My first company @twitch sold for a billion dollars.
My second one lost $75 million in 36 months.
People love talking about success, but today I'm going to talk about failure.
It's time to be honest about Atrium:
During my time as Partner at @ycombinator, my ambition to build something big only grew.
I took the plunge and decided to follow the 'age-old' wisdom of fixing my own problem and building a startup around the solution.
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I hated doing legal work for my startups and never really understood what I was paying for.
The entire experience was too complicated and opaque. I started Atrium to make this easier for founders.
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I built up a team of five founders with different backgrounds.
With my name at the helm, everyone was running to us with funding offers.
We raised a $10m series A with an idea - a 10-slide pitch deck.
Sometimes a new idea is not enough
Despite having a great team, great investors, and early customers, our rosy start soon began to wither.
Many things contributed to the eventual downfall of Atrium.
Here is what I learned from my failures:
Build something you believe in and love, not for your ego
As with most founders after a big sell, my ego kept nagging me to think 'bigger'.
My dreams were full of insanely large numbers. A ten-billion-dollar company. A hundred-billion-dollar company.
We weren't clear about our mission early on
It is very hard to write the mission after the fact. You should start with a clear reason to exist and filter early hires for believers.
Without clearly defined goals between co-founders, huge frictional costs can arise.
We hired too fast
Hiring too quickly - especially before PMF can be a fatal mistake.
At Atrium, we hired too many people too fast and we failed to set a cohesive culture early. This is incredibly hard to change later on.
Prioritizing growth over product
We raised a $10m series A with just an idea. We focused on growth over everything else. While we successfully grew our customer base, we couldn't retain them.
We simply hadn't spent enough time to figure out our product.
We didn't define our 'who' early on
It wasn’t clear who Atrium served; the lawyers or the clients who were buying our legal services. Without making the distinction, we fell into the pit of trying to be everything to everyone.
In contrast, early on in Twitch, we decided that we would serve only streamers and iterated till we could serve them in the best possible way.
Win or die leadership
My colleagues needed to be supported and set up for success. My “win or die” strategy didn’t work and worse, strained relationships.
I lost several friends this way.
A more empathetic approach would have at least been a morale boost for the team.
Not looking inwards and asking big questions
Not figuring out my intrinsic motivation made it impossible to stay resilient in tough situations. My big question was, do I really want to be the CEO and build products? I also had no passion or real interest in legal tech.
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After Atrium, I realized that building product and being a CEO was not my primary goal.
I love interesting people, stories, and ideas - all of this has led me to content creation.
I am a much more actualized now and pursuing something that I find fulfilling.
My failures do not define me
It sucks having to shut down a company. I was not the only one affected, and I let a lot of people down.
Dealing with it moving on to discover what’s important is what really matters.
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Faith in myself that I will emerge a better and stronger person led to personal discoveries that exceeded my wildest expectations
Be proud of your failures - wear them like a badge.
Reply to this thread and share what you've learned from your own shortcomings, would love to read them.
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It took me a long time to learn that happiness is something you can train yourself to become better at it. It just takes some dedication, practice and persistence.
These habits have helped me become a much happier person:
1. Gratitude Journaling:
Find three things that you are grateful for in your life, and write them down every single morning. It could be anything as simple as your morning coffee to being healthy.
2. Negative Visualization:
Close your eyes and visualize a really bad hypothetical situation. What if you suddenly went blind, or suffered from a serious injury?
When I started justin.tv, it felt like an impossible task.
Here's some important advice on how you can start doing anything:
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Many people, when faced with doing something new that they know nothing about, won’t ever get started.
The idea behind justin.tv was simple enough: a 24 hour livestream video feed of our SF adventures, which would be broadcasted from a portable camera to online viewers.
Like most things in life however, theory and practice are very different things.
@garrytan's initial investment of $300K in @coinbase since 2012 is now worth over $2 billion.
But his journey to success has been no fairytale.
Here's what you need to know about masks, expectations, and mental health in your own journey to success:
Garry grew up with an alcoholic father, and suffered abuse and traumatic events that affected him throughout his life.
A fearful mindset of scarcity was seared into his mind at a young age.
Throughout Garry’s life, extrinsic markers such as good grades, financial success, and even his YouTube channel have created a performance of his identity.
This mask was a defense mechanism against the painful world around him.
I want to bring back this gem from the archive w/ @jaesonma and his crazy stories: kicking it with @JLin7, working for @MCHammer, and founding @88rising.
Before applying to @ycombinator, read this thread.
Here's the story behind my shitty first company, Kiko, our *almost* trainwreck demo, and what I learned from going through the very first YC batch.
Kiko was founded with no skills and no money by three clueless college students: myself, Emmett (CEO of @Twitch) and Matt. At that point, I had never even worked at a full time job.
We were inspired by gmail, which had just come out at the time. We wanted to create a similar outlook-style calendar app to sync and share events.