My first year of grad school remains the single most emotionally destructive and exhausting year I've experienced... even worse than the one where one of my newborn twins had 5+ critical surgeries.
I'd say I can't imagine what it was like for the Black students in my entering cohort, but... yeah. There weren't any.
One classmate of mine was an older guy. Already had a PhD in Philosophy. Wrote some paper on econ, sent it to a prof at Chicago. They liked it, but....
Seems flattering, yeah?
So he uproots his family (wife, youngish kids), quits his job, comes to Chicago.
The math in grad school starts at calculus, quickly ramps up from there.
He didn't know calculus. Much less linear algebra. Much less differential equations.
He is, bluntly, screwed.
He was in the library as much as the rest of us were. But most of us were 21 year olds without families.*
But I digress.
And at Chicago, that's not all that unusual. They liked to fail about 1/3 of those taking the first year exams, make them retake the entire year again.
But you only get one more shot.
So he gets invited to program he wasn't ready for, then kicked out after two years.
He uprooted his life, and his family's lives, but in the end... what?
The department could have done so much more for him, could have truly HELPED him, worked with him, nurtured whatever they saw that led to that invitation.
I'm sorry, E. You deserved so much more than that.