visited the grave of my college roommate and close friend joanna today. she died by suicide in 2013, at 22. there's still a hole in my life where she was. it never goes away, really. depression is a curse.
I will also never forgive or forget that while she was on academic probation after a deep bout of depression & suicidality, I did what all kids are taught to do - reported to authority (a dean). They reacted by banning her from campus, isolating her from all her friends.
Fuck Harvard. They covered their ass and my friend died.
The video is INCREDIBLE. i also like navalny's intro of "this is why Putin has spent so much time thinking about my underwear" (the fsb put the poison in his underwear!!!)
im finishing star trek: deep space 9 tonight and im actively very sad about it
im watching "the dogs of war" rn and theres a second Defiant!!! also im so so sad
It took me awhile to push through the last half of season 7 because a) the all-serialization was hit or miss for me and b) much more potently, I WILL MISS THESE CHARACTERS SO MUCH
i finally finished Mary Shelley's FRANKENSTEIN. It is amazingly and also sometimes beautifully melodramatic. Like Goth monster Hamlet. The monster is SO ELOQUENT and I cant get over how that was totally erased in every film!
also Victor Frankenstein gets a horrible fever every time he gets bad news. for like months at a time.
also, SO many beautiful descriptions of lakes! made me really want to visit Geneva someday.