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Shira Rose

Nov 17, 2019 • 6 tweets • 2 min read • Read on X

We are so quick to celebrate weight loss at any cost. But I want to talk about weight gain.

After a year+ treatment & many relapses, I’m officially pretty damn close to my pre anorexia weight.

Some people have found this disappointing; believing I’ve “let myself go.”

But every damn pound has been hard fought against my eating disorder and it’s necessary for my survival. And even more than my survival, for my ability to truly LIVE and thrive.

When someone fits the stereotype of what anorexia “should” look like, their weight gain is celebrated. Because I don’t “look” like someone who fits the stereotype of anorexia or any eating disorder, people think my weight gain is unnecessary or excessive.
#edrecovery

The thing is, my body was never genetically destined to be small unless starved. When I got to what people considered an “appropriate” weight, I had all the psychological and medical manifestations of anorexia. I was suffering and being praised for it every step of the way. #haes

Weight gain sucks. I’m not going to pretend that I like any of it. Most days I have to be reminded (or more accurately, coerced) by my support system to stay the course. But I can’t maintain recovery + weight loss at the same time. My body is happiest at a higher weight.

Physical recovery is a prerequisite for psychological recovery. I need to maintain this weight and only then does my brain have a chance at recovering. It’s going to be uncomfortable and I’m working really hard to sit with that.

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Your connection & spirituality happens through eating, not restricting. Hashem doesn’t want you to be harming yourself in the name of religion.

Obviously, please confirm with a treatment team + Rabbi who understands eating disorders and mental health. But your mental and physical health comes first. 💗

I want to clarify that this is referring to ALL eating disorders. Not just anorexia. Your mental health and recovery is a priority whether you struggle with restricting, bingeing, purging, or any other ED behaviors.

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I used to be concerned that sharing my negative experiences in ED treatment would be harmful to people attempting to get help.

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I said what I said.

I’m not trying to be an asshole but until treatment is created for ALL people in mind, more people will continue to be harmed and retraumatized in treatment.

Black people, trans people, fat people... they deserve safe care. And the current system does not provide that.

Also, OBVIOUSLY there are exceptions! Of course there are people who’ve found treatment lifesaving but overall, the system is often ineffective if not not harmful and it’s important to be talking about this.

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(Spoiler alert: body diversity is a thing but my ED RD wasn’t aware)

It was also the only period of recovery I’d ever experienced

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The endo forced me on the scale after I pleaded not to &then said I had 2 options.I could get WLS or I could eat less than 1k cal a day w 1 hour vigorous exercise daily.

Yes, she was aware of my ED of 10 yrs (at that pt) that I was was just starting to recover from

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