was starting to panic.
884. The windows got closer and the sky got darker. Immediately. His dad looked further away and the floors raised higher.
He didn’t know where he...was.
He didn’t know what these things were on his feet.
Why the air was dissolving into non-existence.
He didn’t know where he...was.
He didn’t know what these things were on his feet.
Why the air was dissolving into non-existence.
885. He could smell...blood.
See sparkles of pretty demons that Jungkook’s pounding on before. This morning. His episodes. The families he’s hurt. His veins. His scars. His pain. His betrayal. Broken trust. Violence. Abandonment.
It lead to something.
It lead to this.
See sparkles of pretty demons that Jungkook’s pounding on before. This morning. His episodes. The families he’s hurt. His veins. His scars. His pain. His betrayal. Broken trust. Violence. Abandonment.
It lead to something.
It lead to this.
886. He wouldn’t be able to control it now..
He’s held too much.
It wasn’t enough.
Taehyung wasn’t enough. The one thing that’s kept him sane since his blackout this morning turns to be another thing that he has no idea about.
He’s held too much.
It wasn’t enough.
Taehyung wasn’t enough. The one thing that’s kept him sane since his blackout this morning turns to be another thing that he has no idea about.
887. He felt safe because he thought he...understood Taehyung. More than everything else at least. But it’s the same.
It’s all the same.
His father.
Namjoon.
The doctors.
His treatments.
His life...as a whole.
None of it made sense.
And now Taehyung was the same.
It’s all the same.
His father.
Namjoon.
The doctors.
His treatments.
His life...as a whole.
None of it made sense.
And now Taehyung was the same.
888. The only thing that made sense to him,
no longer makes sense.
It.
burned...
no longer makes sense.
It.
burned...
889. How much more. Why can’t it end.
What was the point in Jungkook...having...anything?
He opened his eyes, looking down at his hands. Veiny, covered in dry blood.
What was stopping him from ending this?
He could. He could just.
his demons began to speak. comvince.
What was the point in Jungkook...having...anything?
He opened his eyes, looking down at his hands. Veiny, covered in dry blood.
What was stopping him from ending this?
He could. He could just.
his demons began to speak. comvince.
890. ‘What’s back Jungkook?’ Taehyung brokenly asked. ‘What’s wrong?’
Taehyung felt Jungkook’s skin heat up.
It concerned him because...
Well because Taehyung was wearing jeans.
And all he started to feel was direct heat.
He saw Jungkook’s hands start to shake-
Taehyung felt Jungkook’s skin heat up.
It concerned him because...
Well because Taehyung was wearing jeans.
And all he started to feel was direct heat.
He saw Jungkook’s hands start to shake-
891. -from his peripheral. Turning completely and praying he hasn’t fallen back.
his dark place.
Not here.
Not now.
Mr Jeon said he was passed out...that he wouldn’t hear any of this. That he...
Jungkook no.
his dark place.
Not here.
Not now.
Mr Jeon said he was passed out...that he wouldn’t hear any of this. That he...
Jungkook no.
892.
Why
Always
Me
Why
Always
Me
Why
Do
I
Lose
Everything
That
Makes
Me
Feel
Safe
He
Was
The
Only
Thing
Left
- taehyung, you we’re the only thing left.
Why
Always
Me
Why
Always
Me
Why
Do
I
Lose
Everything
That
Makes
Me
Feel
Safe
He
Was
The
Only
Thing
Left
- taehyung, you we’re the only thing left.
...I forgot you too?
893. Who are we then?
who did we used to be?
who was I?
who did we used to be?
who was I?
894. Taehyung tried to think. Mr Jeon was yelling questions and Taehyung’s brain struggled to operate with Jungkook squirming oddly in his lap.
The date.
The date.
The date.
The date.
The date.
The date.
when did you lose him?
894. Jungkook drowned,
A vivid vision pulling him victim,
Throat tight and surroundings erased,
He could feel-
He was falling.
His reality changing further...and further...and
gone.
A vivid vision pulling him victim,
Throat tight and surroundings erased,
He could feel-
He was falling.
His reality changing further...and further...and
gone.
895.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [MEMORY:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ MEMORY] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [MEMORY:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ MEMORY] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
896. It was pitch black. Only himself remaining. Sounds of...happiness. Laughter. Filling his ears.
‘Help!’ Jungkook screamed.
