The Sad Boner Confessional.
These guys could have careers and not *be present*.
The Sad Boner Confessional is when a Good Guy Comes To Grips With The Fact That He Did Bad Things and he wants you to know how very sad he is.
My version has a more honest title.
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And the oopsie he compared it to was someone watching a dog for someone and letting it out.
But when the essay escaped those sheltered coastal waters to the wider internet, of course we responded: "...you did what now?"
I keep seeing people saying that the apologies and explanations being offered right now are well-written and that this makes sense because they're written by writers.
My experience of them is a little different.
It's easier and can be better if you don't.
And would they be sincere or insincere? Who knows. We don't have sincerity meters. We're not telepaths. We cannot weigh a person's heart.
I don't know, any more than I would know if it's sincere. Maybe they'd find out that they really *don't* like who they are being big-ish fish in the ponds of the fandom carnival scene.
Leaving room for change doesn't prevent that.
But they could stop doing ongoing harm and prevent future harm, and that would be best for them, too.
Why do people never understand they can just stop and just leave? Even if you're not convinced it's the right move, try it.
Worst case scenario you got a break and some breathing room.
That's it.
If you hurt a lot of people in a community with those people's friends and family...
Even if it's possible to know within yourself that you're different now and won't ever do those things again.
But if anybody asks me what real change would look like.
It would mean never coming back.
Growth would mean recognizing they burnt this thing to the ground and figuring out something else to do.
Sometimes you break something and you can't put it back together. Sometimes you lose something and you can't get it back.
My big point, though. If these two guys were either rationally self-interested, OR sincere and compassionate, then either way, they would leave.