TW: Suicide
Thanks to a great therapist, I’ve been working on processing some of the root causes of #dissociativeamnesia in my past, specifically childhood. This has pushed me to explore, in small doses, things that are tied to these periods and recently led to a deep dive on FB
Thanks to a great therapist, I’ve been working on processing some of the root causes of #dissociativeamnesia in my past, specifically childhood. This has pushed me to explore, in small doses, things that are tied to these periods and recently led to a deep dive on FB
Discovering this post, I expected my typical reaction to bringing up my past which is usually a very apathetic “meh” and quickly moving on. Instead, I actually had a bit of chuckle for a few reasons. I’m very happy at this response because it means I’m starting to process…
these moments in a healthier way. Aside from finding it humorous that I’m someone’s example of a good boy gone bad, I also found the subtle story told here very interesting. The third picture of me was chosen deliberately: photos I share of me on my birthdays are always of me…
happy and loving life. This one shows me with my face obscured and a bottle and a cigarette in hand. I love this picture, but to the devout, this picture would showcase a secretly miserable person giving in to Satan’s temptations. It offers the morally superior their…
“I told you so” moment. The truly amusing (now) part of this trio of pictures is that second one on the bottom left. Shortly before this photo, I had almost gone through with an attempt at suicide. My third. I was at the lowest point in my life. I was closeted and terrified…
of coming out, worried that being gay would truly be the worst life I could have. But this photo is used to showcase me as the happy son, the one more less in favor with god, off to Bible college. Before I went astray. Quite a contrast to the 3rd picture where I’m out, proud…
in love with life, surrounded by friends, and depression-free. There are a lot of stories like this out there already, but I share mine as a way of reminding everyone that #itgetsbetter and that if you are where I was, there is help and a community out here for you.
If you need help reach out to the people at the Suicide Prevention Hotline. September is #SuicidePreventionMonth, so raise awareness and get the help you need. And share your stories when you’re ready. suicidepreventionlifeline.org
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