It's been 2 years since you passed away and the void in my heart is still empty and aching. Just wrote out few lines on you to reminisce those memories with you and help me grieve better..
An ode to My Father
You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye .
You were gone before
Only god knew why
Those long walks with you as a kid
Taking shelter in your arms when tired
Those long discussion and funny stories you used to tell
I should do best & be happy, that was what you desired
Your love for old songs, Evening walks,
Those Kong hairs of yours
Never bought something for yourself, Never went somewhere
can't know how much you've endured
Those special memories of you'll always bring a smile
If only I could have you back for a just little while
People perhaps say Father's don't show their love to son
They realise later, perhaps too late, his love couldn't compared to none
Everyone said to me after the funeral,
Be a man of this house and fill his shoes
They didn't know without him with me
I'm in so much misery, like concentration camp jews
Time doesn't heal a wound , We get used to it
I can't bear this Huge responsibility, sometimes I just wanna quit
Often People say Money can't buy happiness
but if it could buy memories, I'll probably buy every memory between us
It makes me mad that you're not here see the man I've become
praises fromevery one on how I've grew up without you feels numb
Part of Me, aai and didi left with you
people just assume, they don't know what we've been through
our family chain is broken, and nothing seems to be the same
but as god calls us one by one, the chain will link again