Thread by @Jkid4

Just today I got banned from a Discord that has been my only outlet for the past 12 months, with no warning, no PM warning. Just a instant ban. Apparently it's clear that I'm no longer welcome there or on the associated subreddit

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I have strong feelings about lockdowns because it has affectedly destroyed my life and my routine, and anything I've been looking forward to.

Everything is just gone.

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Some people see this and many of my views as reverse doomerism, but they don't know how bad my life and routine is or how my future is destroyed.

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It's worse on me because I have asperger's syndrome, these lockdowns destroyed me just made me running on fumes. My usual outlets have been stolen or basically gone except for a weekly therapist visit over the phone.

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And all my people I know went covidwoke or don't care anymore. Even my parents went hysterical as well.

This sub and discord were the only outlets I had for almost the past year, and it's very clear my views are just too much for the discord.

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Evidently someone was just tired of me, and wanted me out.

At that point, im just done with the world. I have no one to speak to or my voice to be heard.

And everything is just escalating despite the vaccines.

I just want want to crawl into bed and die.

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The only reason I'm still alive is that my mom will be in a homeless shelter if I self-delete myself.

She has nowhere to go, she's underemployed, she has a autistic son and no one wants to help her.

I'm the only one that is holding up the family.

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Because no one in her extended family wants to help.

I have to be there for her.

Even when theres nothing for me to look forward to at all nor a future.

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Its absurdly very clear that I dont belong in the post-lockdown world.

The press are already shaming and blaming us for being failures.

I dont see a future other than dystopia...

I wish I have the courage to take a flight anywhere and never come back.

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Maybe be a homeless person, waiting for that something or someone to kill me.

At least it will have none of the stigma of suicide.

At least its better than having the permanment pain of having a whole year life stolen for you.

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Being alienated from your whole country because of pure hysterical driven by the media.

Not being able to relate to anyone because they embraced the hysteria.

Nothing helps anymore.

Its been a year. I want this to end now.

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Yet no one is willing to protest or march towards their state governors demanding and end to lockdowns.

The world as I know it is gone, but I have no obligation to stick around so they can demand me to clean their mess they made.

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