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Sep 23, 2020 10 tweets 4 min read Read on X
This is Carol’s story. We would like to send her an immense amount of support and thank her for being so open with us about her experiences. ❤️
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“Transgender identity offered me an explanation for why I was wrong. I’ve felt different my whole life. I never felt like I was really a girl because I never seemed to be able to act like the other girls acted. 2/10
When I was 6 years old, I cried and screamed because I didn’t want to wear a dress. When I was 9, I begged my mother for a football. She said, “No, football is for boys”. At school kids made fun of me for acting like a boy. 3/10
I was told the way I was wrong, that I needed to behave like a girl. Yet I could not seem to do this thing that came so naturally to all the women and girls I saw around me. 4/10
My early life experiences had a lasting impact on my sense of self and self-esteem, and I grew to resent my female body.  I hated being a woman. Unlike many detrans women, I lived many years as a butch lesbian woman before transitioning at the age of 34. 5/10
I had a series of life changing events happen after the age of 30 that drove me into a deep dark depression. It seemed like I was drowning, and my dysphoria became unbearable. The only way out I could see was transition. 6/10
I’m not going to sit here and say transitioning didn’t help my dysphoria, because it did. But the reasons it helped became obvious after taking T for 4 years and having a double mastectomy. It helped because I didn’t have to live in a world that thought I was wrong. 7/10
I started taking antidepressants for my depression and they enabled me to begin to ask the hard questions necessary to address my dysphoria without continuing to live as trans. 8/10
It's been the hardest and most humbling thing I’ve ever had to do in my life, but I’m glad everyday that I detransitioned. I feel for the first time in my life I am truly living authentically. 9/10
I’m a mother, a wife, a lesbian and I’m sure people still think I don’t act like a woman. But I know now that I’m not wrong, they are.” 10/10

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Oct 15, 2021
This story was sent to us by Juju. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us, we wish you all the best ❤️
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"At the age of about 14, I gradually began to question my female gender. In retrospect, it strikes me that I always wanted to get away from something I hated, rather than actually wanting to get towards something. That makes a huge difference to me nowadays. 2/10 Image
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As far as I can remember, I've always been attracted to women more than to men... but I didn't feel allowed to be attracted to other females. 2/9
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“I was abused and isolated as a kid. I did not have many friends. I went to college and found my tribe by starting a black woman’s organization, but it wasn’t long before white trans people came and bullied us into letting them in. 1/8
This was the first time I came in contact with the authoritarian nature of the community. At the time I was honored and even joined an organization to educate about gender and sexuality on campus. In college I identified as non-binary transmasculine person. 2/8
I remember taking showers with my mom and she would criticize my body in this closed off vulnerable space. I was raised in predominantly white schools and also had what I call racial dysphoria. 3/8
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"I'm 30 years old. In total I spent around 6 years on T. For a short while I was so happy with the results. But it didn't last. T made me really hairy (like bigfoot hairy) and acne prone. I hated the bottom growth (still do). And I hated how... emotionless it made me feel. 1/10
I got a hysterectomy in 2018 because T had caused severe uterus and vaginal atrophy and pain. I bled so much after the hysterectomy I nearly died. It was traumatic. 2/10
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