Silence.
‘Help me!’ A release. ‘Please.’
He didn’t know who would answer.
He’s in his mind with all his demons. And they wanna play.
~listen
‘Help!’ Jungkook screamed.
Silence.
‘Help me!’ A release. ‘Please.’
He didn’t know who would answer.
He’s in his mind with all his demons. And they wanna play.
~listen
897. He was there. He watched himself in...that very moment...right in front of him. It was like he dropped to his knees, the sorrow pulling him so far to imaginative ground that he was sure he’s never felt depression.
Never felt wounds...
Agony..
Like this.
Not like this.
Never felt wounds...
Agony..
Like this.
Not like this.
898. Because if he did...he’d be scarred.
He wouldn’t forget. How, how could he fucking forget-
Blossoms.
Blossom...field. Blossom field, blossom sleeves.
The wavy...light hair. His golden skin, his smell...
Vanilla lily.
Taehyung.
He wouldn’t forget. How, how could he fucking forget-
Blossoms.
Blossom...field. Blossom field, blossom sleeves.
The wavy...light hair. His golden skin, his smell...
Vanilla lily.
Taehyung.
Taehyung?
step1; recognition.
step1; recognition.
899. The Taehyung that walked into his house with his mother 24 hours before and the Taehyung that was in front of him in his vision...his mind...
Started to merge.
As if one person.
Was this real. Why was he...why was he seeing this. Why was this happening to him.
Started to merge.
As if one person.
Was this real. Why was he...why was he seeing this. Why was this happening to him.
900. ‘What...who are you?’
Suddenly Jungkook could move again. It was dark. Taehyung was...right here. But his pretty blonde hair was now...grey.
The cherry blossom were now...black.
The only light to shed on them, was the moon.
It was dark. It was too dark.
Suddenly Jungkook could move again. It was dark. Taehyung was...right here. But his pretty blonde hair was now...grey.
The cherry blossom were now...black.
The only light to shed on them, was the moon.
It was dark. It was too dark.
901. ‘T-Taehyung. Answer me. What do you want?’
‘You’re hurt.’ His voice butter smooth. ‘You can fix it.’
‘How?!...I don’t know where I am! I don’t who...what you are or-‘
‘Yes you do.’
Jungkook shook his head, running his hands through it.
‘I know this isn’t real.’
‘You’re hurt.’ His voice butter smooth. ‘You can fix it.’
‘How?!...I don’t know where I am! I don’t who...what you are or-‘
‘Yes you do.’
Jungkook shook his head, running his hands through it.
‘I know this isn’t real.’
902. ‘I know I’m just, seeing things. This is a hallucination, my blackout is coming, it’s just...’
Jungkook opened his eyes and Tae was closer. As if he floated. He was so bright, it hurt Jungkook’s eyes. Still so beautiful.
‘Hallucination?’ Taehyung’s expression was soft.
Jungkook opened his eyes and Tae was closer. As if he floated. He was so bright, it hurt Jungkook’s eyes. Still so beautiful.
‘Hallucination?’ Taehyung’s expression was soft.
903. Opposite to Jungkook’s. Scared. Alone. Frightened.
‘And these?’
Taehyung took Jungkook’s hand out, placing a vibrant stem of cherry blossoms in it. The only ones that weren’t black.
‘What do these mean to you?’
‘And these?’
Taehyung took Jungkook’s hand out, placing a vibrant stem of cherry blossoms in it. The only ones that weren’t black.
‘What do these mean to you?’
904. Jungkook couldn’t feel him. At all.
He was...air. A vision that couldn’t be touched.
His hand on his, and all Jungkook felt was his own heartbeat.
He wasn’t real. This wasn’t real.
He was with his dad. And he was driving and Tae was in the backseat. This isn’t real.
He was...air. A vision that couldn’t be touched.
His hand on his, and all Jungkook felt was his own heartbeat.
He wasn’t real. This wasn’t real.
He was with his dad. And he was driving and Tae was in the backseat. This isn’t real.
904. Jungkook shook his head.
‘P-please...T-Taehyung. I don’t want...I don’t want this. I don’t want you.’
Taehyung didn’t move. Rather just watched his love, slowly lose his mind with patience.
‘I don’t w-want you.’ Jungkook repeated, breaking. ‘Please.’
