Thread by @GbengaWemimo

I gave my life to Jesus about 50 times
I thought I was supposed to feel something changing in me
Like a driver shifting the gears of a vehicle or a bulb being turned on
When I didn't feel any different from how I felt before going for that altar call, i convinced myself that I

was too much of a sinner for the light of God to shine through
So I would leave that church and go to another
I would wait until the pastor preached a moving message and I would go to the altar for the altar call
Again, the effect of the moving story would fade and I would feel

unsaved
It was as if the word of God was having only a surface effect on my life
My sinful reality grew deeper and deeper and so did my despair
Sin is a very heavy load
No wonder Jesus called those who were lost in sin weary and heavy ladened
I remember smoking until i started

coughing and experiencing shortness of breath and yet i was unable to stop
I lied so much, ate groundnut, licked tomtom, trying very hard to hide my lifestyle from everybody because cigarettes had enslaved me.
I drank alcohol so much despite the fact that i had sinus issues,

I kept making the wrong choices, doing the very things that I ought not to do despite knowing better
The burden of sin led me to church over and over again
I listened to new preachers, old preachers, fiery preachers and lukewarm preachers
I started knowing the word mentally but

it had no effect on me spiritually
Then i met the Holy Spirit
At a fellowship meeting and in a very unexpected manner
on the 17th of September 2007.
Oh what joy!
I was finally able to sit alone and not be scared of my own thoughts
I was finally overtaken by joy!
It made all the

difference.
He turned my life around
He made me a brand new creature
He made me his delight and His joy
Oh what a wonder
Glory Glory Glory!
You need not carry a burden of shame anymore
You need not groan and curse and hate yourself
Jesus is real and willing to save you even from

yourself
Have you given your life to Jesus and nothing has changed as you expected?
You need to be filled with the Holy Spirit
He is an experience that can never be explained
He is tailored to fit each of us and transform us
He is the greatest and the best reality of the believer