Folks, there's some stuff going on with #BlackTechTwitter that's not my place to speak on- but some friends gave me a heads up so I'm on standby in case what I bring can be helpful.
I will say something on the overall issue of bootcamps and mentorship.
Years and years ago a Black-American woman DMed me about what frameworks and languages I recommended. I gave her good advice- for my ecosystem "Oh, start with what your friends are doing, they'll have access to work in those areas". Because in Shenzhen- we're all in tech🤦🏻♀️
"Waddya mean you don't know any programmers?" 😅Remember when I was getting started I could pop on WeChat and talk to engineers at Tencent, Huawei- you name it. I'm a Shenzhen girl I either knew someone or could get to someone. The idea of not having a *single* "in" blew my mind.
I'm a self-taught engineer by virtue of not having gone to school- I've spent thousands of hours in production meetings, working on hardware and I live in the middle of the largest manufacturing ecosystem on the planet with a thousand engineers on chat- that kind of self taught😅
While it's not that extreme for most of you- a lot of the "self-taught" myth is a result of ecosystem. Someone said ok to that Sinclair/Commodore 64/Raspberry Pi, you were in an ecosystem where you or someone knew to start with Forrest Mims. Sure you did the work- but had access.
(Don't "not all" me, this isn't about you)
If you don't have that kind of access, if you don't know *anyone*, you are easy to exploit. Not dumb, not foolish- you just lack the information you need to protect yourself. Some Black folks looking to get into tech are being exploited.
The urge is to help- and we should, but often the information we have, the path we followed- may just not apply. They're going to be up against different issues. Don't be judgemental, don't assume they can "just teach themselves" the way our self-created mythos imagines we did.
Help when you can- always step up. In my experience, advice means very little compared to access- "talk to this person, tell them I sent you". My advice may be useless outside my ecosystem- but my vouching for someone can open doors, it may be the same for you.
But most of all remember no one ever "taught themselves" anything without some sort of access to material and people to learn from. Not everyone has that, do what you can to make sure they get it without assumptions, judgement, or promises about how easy it will be for others.
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Every bit of "drama" I have been involved with has boiled down to one thing- I don't speak, act, or show the level of competence some people expect when they look at me. They expect a cute deferential bubbly Asian mascot. I expect to be treated as a peer. This causes discord.
They are to some extent correct- anyone who knows me knows I struggle with Chinese femme ideals, most people know why, and by overcompensating with my appearance, I create a wide gulf between appearance and conduct. That doesn't mean anyone is owed my gender conformity.
I am not obligated to act like anyone else's vision of Chinese femininity, I am not obligated to be demure, or self-effacing. I am not obligated to assume the role of "feisty Asian sidekick" to their Main Character and set my objectives aside for theirs.
(And this time, I'd suggest you decide who you want to follow because if you're ok with this at this point, after I've spelled out the problem this sort of unsubstantiated character assassination creates for me- that's a mass block that's never getting rolled back)
And of course, in Every, Single, Post where I try to answer questions about Zero-COVID. The relentless accusations of being propaganda. I'm suspect because you would never put similar effort into helping anyone in China with a problem that you didn't personally have.
It's not just the dozen or two random assholes that pop up in every thread with these accusations, it's not that this living trope costs me any chance of sponsorship by Western companies, it's not just that it's used as an excuse to erase me and my work- it's that you all watch!
Imagine you were an American lesbian with a Muslim partner, posting in Chinese on Weibo during the initial Wuhan outbreak. Every time you tried to send masks or translate information a bunch of asshats would scream "But Americans are Islamaphobic and bomb Muslims!" Checkmate🙄
Folks with Main Character Syndrome have trouble with the difference between support and consume.
If the donut shop gives away old donuts after 11pm every day, and you've been taking free donuts for years, never buying anything, never advertising them- you're not a supporter.
No one can go blocking 50k *supporters*, I can because they aren't.
When @NPR@Radiolab@Verge erases my work, when @Wired or @techcrunch won't cover female hardware startups, when Western journalists Out me and get me detained- who had my back? Right. "Allies".
The openly homophobic editor behind Outing me? They still follow and RT him because he totally has an explanation how it's not at all like that- which he'll lie about on back-channel and they'll all accept without allowing me to show receipts because praxis is inconvenient.
Oh my god with the drama. Yes we get it, you've never been forced off a platform integral to networking in your profession and earning a living before. It's the end of the world🙄
It happens regularly to marginalized folk and we all told you you'd be next. You didn't give a shit
Congratulations, you're being deplatformed. Fortunately, you assured us that only bad people will ever get deplatformed due to centralized unaccountable corporate power structures, and if there is any collateral damage it's for the greater good. Well, here you go.
Welcome to team "it's no big deal, no one owes you an audience, you can go elsewhere". Wait until you see how few people make the jump with you and the impact that's going to have. Just be happy it wasn't personal- because of who you fuck or how you look or how you earn a living.
Folks, COVID isn't my job, and given where I am it hasn't even been a major concern for me personally. It's been almost three years of one-way empathy for people who are in most ways, far more fortunate than I. I just ran out of whatever was keeping me going. Nothing personal.
You're tired of not being about to go places I was turned down for visas to visit. You're worried about spouses and children I can't have by law. Some of you have emigrated to safer places with ease based on citizenship I don't have and credentials that are unobtainable for me.
Zero-COVID is good but the fact that so many of you don't understand the difference between having it with a foreign passport, subject to few of its abuses, few of our more restrictive laws, and can move on when you wish- and what it's like as a Chinese national, is exhausting.