xie'er and ye baiyi have been dating for four months
hold on I got it
xie'er on a date with ye baiyi: I want to get married
ye baiyi: to WHO?
xie'er, boyfriend of four months:
ye baiyi: who is it? just tell me, I can take it.
xie'er holding a ring box:
forgot to set the scene....
xie'er: I love him. I've got to lock him down.
ye baiyi: I love him, but he obviously wants to marry someone else.
has ye baiyi been involved in gay chicken that sadly did not result in true love? yes!
is he very confused when his midnight movie/cuddling session resulted in getting naked? yes.
will he complain? no.
after waking up in bed together, ye baiyi is like 'okay, this is where we establish this is just a friendly thing. hahaha. lol. lmao. 😭' but he's not gonna do it. he's gonna let xie'er do it. he's totally okay with the hurting liminal space of maybe/maybe/not really.
if ye baiyi tried to be 'just friends right?' xie'er would probs go feral and be like 'friends? you're my boyfriend now'
omg, no, they go get breakfast and ye baiyi tries to let xie'er know that he'll be cool, that he gets this is just because xie'er is on the rebound from zhao jing.
xie'er pauses with his pancake halfway to his mouth. he has not thought about zhao jing all morning.
also, he's good at reading people, so he caught the 'ill be cool' aka 'I'd be okay if we aren't cool'
xie'er has never been cool in his life.
I could see him outside zhao jing's window with a boom box.
anyway, ye baiyi tries to give him an out and xie'er is like 'you're my boyfriend now.'
nnyway, ye baiyi tries to give him an out and xie'er is like 'you're my boyfriend now. no take backs'
ye baiyi told him last night that he loved the way xie'er laughed and xie'er will never let him go. (he would...m But he wouldn't like it!!!!!! and he's cry to his therapist)
xie'er's therapist is there to listen to xie'er and remind him that subsuming his sense of self never works out for him. xie'er knows! he knows but ugh.
that's a lie because I just want xie'er to get spanked.
warning for spanking?
yifu spanked xie'er one time, and it's printed in xie'er's mind. he remembers the shame of failure, how distant he felt from yifu.
did he make him lean against the arm of the chair and cane him? did he have someone else do it? xie'er trying not to cry or move or make a sound. wallowing in yifu's disappointment. he leaves in shame.
ye baiyi suggests it as a sex game and xie'er is like uhhhh sure
he thinks the goal is for ye baiyi to make him cry. he brings ye baiyi a cane and he's like 'what am I gonna do with this? you want me to break your ass'
xie'er is like, that's right, ye baiyi is very strong. he doesn't need anything to hurt him.
mine would be the zhao jing tells xie'er he's a little animal that needs to be kept in line.
Or when he gets angry, he gets mean in bed. so xie'er expects the same from ye baiyi. if they have an argument and later he's blowing ye baiyi, he expects to be face fucked. if ye baiyi is fucking him, he expects to be spanked or fucked meanly, half prepped and shoved in.
the fix it is ye baiyi being gentle when xie'er doesn't expect it.