I am posted in COVID ICU for 12 hours (night shift).
This duty has been extremely brutal for a no. of reasons-
Seeing more young people die.
Have to restrain a lot of them as they're uncooperative or self extubate. They cry and beg us to remove the restrains but we can't
(1)
We're just jumping from 1 pt to another throughout the night as they deteriorate.
Staying in ICUs for so long have their own complications. So many pricks, procedures done on them everyday.
(2)
I don't know where to prick while taking an ABG sample cause their hands are thrombosed/ edematous.
I go at 8 pm and come back to my room at 9 am. Barely getting half an hour of sleep in between. Losing an average of 5-6 patients per shift (3)
When I finally come back, I don't know whether to sleep, shower or eat. I'm lucky if I get sleep for more than 4 hours at a stretch. I don't have a clue where my daytime goes, my eating time has been erratic. My academics are suffering drastically
(4)
Today when I was taking rounds, this 30 year old gentleman, turned to his left and told his neighbour- madam aa gaye hain. Ab hume kuch nahi hoga!
And that is enough ammunition to get me going for another 10 hours!