give me tsukkiyama’s first time but they’re extremely clumsy and even if they did their research they don’t really know what they’re doing and it’s awkward and not what they expected at all.
tadashi said he’d try bottoming, he’s fingered himself before and liked it and it does look kinda fun in porn so he’s enthusiastic but when he stretches himself two fingers wide, way too quickly that day, of course it goes wrong .
kei is way too big for him and he barely pushes half the tip in when tadashi flinched back in pain. he thought he could handle it but holy fuck does it hurt why does it hurt so much.
kei panics and immediately tries to comfort him because the absolute last thing he wants is to hurt tadashi and he’s so so terrified of doing something wrong.
after he holds him for a few minutes and kisses him all over, tadashi feels stupid for giving up so easily, so he insist on trying again, pushing past kei’s protests.
when he gives in eventually, kei takes the stretching on himself this time, using double the earlier amount of lube and taking way longer, carefully waiting for tadashi to adapt before he adds more and slowly goes further
but even then they’re still too impatient, try again too early. it still hurts so incredibly much.
tadashi is embarrassed. this is not how he thought it would go.
tadashi is embarrassed. this is not how he thought it would go.
kei is just scared of doing something wrong. he does his best to comfort him, and they hold each other close for long but they can both feel the disappointment hanging over them.
they give up that day with the promise to try again soon, with more patience and more time to prepare.
tadashi swallows his pride and asks suga for advice. he knows about his and daichis relationship and- well. they have to have a little more experience than them.
kei dives deep into the web, past the surface level articles and into forums, discussion pages, kink blogs on various sites. without hesitation, he orders a set of plugs, differently sized, beginner friendly.
they take their time and they come back to it.
it’s still awkward, there’s a leftover simmer of nervousness under both of their skins, but they work through it together.
they’re young still, inexperienced, but even if it doesn’t look like in the videos, it feels nice to have a body so close. they try again and again and it’s better every single time.
it’s a learning curve.
years later, they laugh about it. it’s a funny story how they tried to loose their virginity and failed, over enthusiastic and stupid. but they wouldn’t have had it any other way
years later, they laugh about it. it’s a funny story how they tried to loose their virginity and failed, over enthusiastic and stupid. but they wouldn’t have had it any other way
// this is a little personal because my first time also did not go as expected but i feel like we need to address the clumsy sides of it a little more and what better way than to make it highschool tsukkiyama
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