Thread by @kelly_j_baker

You know it's gonna be an exciting* day when you have to take "your break in case of emergency" #anxiety meds a mere 10 minutes after waking up.

*not exciting at all

This, of course, was me.

And it was one of those surprise moments when my heart started beating super fast, my stomach dropped, and my hands were shaking.

So I knew I had to get ahead of it

Sometimes there is a trigger that I am reacting to, so I know I'm about to have an anxiety attack.

Other times, the anxiety attack appears out of the blue and gobsmacks me like this morning.

The surprise anxiety attacks are harder for me to 1) realize what's happening and 2) react in time that I can manage them as well as I can.

For instance, I was able to take my acute anxiety meds only after I started to panic, which means that a half hour later my heart feels like it is in my throat and I'm still shakey.

I am, however, not completely losing my shit, which is good.

But, I'm gonna feel off for the rest of the day because I'm going to be worried about whether I'll have a full-blown anxiety attack and because my body will not recover from what already happened quickly.

Now, if I had full panic attack, my day would be completely hosed, and I would still feel some of the aftereffects tomorrow.

Anxiety, y'all, is hard to manage and live with.

So, all of y'all with anxiety disorders, I feel you and struggle with some of the same things.

Solidarity.

Listen, I'm managing my anxiety this morning. I'll most likely feel better as the day goes one.

These tweets are me explaining what my anxiety is like for me (& maybe other people). They are not a request for advice.

Kind responses are nice, but not my reason for this thread.

Also, I would like to note that after I fend off an anxiety attack that I really don't want to interact with anyone.

Instead, I got to assist with a 6th grade science lab and wrangle a 1st grader to do math assignments.