crack gets a bad rap, probably one of the most sigmatized, maligned, and misunderstood, yet miraculous medicines in the world
99.9% of people in the world have probably never even tried it
as my first tweet back, well do a thread that will run perpetual with random additions...
to open, i will tell you now that crack has saved my life many times
i have tbi ptsd lots of traumas including childhood sexual abuse physical abuse etc
so as typical, depression is a serious issue for me
deep depressions, dark shit, suicidal with attempts in the past
it has been studied for treatment of major depressive disorder, but since pharma couldnt find a way to capitalize on it they stopped looking, though they will admit it is the most powerful triple reuptake inhibitor known to man
ketamine is used instead, weaker but similar
now, crack by itself can do this miracle for you, but it is very short acting
its only one component of the process though
the other being ethanol
with both present in the blood stream, your liver transmutes the two into cocaethylene and water
the cocaethylene is the miracle
cocaethylene is incredible because it drastically extends the duration of the crack on your neurotransmitters
you know the stereotypes of crack, and if youve used it, you know youre hitting that shit every 8-12 minutes to keep the reaction going
this is different...
you can use powder form of cocaine and get similar results, true
i emphasize crack (home made) because of the many adulterants that are in powder cocaine
cooking it into crack with your own hands is the only way to be sure youre dealing with pure cocaine
im going to continue, lots to cover, but if you see the qt and the replies, you see what i meant in the first of the thread
this is all personal anecdote, and the only endorsement i would make of crack is for doctors/researchers to reevaluate and reopen the studies to trials
many people have mentioned how powerful and addictive it can be, this is true
in certain scenarios of course
im an addict, my first love is opiates (original yellow football norco 10s)
yet i can manage to use crack in small amounts for short durations
how is this possible?
crack, and cocaine in general, isnt technically physically addictive, unlike opiates meth nicotine alcohol sugar etc etc etc
alcohol especially, which i used to struggle with, can literally kill you if you stop (almost did kill me, had to get professional help and meds)
if you go on a month plus crack binge and suddenly stop, do you know what happens?
youll be sad and tired, low energy for a few days
you may seek more for an energy boost
but you arent going to go through serious potentially year long physical symptoms, unlike SSRI or suboxone
i mention suboxone because thats the medical establisments answer for opiate abuse
i use crack to get through that first hard week or two of opiate withdrawal (which anyone who has cold turkeyed opiates knows very well)
barely notice the stmptoms, get plenty of sleep easy
already seeing people calling this bait or a joke/parody or im just breaking balls im a fed etc 😅
ive been here off and on for many years, used to have big micro niche famous accounts
many here know me for real, not just as the "green jacket"
ask them if you care that much 😺
so anyways, ive scoured to find the actual numbers of deaths caused by SOLELY cocaine overdose
2019 data shows 14k cocaine od deaths, but a yuge percentage of those were fentanyl or other opiod combinations (either intentional or from adulterated products)
tobacco? 480,000 dead
anyways, my method was simple
find highest % powder
twist it up
divide it into .1-.2 gram “doses” and place in one of those medicine dispensers
3 hits a day, never collected resin, had strong family support
7-10 days was duration
never took more, usually had leftovers
my wife is a former medic/nurse
she monitored my vitals which i recorded diligently, along with short excerpts on how i felt, and other people in my lifes perception of my mood/behavior if they cared to comment
what is the biggest drug scourge in our country right now?
