Has anyone here ever actually fainted? I think that's what I did. I always thought fainting involved going unconscious. This was much more of an out-of-body experience.
I was trying to make it to my bedroom, when the nausea got real bad. I braced myself, and closed my eyes.
Suddenly I was aware that my body wasn't in an upright position anymore, and I had a really dissociated reaction to it. Sort of like "oh, we're doing THIS now." Then I stopped moving, and there was something cool on my face.
"This is better," I thought. And it was for a while, until I began to realize there were parts of my body that were uncomfortable. I opened my eyes and it took a moment to recognize that I was staring at the floor.
I thought about just laying there but there were hurting parts of my body. I remembered how to move, and started picking myself up, carefully, in case the hurting parts would get more hurty. But they were fine. Relatively. The action drenched me in sweat.
I've never had anything like this happen to me before. I've been in a few fights where I got my clock cleaned, but even those were nothing like this.
Is this what fainting feel like?
0/10 would not recommend.
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I’m having a hard time processing this. I have been, on numerous occasions, very close to fainting *and just ignored it.*
I have such poor communication skills with my body and I am certain it comes from having a father who considered acknowledging pain to be a feminine trait.
This was a man who had a finger chopped off and was back at work 2 hours later.
Who used to climb into machines carrying molten glass around to make adjustments on the fly.
Who ignored chest pain because he wanted to play a pickup game of volleyball at 52 and died.
I keep on trying to put that sad man’s toxic view of masculinity as far away from me as possible but goddamned if it hasn’t popped up yet again.
How many disasters have I missed out of pure bullshit luck because I couldn’t connect losing vision with losing consciousness?
I've seen a lot of people talking about Betty White & Arthur Duncan, but what I don't see is the awareness that the reason Betty was able to continue to feature the Black tap-dancer on her show is because she was also the producer of the show. That didn't happen.
Literally.
I believe Betty White was the first woman to produce a television show. That was some serious effort on her part to get enough control that she, an unmarried, 30-something woman, could create a successful TV show.
And it WAS successful. Very much so. Until Arthur Duncan.
When she defied people and kept putting a Black tap dancer on her show, the network cancelled her.
Do you think that Betty didn't know that this was a probability when she made that decision?
This thread will be talking about body issues, weight and exercise and their impact on my life. I know that many people are triggered by these things, so it's my hope that those who have issues reading about them can pass this thread by.
10 years ago today, I weighed 176 pounds. On August 20, 2011, I weighed 173.5 pounds at 4am. I wanted to carry the least amount of weight possible up Mt. Washington, NH. I'm sure I weighed a pound or two lighter when I got to the top, but there wasn't a scale for me to stand on.
Not that I could stand. I had just ridden 7.6 miles, all uphill, most of it crazy steep. It took me 2 hours and 20 minutes, which was about 20 minutes longer than I had hoped for.
I actually have a ghost story about my ride. Maybe I'll share it sometime. But not today.
I have two responses to this. I have no idea how long it will take me to express them.
The first is to the folks who do this, parent-to-parent:
How dare you? How dare you put your own views, fears & beliefs above the welfare of your child? You're not protecting or helping them.
You are torturing them, because their reality makes you uncomfortable.
Too bad.
The absolute worst thing you can do as a parent is to make parenting about yourself. Nothing involved with raising a child should be about you.
If you have a gender diverse child it's your responsibility to educate yourself about gender diversity. Which means listening to EVERYBODY about this issue, not just to the few who will validate and amplify your fears.
It also means listening to--and believing--your child.
1. People are dropping Robert Moses on this tweet like he's the only racist road builder out there. I'd say Mayor Pete underselling when he says "SOME of our highways." Moses may have been the LeBron of racist infastructure, but he was not the only player.
Here's a little 🧵.
2. First, be aware that the Eisenhower Interstate System had ulterior motives built into it. Yeah, it was great for moving commercial goods from Tucson to Tucumcari. Of course it made it easier for us to See the USA in our Chevrolets, but it also it was great for moving rockets.
The minimum bridge height for clearing Interstates is 16' (4.9 m), not only for the road, but for both shoulders, and a little more. Because a missile on a trailer's height is about 14'. The interstate gave the military a very easy way to move munitions where they wanted.