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Live tweets of the second (and final) episode of #InsideOurAutisticMinds #BBCdocumentary

Change *is* disastrous. And it definitely feels like a loss of control.

Definitely a hidden crisis but it shouldn't be hidden! People should be watching out for people who may need help. It shouldn't be for us to constantly have to reach out for support which is inappropriate or simply doesn't exist.

I'm not sure how I feel about the word 'obsessive' unless that is the word Anton uses himself.

I love that he is a trance DJ.

Omg Chris likes punk music!!!!!????

Trance is nice music, I totally get it. It is happy music.

Using music to block things out - I definitely do this!

"I can't leave a box unticked" Anton

He needs to know the times of everything and the timing cannot go out of place. If it does he will have to stay home from work.

"If anything changes in my visual environment... it's visually quite upsetting" Chris

"You don't know how much it means to me to hear that this goes on in peoples lives as well" Anton

Anton said there was a time when he was embarrassed to be Autistic.

The only time Ethan leaves home is to go to college. He makes music at home.

Interesting that both people in this episode love music and also use it to cope and express themselves.

Eye contact is very uncomfortable! And it can be bloody painful too.

Ethan hyperfocuses on his college work - on game development.

Ethan reminds me so much of a young man I have worked with. He speaks the same and it brings up nice memories.

From Ethan's rap:

"Being autistic and dealing with that has never been sweet like candy."

Its so interesting that Ethan writes a song as part of his routine every day. I did that with song, story or poetry writing when I was younger.

I was *always* righting.

"In his world he's not lonely but when I look at his world I think he's lonely"

- Ethan's Mum

Anton's Mum can remember people staring and being nasty when he had a meltdown in the supermarket. She remembers that so vividly 20 odd years later.

She's now sad that she didn't understand what was happening with him.

The football friend said he was surprised because his brother is also Autistic but is 'quite wild.'

Autistic adults are always being compared to children and to each other.

Why are we never understood as the individuals we are?

"Its okay not to have the brightest presence in the room" - Ethan

"This chaos cannot be controlled"

Ethan finds the college too chaotic because of all the noise.

Come on Luke Beardon!!

Interesting that Chris finds the smell of fruit so bad. Like the smell of citrus is just too much for him, especially as it mingles with the other smells.

My husband is really pleased to see someone else with vitiligo on the TV (Luke).

The sounds of the woodlands brings Chris comfort, he is seeking out the sounds of the trees in the wind or rain. He wants all of the sounds brought forth.

"The noise is immaterial it is the unexpected nature of it"

"Some autistic peoples experiences are the best experiences for them"

- Luke Beardon

If I missed my bus - or it didn't turn up. I may just not go to work

- Anton

"I'm constantly re-doing everything- just to make it righter " - Chris

Omg this resonates with me so much as an Autistic OCDer!

Its not helpful to stop repetitive behaviours!!!!

Yes, also as an Autistic OCDer.

It's interesting this time round that the films are happening in real life, around Anton and Ethans experiences. Not just a stand in front of the camera and talk like the first episode.

I'm excited to see how the surround cinema experience will make of Ethan's experience of sensory overwhelm.

Aw Chris is so cute when he's excited!

Ethans song was amazing, as well as the visuals for it.

He's really grateful his classmates came and I hope it changes things for him at college.

"What you're doing through music is amazing - keep it up" - Ethans classmate

Even Ethans family are surprised by how much he is affected by sound.

His mum feels bad for taking him places when he says he can't/ doesn't want to.

Ethan feels more confident about himself and it is gorgeous!

Why hasn't Chris told Anton where his film will be shown? That would stress me out so much!

Anton s friend - he seems happier at football since he's started this process.

Antons film seems to make sense to his footie mates and they're going to check in with him more.

The film is better than him trying to explain as he struggles to get his words out sometimes.

"I feel immensely proud that I've had the courage to [share my autistic experience]"

- Anton

"The more we understand each other the better all our lives with become" - Chris

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