fentanyl of course
yet you can walk into any er or triage trauma center and there it is, all bottled up nice and clean from our benevolent pharma bros
eye surgeons still use cocaine eye drop solutions for procedures, dentists have moved to novacaine and marcaine, synthetics akin to what fentanyl is to opium
i cant fully explain how thankful i am to still be here for my wife and kids, and to no longer be an opiate fiend alcoholic monster
i wasnt just slowly killing myself or plotting attempts actively daily, i was hurting everyone else around me who relies on me and never gave up
i know it sounds crazy, but here i am
i drink only in moderation, a hard selts or two 2 nights a week with my lady after the kids are down
no opiates for a long time too
just aspirin coffee cigs
no desire to return to my former state
still depressed but not suicidal
a lot of long term associations on here, friends and enemies, have seen pictures ive posted of my gorgeous clan in the past
i am truly blessed
i did it for them because theyre all that matters 🙏🏻
i may slip again, its likely
i may get low and want to quit
but i know ive made it before and i can do it again 👏🏻
seen a lot of references to recreational usage in replies and qts
thats not what this is, but im not ignorant to that side of this, the one that causes stigma
ill add that experience on here next, my dalliance with the recreational use and woman who introduced me to it
i think its integral to my enhanced knowledge of the neurotransmitter function, as was my ap chemistry teacher and after school chem club sophomore year in high school
so i was 17, expelled from hs, all my scholarships gone (academic and sport) and senator kennedy rescinded his offer to write me for west point
got busted doing powder beginning of senior year with hockey teammates, drunk on 151
wasnt too salty, i was terrified of the schools i was choosing from, it was a relief honestly 😅
working was better, did grave digging by hand in old cemeteries daytime and factory fabrication 3rd shift, hydrogen fuel cells for cars
made a friend, met his niece etc etc
a rugged indian girl from the reservation
gorgeous, i wanted to marry her immediately, hit it off immediate
she took me to meet her ma, ma was pumped because im part native too
algonquin project housing…
walk in to ma and 3 dudes smoking the hard
my girl acts like no big deal so we settle in and i try a blast
wasnt impressed honestly, didnt get the appeal, especially the conditions these scrubs were in
kept hanging with her for a month or two, i always did powder, but she smoked and even taught me a very crude method of production, the “penny pickup” 😅
anyways, that all ended when i left to backpack across europe for a few months before joining the infantry
never thought of it until a while later during mid tour leave of my first deployment in the surge
next part is my reacquaintance, the how and why, with that thunderbird
my first patrol first tour, back seat goon in 1114, got my brain oatmealed up, hit by ied, tbi
but otherwise okay
not my boy though. his second tour, he was driving, ied punched engine on his side
legs shattered, burned up bad, almost died
addendum*
he was hit a week later, not in my first hit, and i wasnt riding with him when he was mangled, i was in rear truck, him lead on that
we were garrison rax roommates, my assigned mentor of sorts going into deployment
us bunking together will be relevant later though…
so he gets the spiecher cash-germany-reed-hood path on his journey to recovery
we stay in touch, he has no family so the guys checking on him is all he had really
we trudge on and my leave time comes up, i ignore my family and go see him at hood with another dude from platoon
hes healing up, had just started walking short distances with crutches/cane a week before we showed up
scarred up, grotesque
ecstatic we came, it was a surprise
wanted to go out on the town, he was cooped up for months going crazy
we hit austin, 5 star hotel, the works
he got a temporary release from the hospital, we rolled out
talking a lot on the drive
he was depressed, felt he betrayed us by leaving 😅
he had been in some big fights his 1st tour, we were talking about the emotional peaks and valleys of hard combat
told him i was feeling pretty low, had been 2 weeks since my last engage, just bitter and rude and short with people, unpleasant all around, not sleeping etc
he explained thats just how it is, your brain chemistry, youll never get that high you get from it from anything else
we get to the hotel, have some swigs at the bar, the escorts i ordered showed up (i said the works 🥴)
they treat my guy good, rub lotion on his scars, massage, drain his balls etc etc
they offer to get us drugs
my guy tells me he has a partial solution to my melancholy…
refused to give them cash, walk with one of the broads, seedy back strip bar spot a few blocks away
if you know austin, theres some greasy spots tucked in
shes a pro, meet her dude, get a quarter coke
and a quarter crack*
*brother hamburger legs requested it for “the men” 😅
get back to suite and get on it
other dude never did crack before and was scared, we didnt break his balls too bad though
he did powder with the harpies
bro made a red bull can pipe and told me that if you take a big enough blast, itll feel like the opening stage of a gunfight
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dont want anyone to feel left out, so this morning were making shakshouka
a simple mediterranean breakfast food, you too can cope eat like 29 yo wall splatter with very little effort 😺
set a deep large saute pan to medium low and warm up some olive oil
thats a sauteuse (but you speak 3 languages so you knew that)
you have 3 degrees and a high paying career with no kids to pay for so you can afford pdo organic olive first press, i know duh
as the oil heats, use your one of a kind masamoto wa gyuto forged by the shokunin himself to fine dice 2 organic yellow onions and 2 organic red bells, locally grown naturally
theyre 3x the price, but you have nothing but time and money, so the cuts should be precise and perfect