‘P-please...T-Taehyung. I don’t want...I don’t want this. I don’t want you.’
Taehyung didn’t move. Rather just watched his love, slowly lose his mind with patience.
‘I don’t w-want you.’ Jungkook repeated, breaking. ‘Please.’
905. ‘Because if I...’ his heart thumping so hard made it difficult for Jungkook to speak. ‘If I had you...it m-means I did the worse thing...I probably ever done.’
Jungkook looked at him.
Really.
‘I couldn’t have forgot you. I w-won’t...I won’t accept it.’
Jungkook looked at him.
Really.
‘I couldn’t have forgot you. I w-won’t...I won’t accept it.’
906. ‘Baby. Fix it.’ Taehyung’s hands travelled further up his arms.
Jungkook looked down at them.
‘I can’t f-feel you. This isn’t-‘
‘This is.’ Taehyung held the blossom in front of him again. ‘Stop blocking it. Just...feel. You know what this means to you.’
Jungkook looked down at them.
‘I can’t f-feel you. This isn’t-‘
‘This is.’ Taehyung held the blossom in front of him again. ‘Stop blocking it. Just...feel. You know what this means to you.’
907. ‘No.’ Guk shook his head crying, he didn’t want to, he didn’t want to, he didn’t want to.
He doesn’t want this to be the truth.
He doesn’t want the truth to be he really had Taehyung to himself.
And forgot him.
Left him.
Erase.
He doesn’t want this to be the truth.
He doesn’t want the truth to be he really had Taehyung to himself.
And forgot him.
Left him.
Erase.
908. ‘Breathe.’ Taehyung hushed him. His eyes so hypnotising to Jungkook, that his body listened. For once. He just listened.
‘I know they feel something to you Jungkook.’
‘I can feel it.’ Taehyung whispered.
‘I know they feel something to you Jungkook.’
‘I can feel it.’ Taehyung whispered.
909. ‘I can feel...everything. You’re frightened. But you’re smarter. You know...the truth. It’s right here.’ His hand stroked over his head.
‘You don’t have to be afraid. You can come back to me. We can fix us.’
‘Us?’ Jungkook was still trying to understand-
‘You don’t have to be afraid. You can come back to me. We can fix us.’
‘Us?’ Jungkook was still trying to understand-
910. That there was an ‘us’.
‘You know who I am. Don’t you?’
No. No stop.
‘You feel me... as well, don’t you? Right now. You see all of me. Baby if you just...stop running from it...you wouldn’t be in so much pain. You’d be able to see. Answers. You want them-‘
‘You know who I am. Don’t you?’
No. No stop.
‘You feel me... as well, don’t you? Right now. You see all of me. Baby if you just...stop running from it...you wouldn’t be in so much pain. You’d be able to see. Answers. You want them-‘
911. ‘I can’t get them T-Taehyung. I’m not the one you can rely on. This isn’t me. I’m a monster. In a perfect world I would have you but-‘
‘You already did.’ Taehyung soothed. ‘You already...did. Look at who I am Jungkook.’
Jungkook face contorted, emotions so high.
‘You already did.’ Taehyung soothed. ‘You already...did. Look at who I am Jungkook.’
Jungkook face contorted, emotions so high.
912. ‘Come home.’
There was something rising. A gut feeling. A place Taehyung was taking him to that he wasn’t sure if he was ready for.
‘That. Right there. Don’t run from it. Answer it. Baby look at me and tell me who I am.’
Guk let out a cry as if he was holding his breath.
There was something rising. A gut feeling. A place Taehyung was taking him to that he wasn’t sure if he was ready for.
‘That. Right there. Don’t run from it. Answer it. Baby look at me and tell me who I am.’
Guk let out a cry as if he was holding his breath.
913. ‘Remember me baby. Come back to me. You’re safe now.’
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME :] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TELL ME WHO I AM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TELL ME WHO I AM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
914.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME :] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TELL ME WHO I AM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TELL ME WHO I AM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ LOOK AT ME] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
915. ‘Taehyung.’
916. ‘Okay.’ The angel comforted. ‘Now who’s Taehyung, Jungkook?’
‘My...my-‘ Jungkook head pounded, weakening him.
‘Who am I?’
‘My...my-‘ Jungkook head pounded, weakening him.
