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Apr 23, 2020 6 tweets 3 min read Read on X
Depression.

I recall when I battled with depression. It was a tough period in my life. It was like a second robe but heavier and damp with fear and unworthiness.

I doubted myself and saw a failure. A brilliant mind like mine couldn’t see anything good.
All I saw were my inadequacies and disappointment. I was angry and myself for being angry with God while at the same time, I was angry with God.

Thoughts of ending it all crept around the doors of reason.

The whisper was loud.
Insomnia was a friend. At the slightest sound, I would lay awake from 11PM till 5:00AM. Even if I slept 10:30PM and a mosquito buzzed in my ear, that’s the end of sleep.

I lost weight.

Dead man walking. Was there a trigger to this?

YES!
Many would say “if I get a job, it would lift” some, “if I was married with children, I won’t feel alone”.

Listen. Until you understand that Christ is your sufficiency, you’ll continue to battle with it.

I know because I felt likewise.
However, if you’re a believer and still struggling with depression today and mood swings, I can authoritatively tell you that you don’t understand the power of the Gospel of Love.

Do you need someone to talk to?

Let me know.
I am the earthworker! A son and soldier of Christ who is called to pull men and women and children out of the pits and lead them to the city of celestial lights called Zion!

I await!

#christiantwitter #Christianity #depression #jesus #zion #pssbc

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