I've had so much taken from me already, it's astonishing people still want to restrict my freedom. It happens in many ways, but attempts to shame me for finding humor in my trauma are especially cruel. Laughter of all things? That's what you want to take from me?
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My wrongful conviction by Italian authorities ≠ the murder of Meredith Kercher by Rudy Guede.
Me making a joke about my wrongful conviction ≠ me making a joke about Meredith's murder.
But every time I do joke about my wrongful conviction, I get accused of exactly that.
Why? Because the media tricked you long ago into conflating these two tragedies when, in fact, they are separate tragedies caused by separate actors. The injustice done to me was not an inevitable result of the injustice done to Meredith.
And conflating my trauma with Meredith's is also a disservice to her. It erases what Rudy Guede did to her. She deserves better than having her tragedy confused with what the Italian justice system did to me.
I continue to joke about my own wrongful conviction in part because it's a way to draw a line in the sand, to demarcate our separate tragedies. And to say: STOP CONFLATING THEM. Stop tying my identity and my trauma to hers. For both our sakes.
And I joke because 4 years of my life were stolen from me, because I was hunted for 8 years by people who wanted to see me imprisoned. Because my reputation was unjustly damaged. Because if I can laugh about all that, then I can handle whatever else life has to throw at me.
Especially pomodori.
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Hi Tom. You say: “Stillwater is a work of fiction and not about her life experience...There were a few entry points that sparked the narrative, including aspects of real-life events, but the story and characters within my latest film are all invented.”
Did you read my Atlantic piece? Because I feel like you’re being disingenuous and evading my point.
Now that I’ve got your attention, I’d like to share a little family story about vaccines and conspiracy theories.
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My mom was born in Germany in 1962. When she was about 9 months old, she developed a high fever and a rash. My oma brought her to the doctor, and she was diagnosed with measles.
There was no measles vaccine available yet. That wouldn’t come until the following year. And without it, mortality rates were high, especially for children under five. The measles was twice as deadly as Polio.
Does my name belong to me? My face? What about my life? My story? Why does my name refer to events I had no hand in? I return to these questions because others continue to profit off my name, face, & story without my consent. Most recently, the film #STILLWATER.
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This new film by director Tom McCarthy, starring Matt Damon, is “loosely based” or “directly inspired by” the “Amanda Knox saga,” as Vanity Fair put it in a for-profit article promoting a for-profit film, neither of which I am affiliated with.
I want to pause right here on that phrase: “the Amanda Knox saga.” What does that refer to? Does it refer to anything I did? No. It refers to the events that resulted from the murder of Meredith Kercher by a burglar named Rudy Guede.
15 years after my wrongful conviction, the hate hasn't stopped: cunt, killer, slut, liar. I also have plenty of supporters who stick up for me. I posted a thread a bit ago about the strangeness of living in that dual reality...
But the hate and support aside, I often worry that I'll never DO anything that will impact my own life as much as my life has been impacted by something I DIDN'T DO, something that happened to me, that was not of me or representative of who I am or what I care about.
It's a strange and probably uncommon situation to be in: to know that the actions of others, the actions of a killer, of poorly trained police and prosecutors, have shaped my life in ways that make my own actions seemingly irrelevant.
One of the unexpected gifts from my wrongful conviction is that I have become acutely aware of the cognitive biases that we are all susceptible to, and thus better able to avoid them in my own thinking.
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One reason I still receive so much vitriol is THE ANCHORING BIAS: the tendency to rely on the first piece of information, regardless of its validity. The first thing most people heard about me was that I was a suspected killer. That colors everything else they ever hear about me.
The BASE RATE FALLACY is the tendency to ignore general information and focus only on the specifics of one case. Those who believe conspiracy theories about my guilt rarely look at general info regarding wrongful convictions. If they did, they’d see how common my case is.
The reputational damage I still bear from my wrongful conviction is incalculable, but here's a taste. I make a joke about that time I was horrifically locked in a prison cell for 4 years for a murder I had nothing to do with, and I get these responses.
All these people think I'm either a killer or that I am not allowed to laugh at my own trauma. Why? Because of a decade+ of slanderous media coverage. Because of confirmation bias. Because of misogyny.
These are people lacking in compassion and imagination. They refuse to imagine what it would be like to be in my shoes: for my roommate to be murdered by Rudy Guede, a man whose name they likely don't even know,