‘Who am I?’
917. ‘Mine.’
you were mine.
918. ‘When?’
Guk’s sound of pain, caused a hand to his chest.
Taehyung’s hands to his chest.
Heal.
‘Baby, when?’
Guk’s sound of pain, caused a hand to his chest.
Taehyung’s hands to his chest.
Heal.
‘Baby, when?’
When
When
When
When
When
When
when did you lose me?
When
When
When
When
When
when did you lose me?
Wake up.
Jungkook shaking awake for the 100th time in Taehyung’s lap, gasping upwards.
He remembers.
It was...
Jungkook shaking awake for the 100th time in Taehyung’s lap, gasping upwards.
He remembers.
It was...
It was November 24th.
I lost you...
with the last of my prayers..
the last call of your name...
on November 24th.
step2: relive.
921. ‘Because of...’
Make sense. Make sense. Make sense.
It wasn’t.
The heavy suffering erupted Mr Jeon at just the thought- the THOUGHT of Taehyung being...
No.
‘Because of y...y-you?’
The bruising look Mr Jeon gave Taehyung through the rear-view mirror was wounding.
Make sense. Make sense. Make sense.
It wasn’t.
The heavy suffering erupted Mr Jeon at just the thought- the THOUGHT of Taehyung being...
No.
‘Because of y...y-you?’
The bruising look Mr Jeon gave Taehyung through the rear-view mirror was wounding.
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK- MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
NOVEMBER 24TH
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK - MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
NOVEMBER 24TH
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK - MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
928. ‘Dad?’
‘where are you?’
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK- MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
NOVEMBER 24TH
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK - MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
NOVEMBER 24TH
*✧･ﾟ:* [ FLASHBACK - MR JEON]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
929. Mr Jeon couldn’t understand.
The fact that he’s been obsessing over the cause, the blame of everything that happened to his son.
He’s had dreams of what he’d do if he ever met those men that beat him in person.
If he found out who they were.
The fact that he’s been obsessing over the cause, the blame of everything that happened to his son.
He’s had dreams of what he’d do if he ever met those men that beat him in person.
If he found out who they were.
930. What he’d do if he found who Jungkook was looking for.
Who he put himself in danger for.
Who he was fucking chasing. Bad enough to give up everything he loved and worked for.
He left his friends, career, family, safety...
for this person.
Who he put himself in danger for.
Who he was fucking chasing. Bad enough to give up everything he loved and worked for.
He left his friends, career, family, safety...
for this person.
931. And he was in their house...
Under their roof...
Now, in his car,
In his backseat.
This whole time.
Under their roof...
Now, in his car,
In his backseat.
This whole time.
932. He dreamt of pounding, killing, torturing like they did his son. And leaving every party involved, there. In the street.
With not even their memory left.
JUST like they did his son.
And he was right here. Right now.
Taehyung was...right here.
With not even their memory left.
JUST like they did his son.
And he was right here. Right now.
Taehyung was...right here.
933. They shared dinner. He called him son. He welcomed him. He even cared.
‘You.’
‘You.’
His father.
Hyungsik.
Taehyung’s fear.
Trigger. Trigger. Trigger.
Submission to his demand.
-
Blackout.
Hyungsik.
Taehyung’s fear.
Trigger. Trigger. Trigger.
Submission to his demand.
-
Blackout.
944.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
945. Taehyung was back. Grey haired Taehyung. The one that he can’t feel.
‘Why are you scared?’ Guk remembering Taehyung’s fearful eyes, he’s seen it before.
‘My father-‘
‘Protect me.’
Begs.
‘It’s too m-much. Protect me Jungkook...you...remember me don’t you?’
‘Why are you scared?’ Guk remembering Taehyung’s fearful eyes, he’s seen it before.
‘My father-‘
‘Protect me.’
Begs.
‘It’s too m-much. Protect me Jungkook...you...remember me don’t you?’
946. ‘I can feel how angry you are. It’s okay. Rage Jungkook, he did this to you. He’s not even getting you help. You should be at the hospital. All he wants to do is talk about-‘
‘Hyungsik.’ Jungkook felt the electricity again. ‘Hyungsik.’
‘Hyungsik.’ Jungkook felt the electricity again. ‘Hyungsik.’
947. ‘You remember what he did to us? To...me?’
