my aunt paid me as much as I make in a week at my dayjob for driving 200 miles today so I am promptly going to blow a good amount of it on MUSIC TO WATCH!!!!!!
it’s absolutely nuts that I can look at the waveform and see the waveforms that are compositing into it
the more I watch the waveforms the more I understand what I’m seeing
having a linguistics major and, at one point, a music minor, is a fucking wild time, the only thing I’m missing is physics, but then again my dad has been teaching me physics since I was young
I love electronic music because literally nothing existed until you turned your brain electricity into sound electricity and now I can use my brain electricity to parse your brainwave visually
so fucking wild. brainwaves turned into soundwaves turned into lightwaves turned into brainwaves. no wonder it’s so important for the vibe to be right
[strobe warning] just WILD to me that I see the bass and treble and percussion in this
oh my god. the fundamental frequency
oh I think I get it now… instead of moving the cursor along a static waveform like audacity, it’s a static window that the waveform moves through
there must be some optimal framerate to zoom ratio that makes the visual and music be perceived together
otherwise the light would reach your brain before the sound and it’s an annoying lips off sync feeling
I NEED A LINGUIST SOUND ENGINEER TO EXPLAIN THIS TO ME!!!!!!!
it’s really easy to see the bass in this one… it’s those longer pulses, the narrower peaks of the vocals get stacked on top of the lower frequency pulse of the bass and the tail ripples out as the waveform loses energy
*grins* no wonder I love this song so much… the more pure tones breaking into fucking obnoxious chinese instruments that are so noisy they scatter the whole thing into falling particles of golden light? yeah, this is what it looks like when anima falls into the Gleaming
songs in this thread by anti-general and howie lee
THE VOICING IN SPEECH *DROP PHONE IN STARTLED RECOGNITION* OMFG THE VOWELS. I CAN SEE THEM
can’t fucking believe all that time in praat measuring voice-onset time after a stop lets me read vowels in here
me: why do people think I have wizard and bard energy
me: *this thread*
me: …ah.
FIXED THE ASPECT RATIO, NOW IT FILLS MY WHOLE SCREEN. fuck YES!!!!!!!!!
I am assuming that what I am watching is the same thing as a guitar string vibrating after being strummed, but for the entire stack of layers of instrumentation and vocals
a bass is probably more obvious. explains why I’m always into the bassist the most
oh but… an oscillating strum… overlapping waves… I mean, we’re all double helices… that’s a vibe
OH
MY GOD
THE ORTHOGONAL PLANE
ORTHOGONAL MEANS 90°
THE WAVEFORM IS ONE
PLANE
THE SPECTROGRAM IS THE SPECTRAL SLICE ALONG THE OTHER PLANE
THE FUCKING
SPECTRAL
SPECTER
PSYCHOPOMP
IS EVERYTHING JUST ONE
LONG EXPLORATION OF THE METAPHYSICS OF VIBES IN MY SECONDARY WORLD??
okay but I’ve been trying to figure out the missing link between music and language in #RazingBabel and how the scifantasy magic of language compression works, and this is putting everything together for me
with #InTheWatchfulCity my Thing was long sensory deprivation baths like what anima does to enter the Gleaming
but I have been puzzled by what the Grotto is for ahosabai
this is the missing thing I needed for #RazingBabel
I can’t watch a single 20-minute episode of TV without checking something else 60 times so the fact that I have been sitting rapt with attention at waveforms on my TV, having to force myself to look away for eye care… wild
I can’t believe pandas all still have carnivore digestive tracts and *can* eat meat but they are like “nah I’m vegetarian and I choose this one plant that my body can’t actually digest. but nomnomnom”
if pandas were human they’d be lactose intolerant and drink milk daily
“dude, you sure you don’t want like… anything else”
“*maintains eye contact, chugs more milk*”
please no more tragic sad starving panda representation. please more stories about how fast bamboo grows and about how pandas’ special bamboo interest makes them nature’s lawnmowers. please give these chompers more room to chomp!!!
so… turns out that after a car crash… people usually see a doctor? and have physical therapy? after both my car crashes I was just sent to a mental hospital (where I paced for days) and never got assessed for injuries… hmm
I am trying to somehow find time and energy to *sigh* have to navigate all of this but at least my bf has done a lot of physical therapy post-car crashes so I, you know, now know that it’s not normal to just let someone run around for days after a crash as if they’re uninjured
it’s wild how much stuff I simply accept because “well I guess it’s time to care and advocate for myself again, this is how it goes right?”
and then people around me make these horrified “wtf??” faces when I tell them and I’m like… ah… so neglect is NOT normal?
I really thought that with all the positive attention and accolades for #EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnce, that an essay written by a chinese-american on some very chinese parts of the movie might get some award recognition, but I guess it’s just not going to happen
awards are ultimately out of my control and it’s already an honor that my essay was a fund drive feature for STRANGE HORIZONS, and I appreciate that many people have told me it deepened their experience of the movie
I just wish it didn’t feel like another iteration of consuming the cultural output but not bothering to understand the people
I don’t know where my ADHD meds went and my room is a mess and my shoulder hurts and I really hope I’m not going to get sick and I think I’m just going to lie down and cry and think about dying for a second before I get up and maybe try to clean something
ok my meds were on the ground and I found some of my very smelly herbal chinese pain patches that work but that I can’t wear when I don’t have several days off work (like I do now) because I am scared of Smelling Chinese In Public
I am medicated and making myself order food before lying back down and crying. good job self
I always find it absolutely nuts that some people with sleep paralysis actually see things, but then again, maybe they would be horrified that my sleep paralysis never had visuals, but had auditory hallucinations of S C R E A M I N G
just fucking nonstop howling screams while feeling like my body is electrocuted
I wouldn’t even be able to open my eyes! just electric darkness with HELL SCREAMS