I might be putting too much stock into it, but I’m really looking forward to college. I know it’s just under a year off, but I’m excited to be able to go somewhere to be free. I want a fresh place where I can start over with (hopefully) more mature people who will accept me
I just wanna be somewhere where I actually have a chance. A place where I could even discover romance maybe. I have friends in my hometown (and I love them), but a lot of the people here have known me through weird times and it puts me in a weird situation with them
I just feel like if I go to college in a larger city, I’ll finally feel able to let more of my walls down and be who I really am on the inside. Being the type of person I want to be here is just too hard, and it really weighs on me.