‘Taehyung...’
‘I don’t want to be in this car Jungkook. Get me out. It’s too tight...it’s too much.’
‘T-Taehyung but I...I want t-to hurt them. My b-blackout I...I want to h-hurt everyone. I crave it.’
‘Taehyung...’
‘I don’t want to be in this car Jungkook. Get me out. It’s too tight...it’s too much.’
‘T-Taehyung but I...I want t-to hurt them. My b-blackout I...I want to h-hurt everyone. I crave it.’
948. ‘I know baby. So do it. They caused Juchai. They caused Sujang. They caused your medication. Your treatment. Your pain. Yet all anyone seems to do is blame you.’
It would the last push for Jungkook’s eyes to fully transform.
‘They hurt you. So do it.’
It would the last push for Jungkook’s eyes to fully transform.
‘They hurt you. So do it.’
949. Taehyung smiled, cupping his jaw close to his face. Only this time Jungkook swore he could almost feel him.
Swore Taehyung’s eyes could actually see him.
‘You’re the monster. Remember? Show them what they created.’
Swore Taehyung’s eyes could actually see him.
‘You’re the monster. Remember? Show them what they created.’
950.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ILLUSION:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ILLUSION:] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ ILLUSION] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
‘Hi father.’
951. The screams were unbearable. Taehyung no longer felt Jungkook against his lap.
And he no longer saw his eyes.
Instead his father was trying to protect himself, brutal lunges towards his body.
And as for Taehyung...he was floating. They weren’t on the ground anymore.
And he no longer saw his eyes.
Instead his father was trying to protect himself, brutal lunges towards his body.
And as for Taehyung...he was floating. They weren’t on the ground anymore.
As though they were in a dream, all he could see was blood, the gush from Jungkook’s fists...
and the clouds.
Like a rollercoaster, Taehyung felt he’s been on this ride before.
Only they weren’t at an amusement park.
And an airbag doesn’t explode once you’ve reached peak.
and the clouds.
Like a rollercoaster, Taehyung felt he’s been on this ride before.
Only they weren’t at an amusement park.
And an airbag doesn’t explode once you’ve reached peak.
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [CURRENT MIND] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ CURRENT MIND] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ CURRENT MIND] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
952. A very different story played in Jungkook’s mind.
It was quiet.
Pretty.
Peaceful.
He was speaking to Taehyung.
Doing, the right thing.
It was quiet.
Pretty.
Peaceful.
He was speaking to Taehyung.
Doing, the right thing.
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953. blurry.
not as crystal clear as the hand before him.
He tumbled out the car, pain all over his body, frozen to what he’s looking back at.
The bloody, hand reached out for him.
A beg for help.
Taehyung cried, unable to find an easy inhale and exhale.
Can’t breathe.
not as crystal clear as the hand before him.
He tumbled out the car, pain all over his body, frozen to what he’s looking back at.
The bloody, hand reached out for him.
A beg for help.
Taehyung cried, unable to find an easy inhale and exhale.
Can’t breathe.
954. He saw two.
A heavy hand on his neck. He felt it. Something buried at the side of his neck. Maybe...that’s why he can’t breathe.
He wanted his mother.
He wanted his father.
He wanted to go back.
Could this all...have really happened because he told the truth?
A heavy hand on his neck. He felt it. Something buried at the side of his neck. Maybe...that’s why he can’t breathe.
He wanted his mother.
He wanted his father.
He wanted to go back.
Could this all...have really happened because he told the truth?
955. His anxiety, fear, causing him to panic. He realised...he cried.
E-every-t-time..I t-tell the tru...’
‘Taehyung.’ a voice.
‘Please help me.’ Another voice.
Dual hands lay before him.
Reached for him.
‘S-Save me...’
‘D-dont make...the same...m-mist...’
E-every-t-time..I t-tell the tru...’
‘Taehyung.’ a voice.
‘Please help me.’ Another voice.
Dual hands lay before him.
Reached for him.
‘S-Save me...’
‘D-dont make...the same...m-mist...’
956. Taehyung heard crashing. A log rolling down from underneath the car, down the cliff.
‘T-Taehyung..’
A warning.
Taehyung looked up.
The car was tipping.
It was four seconds away from rolling down this cliff.
With Taehyung right in the middle.
