HOW IT STARTED
My dad drank heavily. I watched him and his buddies. I learned. I tried it.
I loved it!
I immediately had access to uninhibited confidence. I was accepted into a larger social circle. I felt rebellious!
My dad drank heavily. I watched him and his buddies. I learned. I tried it.
I loved it!
I immediately had access to uninhibited confidence. I was accepted into a larger social circle. I felt rebellious!
HOW IT CONTINUED
I went to college. I met many more like minded people, and I continued drinking.
We weren't casually drinking. This was 3-4 days a week, who can drink the most kind of drinking.
I went to college. I met many more like minded people, and I continued drinking.
We weren't casually drinking. This was 3-4 days a week, who can drink the most kind of drinking.
I SURVIVED
I did a lot of stupid shit (that would fill another thread).
I barely studied.
I spent the majority of college on academic probation. I took summer courses to catch up on the failed studies.
Miraculously, I received a bachelor's of science in Biology in 5 years.
I did a lot of stupid shit (that would fill another thread).
I barely studied.
I spent the majority of college on academic probation. I took summer courses to catch up on the failed studies.
Miraculously, I received a bachelor's of science in Biology in 5 years.
ADULTHOOD
Surely I would shape up now. I had a real job, I had responsibility, and I wasn't in a college town anymore.
Wrong!
Now I was making money. I could afford to drink.
I needed to meet my new colleagues. You know...relationship and team building.
Surely I would shape up now. I had a real job, I had responsibility, and I wasn't in a college town anymore.
Wrong!
Now I was making money. I could afford to drink.
I needed to meet my new colleagues. You know...relationship and team building.
THE CRACKS STARTING TO SHOW
I was anxious all the time.
I never established a strong base of self confidence.
I needed to drink to "be myself" in social situations.
The memories of the stupid shit haunted my dreams. The hangovers became lethal.
I was anxious all the time.
I never established a strong base of self confidence.
I needed to drink to "be myself" in social situations.
The memories of the stupid shit haunted my dreams. The hangovers became lethal.
FAST FORWARD
I'm married, I have 2 beautiful girls, I'm becoming successful in my career, and I'm stressed the fuck out.
I still drink. Frequently to the point of embarrassing myself. The anxiety builds.
My thought patterns become dark. I am extremely unhappy.
I'm married, I have 2 beautiful girls, I'm becoming successful in my career, and I'm stressed the fuck out.
I still drink. Frequently to the point of embarrassing myself. The anxiety builds.
My thought patterns become dark. I am extremely unhappy.
I NEED TO QUIT
My kids are watching, just like when I was a child.
Drinking is my coping mechanism for stress.
My problems vanish for short bursts while drinking and come back 10X afterwards.
This isn't working anymore.
My kids are watching, just like when I was a child.
Drinking is my coping mechanism for stress.
My problems vanish for short bursts while drinking and come back 10X afterwards.
This isn't working anymore.
I HATE HYPOCRITES
-someone who claims they have a certain identity, but acts in a different manner.
-someone who claims they have a certain identity, but acts in a different manner.
CONSISTENCY BIAS
I need a new identity.
I need to convince myself I am a nondrinker.
I need to cultivate my hatred of hypocrites into practice.
I'm a nondrinker.
If you catch me drinking, I'm a hypocrite.
I need a new identity.
I need to convince myself I am a nondrinker.
I need to cultivate my hatred of hypocrites into practice.
I'm a nondrinker.
If you catch me drinking, I'm a hypocrite.
TATTOO
A permanent reminder to the promise I made to myself. To my new identity.
What if I started drinking again?
I will render it meaningless.
It would be a weird ass tattoo with no story behind it.
A permanent reminder to the promise I made to myself. To my new identity.
What if I started drinking again?
I will render it meaningless.
It would be a weird ass tattoo with no story behind it.
WTF IS THAT?
It's the turkey from the Wild Turkey bottle (drinking reference).
He's frozen in ice.
I quit #coldturkey
Sober 1.5 years and counting...
It's the turkey from the Wild Turkey bottle (drinking reference).
He's frozen in ice.
I quit #coldturkey
Sober 1.5 years and counting...
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