Thread by @skyfallgar1

#krdk, aromantic?kr, no hurt/no comfort, maybe angst? idk im just venting
title: the way i don't love you

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dating izuku is nice, eijiro thinks. it was easy. they didn't argue, never had any fight. ut seems that he makes izuku happy, or that what his boyfriend says anyway.

he wonders if it's true. maybe izuku is already happy by himself. maybe he just happens to tag along, taking credits he doesn't deserve.

izuku takes him to the amusement park, it's nice. he likes it, the crepe sharing and the hand-holding.

but sometimes he wonders, he wonders if there could be someone out there that could make him feel something different. he wonders if he would be able to let them into his heart. he wonders if this person could be izuku.

sometimes, he wonders if he'll be able to /love/.

he doesn't wonder for long, though. he doesn't really need an answer. he doesn't want one; it scares him.

he knows there isn't any. he hopes there isn't.

it's not like he doesn't like izuku, though. he really does. he likes the late night talks, and the early morning

walks. he likes the cuddles too. it feels nice.

it's easy to love izuku, he thinks. he wonders why he feels like he doesn't.

he doesn't talk about it. izuku doesn't know, doesn't need to. eijiro only has questions that he knows izuku doesn't have answers for. so he keeps all

these thoughts for himself.

he doesn't understand how it could hurt him - it's not even about him. it's not his fault, but he knows it would, telling him that he's not sure that he loves him, that maybe he never really has.

maybe he would cry, and maybe he would understand.

maybe he would leave him.

he wonders if izuku really loves him sometimes. he doesn't know, he wouldn't know; he doesn't know what it's like, to love someone. or maybe he does, he just isn't able to recognize it.

he wonders if he just doesn't recognize it.

maybe he is broken.

it's not like it feels wrong, it doesn't. it actually feels pretty nice; it just doesn't feel completely right - not as right as he expected it to be at least.

sometimes he looks at izuku and katsuki and he wonders. he wonders if it would have been different if they had that

kind of history.

he keeps wondering, and he's a bit jealous too. they don't love each other, not like he is supposed to love izuku, but they still hold strong feelings between them.

and eijiro doesn't feel strong, he feels weak; his love wouldn't even be able to break, only to

fade.

but he doesn't want to lose izuku, he thinks. he doesn't want to break up, doesn't need to, but sometimes he wonders if he shouldn't. maybe he is missing something.

he knows he'll cry, but he knows he'll get over it. it's what happens every time. but he doesn't have any

reason to end things between them.

so he stays. he doesn't mind. he knows it's only temporary.

it is nothing like the stories he's read, or the tales he's heard. he never feels the butterflies.

it's easy to date izuku, he thinks.

or maybe he is the one who is easy to date.

"i love you," izuku says.

"i love you too," eijiro replies.

and he is sincere, and maybe izuku is too. yet he wonders why he feels so much like they are both telling a lie.

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