‘T-Taehyung..’
A warning.
Taehyung looked up.
The car was tipping.
It was four seconds away from rolling down this cliff.
With Taehyung right in the middle.
957. Unable to lift himself, several attempts forcing him back down, weak, hurt.
He protected himself, covering what he could. Mumbling I’m sorrys to everyone and everything he’s ruined.
The loud noises of the car made Taehyung curl harder in on himself.
He protected himself, covering what he could. Mumbling I’m sorrys to everyone and everything he’s ruined.
The loud noises of the car made Taehyung curl harder in on himself.
958. Then it stopped. It tipped once before finding balance on its roof.
The car now upside down.
With both Jeon’s still barely awake and to one side of the car.
Jungkook in the back left window.
Father Jeon to the front left window.
‘Tae..h...hyung...’
The car now upside down.
With both Jeon’s still barely awake and to one side of the car.
Jungkook in the back left window.
Father Jeon to the front left window.
‘Tae..h...hyung...’
‘Pl-ease.’
my mind.
made me do it.
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
welcome milkies to your third trial.
for every key staple in the au, you get a choice. These decisions change everything. They change every possible outcome of the au.
you are just of the creator as I am.
welcome milkies to your third trial.
for every key staple in the au, you get a choice. These decisions change everything. They change every possible outcome of the au.
you are just of the creator as I am.
🧚🏽♂️I want you to feel in the story. I want you to connect to every character before you make your decision.
Every decision has a repercussion.
Every decision effects the outcome.
welcome to milky’s game.
welcome to milky’s verdict.
⏳🔮48 hours.
Every decision has a repercussion.
Every decision effects the outcome.
welcome to milky’s game.
welcome to milky’s verdict.
⏳🔮48 hours.
for the final decision,
don’t be late🧚🏽♂️
don’t be late🧚🏽♂️
959. Milkies, Taehyung’s settlement;
Choose wisely.
🧚🏽♂️What is milky’s verdict?
Choose wisely.
🧚🏽♂️What is milky’s verdict?
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ🧚🏽♂️MILKY’S VERDICT 🧚🏽♂️:･ﾟ✧*:✧
the results are in,
🧚🏽♂️your wish is my command *✧*✧･ﾟ
🧚🏽♂️your wish is my command *✧*✧･ﾟ
🧚🏽♂️remember?:･ﾟ✧*:✧
969. Taehyung sent the picture, hoping that the best he could do was good enough.
He was in so much pain.
His ears were numb to the sound of his own cries and Jungkook kept holding him tighter.
He was in so much pain,
but he wasn’t alone.
He was in so much pain.
His ears were numb to the sound of his own cries and Jungkook kept holding him tighter.
He was in so much pain,
but he wasn’t alone.
970. ‘S-someone’s gonna..c-come g-gukkie, I promise.’
Jungkook couldn’t care less.
He didn’t care.
He had Taehyung in his arms.
He was tired. Of everything. He just wanted to lay here until the world washed away.
He accepted a fate very different to Taehyung’s.
Jungkook couldn’t care less.
He didn’t care.
He had Taehyung in his arms.
He was tired. Of everything. He just wanted to lay here until the world washed away.
He accepted a fate very different to Taehyung’s.
He didn’t want help anymore.
He just wanted this.
He just wanted this.
971. Namjoon’s chest ached with emotions he wasn’t familiar with when he got the picture.
He was confused, check.
He was scared, check.
He was sorry, check.
He was angry, check.
But there was something else. Something else that couldn’t stand what he saw.
He was confused, check.
He was scared, check.
He was sorry, check.
He was angry, check.
But there was something else. Something else that couldn’t stand what he saw.
It was fine, at least he thought it was. Right before Taehyung sent that damn picture.
973. So now here Namjoon was. Barely able to get his shoes on while calling Hoseok and Yoongi consistently.
Both of them not answering.
Cursing as he tried to lock his front door. Sweating as he ran to his car. And shaking trying to put the key in the ignition.
Both of them not answering.
Cursing as he tried to lock his front door. Sweating as he ran to his car. And shaking trying to put the key in the ignition.
974. He called them again.
‘Fucking answer!’
He knew better than to panic. He can’t panic. He has too much relying on him. He has to be 100% right now, but he can’t do this on his own.
Not again.
