That line about “I thought you (I) were a man” —> “most men do” is a major clue that this is neo meeting his own lack of cisness, but also a broader statement about the reductive assumptions “most men” make about their own identities.
I watched part of a video linked somewhere in that thread last night that talked about how important and key to the trans experience it is to realize anyone you talk to could become an agent if you threaten their worldview by existing outside of it.
That’s what the agents are.
They are programs that enforce The Matrix, which run in a superstrate of collective processing across all of the computational nodes (read: people) in society.
Anyone has the capacity to become a cop at any time until they’re fully liberated, removed from that superstrate.
And if and when you meet an agent?
You run.
Because nobody is sufficiently themselves to stand there and confront the full force of society’s regulatory program on their own.
Why has it never been done?
Because someone has to model success first.
So yeah, this is actually i think maybe the single most Faithpunk story there is.
(Faith = the human capacity to act as if X were true, Punk = the opposite of cop. The Matrix is about faithpunks fighting faithcops over the right to self-identification.)
Neo is “the one” because he contains all the rounding errors of the matrix, we’re told. He’s every part of humanity that couldn’t be made to conform born into a single person, whose role it is to end one cycle of the matrix and begin a new one.
That’s the big plot, right?
But this means that he’s “the one” in the narrative sense that the others need to see. He can show them what it means to be so authentically human that no program can contain you. That’s his whole arc.
And the machines exploit that, because we are narrative animals.
The big difference between Neo and previous iterations of The One, we are told, is that Neo’s love for humanity is concentrated in one person. Trinity.
But if Trinity is on some level Neo’s authentic self the whole thing clicks: Neo chooses self-love over a false dichotomy.
That’s it, that’s the trick.
Neo’s power is rooted in his ability to love and be loved by himherself, as personified metaphorically in Trinity.
That’s how Neo comes back to life in the first movie, it’s how he surprises the architect in the second.
(Even Morpheus cannot do what Neo can do, not at first. His faith isn’t strong enough - he is on some level a materialist whose faith is grounded in what he has seen.
He needs to see Neo beat an agent before he can do it himself.)
Note that this is why everyone hated N+T’s “chemistry” when the movie came out. I remember being so confused by that overwhelming popular reaction, to me it was interesting.
But Neo + Trinity are not a cis straight couple. It’s not that kind of love, it’s not shot that way.
It’s urgent and gentle and patient and kind and desperate and utterly rooted in taking care of each other in every level possible as peers, with a nuanced awareness of each other’s specific needs and vulnerabilities and limits.
Even their sex isn’t shot with a male gaze.
That’s why it weirded you out, because you are conditioned to see a different set of ineffable dynamics manifest on the screen and when they’re not there it feels like “they’re doing it wrong” and huh is that what dysphoria feels like? Did they shoot dysphoria-inducing sex here?
Gosh these movies sustain so much reflection and contemplation.
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recommitting to getting better at validating what people are saying even if I don't agree with it.
Validation is not agreement. Someone can say something you disagree with profoundly, the conversation will still go better if you validate them.
To validate is to bear witness and affirm that someone is feeling what they're telling you they're feeling.
They may be factually incorrect, their feeling may be a response to a misunderstanding etc -- but you can still validate the feeling. It makes everything else easier.
If someone says "I feel X" and your response is to launch into why they shouldn't feel X -- which is a thing I'm pretty guilty of, though I've worked hard at doing it less -- then you're invalidating them in addition to disagreeing with them.
This is the agents in the matrix metaphor -- any normal sensible person you meet, until and unless they've been liberated from the reductive dominant culture, is a potentially violent defender of said culture when exposed to challenging ideas.
That "agents" thing resonates hard from an ND perspective, too. I'm sure other oppressed demographics have their own variations, I can imagine racism is similar, sexism, etc.
You can't know someone's commitment to violent defense of dominant taxonomy until it's been tested.
But queerness and e.g. autism are more similar than either is to race, for instance, because these are purely internal truths.
Queerness is about having a different subjective experience than people expect.
This. Your ND employees generally cannot be “on” 40 hours a week 8 hours a day. We struggle with that, and often need to break up work into other shapes.
As long as we are being productive, make this explicitly ok for us.
Upon reflecting I think I want to clarify this a little bit, because it's a general claim that breaks down under scrutiny.
Some of your ND employees absolutely can be "on" for the full 40 hours. The younger ones, specifically.
Those not yet disabled by a lifetime of being "on".
Autistic burnout is real, and debilitating, and disabling in its own right. And when e.g. autistic people force themselves to play by NT rules for too long without a break they will experience this, and then no longer be able to go on as they had.
My company has hired a DEI consultant and I've been very upfront about the need for better support for ND people. I was grateful that she acknowledged immediately that Neurodiversity was outside of her experience, and was willing to listen to what I had to say.
I posted about this yesterday, but want to reup here that as a part of our internal neurodiversity ERG and the efforts we're making there I asked the company if they'd be willing to pay for ADHD coaching for ADHD employees. Head of HR and the CEO both said they'd look into it.
"Can we get a coaching budget?" is a reasonable accommodation to ask for if you're autistic or ADHD and feel like coaching would help you to do your job better. @joshsusser asked the other day if any company is doing this and it blew my mind that I didn't know.
Yes, this is a great question because it can be challenging to disentangle them! They are both "parts" of you, and a part of healing is recognizing how to listen to and appropriately evaluate what your various parts are telling you.
...is that the inner critic is trying to keep you safe by lowering your expectations of yourself and diminishing the value of what you have to offer to the world.
This way nobody else can hurt you more, right? If they don't like your art who cares, you already "know" it's crap.
The inner critic also frequently speaks in someone else's voice. For years mine sounded like my father, and it actively harmed my relationship with him in ways that haven't fully recovered.