Thread by @CABeck1961

@TRUreporting Thomas,
As a lifelong survivor of anxiety and Depression, and a medically retired RN, please let me urge you to get a full physical with blood tests. IF you can do that with a Functional Medicine Doctor vs. Big Pharma Doctor, do that!
Trauma and Stress change your neuro-...

@TRUreporting ...endocrine system. One things gets out of balance, and it goes to another, then, another... and, you cannot hit or miss with supplements. You need a plethora of labs so you know what's broken, and where the fixes meed to be made. You cannot psyche yourself up and out of a ...

@TRUreporting ..."mental" state, when it is actually from pathophysiological reasons.! The longer I worked in medicine, the more I concluded that "mental" illnesses were due to PHYSICAL reasons. (Sorry, my turtle was escaping).
So please, get into a doctor pronto. Get a good therapist to ...

@TRUreporting vent to. A "cognitive" therapist can help you re-frame the way you view things, and help you avoid "thought ruts". I'm an SRA/MK/Child Trafficking survivor, I have to take SSRIs because my body was depleted a long time ago from continuous, overwhelming stress. I have brain...

@TRUreporting ...injuries that cannot be repaired. I do not have a sleep-wake cycle. I do not have body temperature control. I have a pacemaker for a heartbeat, and other things. When I got all my memories flooding back, "psychiatric" meds saved my life. Many psychiatric meds are neuroleptics,

@TRUreporting meaning they can also treat things like physical pain, migraines and so on.
It might be better, if where you live is open, to get an outside job to get out of your apt. or house, and work at something with a set schedule, and less "personal" investment and requirements, and ...

@TRUreporting with other people! For instance, take the summer off from social media, or partner with one of your YT pals to combine with and do 2 shows a week, or once a week guest. I don't recommend being by yourself, working in this Deep Kimshee, and feeling like your drowning 24/7. I care

@TRUreporting about you, Thomas.! You can follow me back and DM me if you'd like. I gave up trying to please others and worrying about what they think of me years ago, Which is good, because I watched my spouse and my "friends', and my Church, and my former colleagues all walk away from me...

@TRUreporting when I needed them the most. My neurologist and cardiologist stuck with me, my therapist stuck with me, Dale and Ted (see my pinned post of my book), stuck with me, and some survivor friends online. Going to College while in therapy kept me busy, as did my husband and children.

@TRUreporting I found Nursing to be extremely rewarding, because I was always making a difference in somebody else's lives.
If you can't find an outside job, take a volunteer position somewhere with a set schedule where you will not have time to be alone in your own thoughts.
Most of all...

@TRUreporting ...taking a break from You Tube and that constant stress DOES NOT MEAN you've failed anybody or yourself.
You are a dad. Your son need his dad well and happy. You deserve to be well and happy, Thomas. I hung through the worst times because I gave up the right to be selfish when

@TRUreporting I became a parent.
You're still young. BTW, College and Nursing was my third career. You have the right to find what make you happy, and go for it. Depression can so cloud your mind that you don't even know what "happy" looks or feels like. That's where a good therapist and ...

@TRUreporting ...the thorough physical exam and labs make the most important difference, taking you out of "just surviving" to thriving if you have underlying health issues going on.
I have PTSD, and a free-floating anxiety disorder left over from the trauma even though I fully healed...

@TRUreporting ...psychologically and integrated 20 years ago. I'm 7 years past a terminal prognosis because of THEM. The ones that are finally being exposed! AS a kid stuffed into a wire dog cage back in the early 60s, I didn't expect to live much less see what I am seeing now.
So, please,...

@TRUreporting ...Thomas, if you are in a deep, dark place, I am extending my hand out and stating, "I'm here, I care, I've been through tough times, but life can be so much better!" Follow me, DM me, I can give you my contact info, and be right beside you from AZ. Life is a Gift. I promise.