Another patient.
Another chart to peruse.
I did my usual - quickly glancing through the chart, honing in on recent imaging studies, labs, medications and history.
Ready, I pick up my papers and walk to the waiting patient’s room. 1/
“Hello doc”
“I’m Chris. I’m the surgical resident working with the Dr. He’ll be in shortly, as he’s seeing another patient.”
“Sure thing Chris.”
As I settle into my chair, I do my usual - studying, “listening” with my eyes. 2/
Hands and arms… “Hmm”
I swivel in my chair, away from the computer, as is my usual, and begin the visit. 4/
I’ve found that starting this way removes assumptions for both parties and empowers my patients to correct my understanding of facts or sequence of events when I’m wrong. 5/
“I understand that your kidneys stopped working last year, pushing you to dialysis. And you recently got a fistula in your left arm.”
They both nod. 6/
The wife speaks up. 8/
At this, I study my patient more. He’s quiet. Every move deliberate. The scratches on his arm and hands, I now note, are the unmistakable marks 9/
I stare closer at his neck, on the front surface where his Adam’s apple sits. And sure enough, 11/
“He had a trach. Fortunately, he rallied through that. He has had a long course with rehab.” She quips. 12/
“Been a long road doc…but you can’t keep a good man down”, he replies jocularly.
And then he points to his fistula, which I dutifully examine.
It’s raised, aneurysmal, and pulsatile - not a good sign. 13/
I inform them of my findings and the conclusion that he’ll need another fistula.
They nod. They understand. 14/
And then, I ask, looking at the patient.
“And I understand your father recently died from COVID-19? And his funeral was last week?” 15/
“Actually, the funeral was yesterday. He passed while he” she points to him, “was still in the hospital, recovering.”
Not a lot said but much felt. There is a heaviness in the air.
I let it linger out of respect for this moment. 16/
to be able to talk to each other in person,
to hold the other,
to touch the other. 18/
I’m reminded that in front of me sits human examples of the effect of the pandemic - with all the apparent economic, racial and health disparities. 19/
What do you call someone who has been there for their loved one even when, I’m sure, she couldn’t be there in person when he was at his sickest? 21/
Pondering these things, as I reach the door, I turn around and say to both of them, 22/
“Thank you” they say together.
“No, Thank YOU”, and I mean it.
Another patient.
Another chart to peruse. 23/fin