I talk a big game about being kind, but I'll be honest...
Deep down, there's a part of me that is seething with anger. I'm furious about how so many of our governments have mishandled this pandemic, and put profit above human lives. There's a quiet rage that's got nowhere to go.
And I know that so many others are feeling that same anger and frustration, and I want you to know you're not alone, even if we're all isolated and having a hard time with a lack of human contact, some of you having lost friends and loved ones. That anger is just and valid.
We have, all of us, lost out on a year of our lives. Not just lost... Robbed. And I'm seething over it.
So if I'm talking about being kind to one another, I want you all to know, I'm not just trying to plaster over that anger with some nice platitudes. We owe it to each other.
We owe each other kindness because that anger can find ways to leak out, and we can lash out and hurt people, often unintentionally. We owe each other kindest because we're sure as hell not going to get any from our governments, who are more concerned with the short term profit.
I feel so powerless, like I have no control, and it can be so easy, tempting even, to lash out and try to exert control over little things, just to feel even for a fleeting moment that we do have some power, that we do have some control over something... Anything.
Part of being kind to each other is remembering not to misdirect that anger and pent up frustration. Never forget what it is you're angry about, and there the blame for this hideously mishandled and avoidable pandemic should be.
Didn't expect this thread to resonate so strongly with folks. It was more just me getting something out.
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I try and do my best with the platform that I have, but that doesn't mean reaching across the aisle and trying to deradicalize or otherwise convert right wingers, that's never been my focus and I don't think I ever will.
It still kinda messes with me that I'm considered by some folks a "big leftist" account, when all I really do is speak about my perspective as a trans woman while doing regular videosgame influencer stuff and talking about things I like. I'm not and haven't been an activist.
Being openly and unapologetically queer and trans while gaming, and making LGBT people expressly welcome in my spaces and community, that's more important to me than the potential to reach someone on the other side. Maybe that not much in the grand scheme of things, but I try.
A lot of indie developers are in a tough place right now, because it's entirely possible to do everything right and still have a commercial failure on your hands. There is no end of absolute indie gems coming out month after month and many are going to fall through the cracks.
From my own perspective as an avid indie fan over the past decade, it feels like we've gone from a situation where I could easily play all the notable indie titles out there; Bastion, Dust, Gunpoint, FTL, Mark it the Ninja, etc
It was easy to keep on top of and follow.
Now, however? It's a completely different kettle of fish, and even someone like me who plays a lot of games, I'm completely overwhelmed at the best of times. I'm genuinely not exaggerating when I say that even whole subgenres are feeling completely oversaturated.
God, I wish half as many people would show up for my twitch streams as RT my threads on trans issues. I'm not gonna lie that it can be disheartening.
I want to make it clear that I'm not admonishing anyone for not coming by for my streams. I'm just lamenting that the thing that quite honestly brings me a lot of joy, just isn't anywhere near as popular as when I'm speaking on topics of despair that frankly distress me.
I try very hard to make my streams a place where folks can come to relax and chill, I've made a channel that's an explicitly LGBT friendly place, and it's something I have a lot of passion for.
The transphobia crisis in the UK mirrors in a lot of ways Prop 8 in California over a decade ago. There was a concerted effort by the religious right to ban same sex marriage in what is one of the most progressive states, and saw huge amounts of out of state money pouring in...
The logic was, that if the religious right could prove that even a progressive state rejects marriage equality, that it would deal a deadly blow to LGBT rights and kill off the growing momentum for marriage equality. It passed in 2008, and California banned same sex marriage.
It was deemed unconstitutional and overturned eventually, and in the end marriage equality won out in 2015. But I don't think it can be overstated just how intense the culture of homophobia got during the Prop 8 era, it was absolutely vile and shocking and extremely dehumanising.