How to get URL link on X (Twitter) App
"At the age of about 14, I gradually began to question my female gender. In retrospect, it strikes me that I always wanted to get away from something I hated, rather than actually wanting to get towards something. That makes a huge difference to me nowadays. 2/10
My mom remarried and I began living a nightmare of physical and sexual abuse from her new husband. I didn't know how to tell anyone and almost thought maybe it was normal. 2/13
“From age 14 I started to feel disconnected from my body and that there was something wrong about my strong gender nonconformity. 2/10
As far as I can remember, I've always been attracted to women more than to men... but I didn't feel allowed to be attracted to other females. 2/9
This was the first time I came in contact with the authoritarian nature of the community. At the time I was honored and even joined an organization to educate about gender and sexuality on campus. In college I identified as non-binary transmasculine person. 2/8
I got a hysterectomy in 2018 because T had caused severe uterus and vaginal atrophy and pain. I bled so much after the hysterectomy I nearly died. It was traumatic. 2/10
“Transgender identity offered me an explanation for why I was wrong. I’ve felt different my whole life. I never felt like I was really a girl because I never seemed to be able to act like the other girls acted. 2/10
I became anorexic, later depressive and suicidal. My mother had hypothyroidism, she was depressed and emotionally abusive. By age 16 I went to the youth care and moved out. Two schools later I quit school and lived on the streets in Europe for a year.
“I spent a lot of time thinking about what I wanted out of transition. I wanted to feel comfortable in a body that never felt like mine. I wanted to feel confident and happy. 2/8
I was already more masculine than most girls my age and that paired with being violated had me thinking I was never meant to be a girl. I’d developed a hatred and fear of my body. I’d disassociated from it in a way. 2/6
“I will be 30 years old next month. I have been looking forward to this birthday for a long time. And even more so now that I am living my most authentic, true life.” 2/9
https://twitter.com/TheSTMagazine/status/1282193172697960448I have to admit that I was bothered by the title “The Detransitioners - What happens when trans men want to become women again”, and I have to say something about it. 2/5