He never wanted to have to save Jungkook again. Let alone his baby Taehyung.
‘Fucking answer!’
He knew better than to panic. He can’t panic. He has too much relying on him. He has to be 100% right now, but he can’t do this on his own.
Not again.
He never wanted to have to save Jungkook again. Let alone his baby Taehyung.
✧: *✧･ﾟ:🧚🏽♂️ Hoseok’s House 🧚🏽♂️✧✧*:･ﾟ✧.
✧: *✧･ﾟ:🧚🏽♂️ Hoseok’s House 🧚🏽♂️✧✧*:･ﾟ✧.
✧: *✧･ﾟ:🧚🏽♂️ Hoseok’s house 🧚🏽♂️✧✧*:･ﾟ✧.
980. Namjoon huffed, driving shakily.
Unhealthy and threatening thoughts filled his head thinking about the worst case scenario with Taehyung and Jungkook.
Too many what ifs.
Already a bunch of self blame as if he had fucking anything to do with this.
Unhealthy and threatening thoughts filled his head thinking about the worst case scenario with Taehyung and Jungkook.
Too many what ifs.
Already a bunch of self blame as if he had fucking anything to do with this.
981. He called again, honestly and foolishly expecting a different result.
He stopped calling Yoongi completely. He’s never usually awake at this time anyway. He’s a log when he sleeps. Earliest he’s seen him up is 2pm.
But Hoseok is literal opposite.
He stopped calling Yoongi completely. He’s never usually awake at this time anyway. He’s a log when he sleeps. Earliest he’s seen him up is 2pm.
But Hoseok is literal opposite.
‘What the fuck are you doing Hoseok. Please please please.’
✧: *✧･ﾟ:🧚🏽♂️ Hoseok’s house 🧚🏽♂️✧✧*:･ﾟ✧.
988. They all made it there somehow at the same time. When Namjoon saw them he didn’t even want to know why they didn’t answer. Or what took them so long. He didn’t care. All he could think about were his boys.
993. why didn’t you answer?
999. deja vu ✧
[🧚🏽♂️Omg I’m on my 1000th update 🥺- dksksjsjjsjsjsj, this JOURNEY of an au stfu🧚🏽♂️]
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [THE HOSPITAL ] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
1 HOUR LATER
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ THE HOSPITAL ] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
1 HOUR LATER
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ THE HOSPITAL ] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [HOSPITAL HALLS] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ HOSPITAL HALLS] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
TAEHYUNG
･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ HOSPITAL HALLS] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [HOSPITAL] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK’S ROOM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ HOSPITAL] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
JUNGKOOK’S ROOM
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* [ HOSPITAL] *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
blood on my hands...
...and I can’t come to you.
1050. Spill.
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
1052. Nervous?
40 minutes later.
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
‘you promised.’
to stay.
‘rest baby.’
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ KIM TAEHYUNG’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
*✧･ﾟ:* [ 40 MINUTES LATER]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL
*✧･ﾟ:* [ 40 MINUTES LATER]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL
*✧･ﾟ:* [ 40 MINUTES LATER]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM - 1 HOUR LATER
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
HOSPITAL ROOM - 1 HOUR LATER
*✧･ﾟ:* [ JEON JUNGKOOK’S]･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
Everyone’s asleep.
Well jungkook is wide awake...in the dark.
And Hoseok seems to be restless.
He can’t blame him after what Yoongi said to Hoseok 30 minutes earlier.
Well jungkook is wide awake...in the dark.
And Hoseok seems to be restless.
He can’t blame him after what Yoongi said to Hoseok 30 minutes earlier.
🧚🏻30 minutes earlier 🧚🏻
‘Mama kim...what’s love? Does it mean you’re ill?...how do you get rid of it?’
‘Ill is one word for it.’
Jungkook remembers.
And he had to have faith that Taehyung would still be his, would still come back,
If what Ms Kim said was true then...he can’t lose Taehyung this easily.
And he had to have faith that Taehyung would still be his, would still come back,
If what Ms Kim said was true then...he can’t lose Taehyung this easily.
.15 more minutes 🕰
‘breathe Jungkook, you gotta get out of here.’
⏸ paused.
to clarify 💕
https://twitter.com/milkythighs_x/status/1250044585738481673?s=21https://t.co/cXb8xfQEN4
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