i grew up around an actual narcissist. i know what it looks like. i know what they sound like. the person i was around sounded like a really good sales rep. i know how good they are at getting people to believe them when they are wrong. i know how people fall for them. y’all
i watched my dad… lie. about everything. convincing others was effortless. he continued to leave traces of harm but his words always got him covered. people took care of him routinely, even now. the blame was on everyone else. there’s this constant search for power
there’s no reasoning besides there’s. controlling. self centered. calculating. they will never admit they are wrong. they call everyone around them crazy. they leave wild stories about everyone to others and then everyone’s at war and they disappear
you don’t understand the extremes to which they will go just to “protect” their image/name/who they seem to be. there’s either rage when challenged or exceptional cool denial. everything is about them. they are the center, never the ones speaking. i see it
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As some of you may know, a situation regarding @TarotByBronx, @ijaadee & I transpired. There was a heated argument that happened on spaces between Jade & myself.
The three of us had a convo & I believe you all deserve to know. I pray this closes everything out. (long thread)
While Jade has other situations going on, that is for them to acknowledge and work through. In regards to me, I spoke up specifically in regards to my personal experiences being isolated from the community potentially at the cause of their words.
I wanted to know if this was true. There were various falsehoods being spread about me to others in the community with people naming these two as the source. I wanted to speak to them directly about these claims.
i didn’t know i was depressed until i wasn’t and this is what i mean:
i have moderate depression and severe anxiety… which i didn’t know until i went to a therapist & a psychiatrist. i have bipolar 2 which means i experience manic episodes & depressive ones. i have depressive ones for 3 months & manic for 3 and then repeat.
nothing i say takes away from severe depression or anything we know to be depression. i’m just speaking to how depression showed up in my life.
i’m seeing you’re about to step into money. you’re stepping into a new creation, new ideas and working diligently. you are about to receive a blessing monetarily. sometimes i hear value which can be self worth but this is just clearly money.
i also see fertility and birth of something new. this word “new” is standing out. it’s shiny and flashing. something new is going to jump out at you. it feels very unexpected. you’re beginning to connect more with others and it seems like people have this to offer you as much+
as you do them. it feels very community based. this sharing and generosity of resources on your part will be reciprocated and returned tenfold. embrace these blessings. the more you engage, the more you receive the support & resources you need. claim it.
you have a few more weeks until the major expansion and life change happens. i’m hearing the end of july and august. right now you’re coming to an end and wrapping things up. think of right now as endings, transformations and internal work. +
think of this as things wrapping up. you’re coming to an end of a cycle. towards the end of july and beginning of august, you’ll see a lot of moves and changes or at least plans aligning in order for you to. i see this being moved in location, in jobs, in finances, in relations
i see a completely new blue wave coming in, bring you peace but it can be overwhelming at first. it seems to be rushing in quick. i see the transition may feel very rocky and you may dip before you rise but the initial change will be very relieving. you’ll feel a sense of freedom
it’s the imperfections in the system that is bugging you. it’s the bugs, the ticks, the small nuances and small blockages that hold you back from seeing the possibilities of the world. it’s getting stuck on the details. see the bigger picture.
everything will unfold and transform once you let go of the tiny shortcomings, let go of anxieties or worries, then you’ll see the transformation. something is bugging you and it’s harnessing your joy. release the fear. release the doubts. +
it’s okay to feel worried at first but it’s important not to multiply those fears, those worries and let it overrun you. just look at the inconveniences and let them go. recognize them as a factor of life. things just are as they are and you’re moving regardless.
it’s like one foot in happiness. one foot in triggers. one foot in one door. another in the back door. everyday is different for you. try to focus on calm. focus on the big picture. focus on where you’ve come from, everything you’ve accomplished.
give yourself slack and be your biggest hype man. you are THAT one. process the shit that really fucked you up as a kid. your inner child is on full display right now and they want to talk to you. imagine your inner child. talk to them. comfort them. rn you need comfort
that comfort doesn’t have to be external tho. it is good to lean on others which i definitely recommend. reach out. also remember these triggers, anxieties and fears that arise are there to tell you something; to show you something that was hidden in your subconscious