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Human | Gastro Doc 💩 back in training | Fiddle Player 🎻 | Disillusioned leftie ✊|| Ex bin resident and now #PTSD || My ❤ belongs in Cape MaClear 🇲🇼
Mar 6, 2023 8 tweets 2 min read
When I first saw this I assumed the OP was a troll.. courting controversy for likes and follows.

I reflected during my swim this morning on some of the comments that the old psychiatrist made to me and now I'm not so sure..

There was the time I told him that I found it hard.. to come to appointments at the CMHT because it stirred up unpleasant memories of things I witnessed and experienced in hospital.

He told me he would consider discharging me "WHEN I got a husband." 🙄🤨

Or the time he decided to tell me about another of his patients in an..
Mar 6, 2023 4 tweets 2 min read
For anyone who isn't aware this is the reality of trying to sleep as a psychiatric inpatient.

Strip lights, noisy interminable hourly obs, torches shone in your eyes to make sure you're still breathing.

I wonder at the damage to our circadian rhythms and sense of.. psychological safety that ensue from these practices.

Whenever I've reported vivid dreams of lighthouses or nightmares of being watched whilst I try to sleep to MH services since leaving the Bin I told endlessly to engage in basic sleep hygiene techniques or download apps..
Jan 20, 2023 15 tweets 6 min read
Trying desperately not to think about it but having been inadvertently given access to all of my GP notes on system one including psychiatric notes when I was only trying to access a copy of my summary care record is very unsettling. I had deliberately intended never to read 1/ any of my notes. Having worked for the #NHS in some capacity intermittently since 2005 (including time as an admin assistant to a #MHA office) and as a doctor since 2011 I am acutely aware that medical notes can sometimes be brutally dehumanising. I understand it is @rcpsych 2/