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15 Mar, 8 tweets, 2 min read
people are always mad at me for saying so many people are neurodivergent but uhh they’re right here. they’re just calling themselves introverts 👀
@laurenancona found em
not trying to be an “i’m always right” dingus but explaining this as having a neurodivergent neurotype makes about 50000x more sense than attributing it to being an introvert
i need you to turn your music the fuck down but i need to talk to people for 90% of my waking hours on this planet. introvert/extrovert is a super silly way to classify people and was my original reason for detesting the meyers-briggs test (still hate it but for more reasons now)
i finally truly understand and feel so validated in my hatred for the words introvert and extrovert. yet another classification everyone else seemed to embrace unreservedly where the choices were extremely unrepresentative of me, proving yet again that i am not a person
you know i might just have to call it. i am always right
do any #ADHDAutism people feel the same about introvert/extrovert? Neither of them fit me whatsoever and how social and confident i am is definitely part of why it took so long to see that i’m autistic - and that’s definitely not masking. Why am i such a weirdly outgoing autistic
I like parties and packed clubs, or I hate them and will be extremely unpleasant until I’m allowed to leave, it just depends on the people and environment. I’m actually only ever shy when i’m masking. i suck at masking and being shy so i hate it. loud, confident me is the real me

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Today is my stepmom Angie’s birthday. She died when I was 18 of an overdose of her prescribed pain medication. She struggled with mental illness and was a casualty of ableism, classism, and a carceral system that stole some of the short life she had instead of helping her.
She was a lot more than that, too. She taught me about makeup - a tool that helped her use her looks to survive in a world hostile to her, a skill I ended up needing. She didn’t understand the concept of things you weren’t supposed to talk about and she never sheltered me.
That was understandably controversial with other adults in my life but I’m grateful for it. Some of the more painful parts of my own mind were places only she could understand. She was a dreamer who believed I could do anything and I believed she could, too.
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the intersection of racism, misogyny, classism, xenophobia, and anti-SW bias is so fucking intense and horrific in the case of the hate crime murders in Atlanta. these are never just someone else’s problems. there are no unrelated issues of oppression. ImageImage
i don’t think an issue should have to affect you personally to AFFECT YOU. PERSONALLY. and i don’t understand how it’s possible to ignore hatred just because it’s not directed at you. but that distinction doesn’t even fucking exist anyway. nobody is free until everybody’s free.
Fannie Lou Hamer said that in 1971 as someone who experienced the intersection racism, anti-Blackness, misogyny, ableism, and classism and fought against it her whole life. Fifty years later, we refuse to learn the lesson.

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17 Mar
it’s annoying when people are like “you used a double negative! you didn’t speak directly, you make no sense.” sometimes a double negative is true and the positive would not be true. if you need to read or listen more times to consider it, that is okay.
some ideas are too complicated to understand the first time you ever hear them. not everything can be simplified past a certain point and still be true. if i said a double negative, it’s because the double negative is what is true. i didn’t do it by accident.
it’s also okay if you consider an idea for a while and still can’t make sense of it. put a pin in it. screenshot or bookmark it for later, or move on with your life. go get more context. many ideas require base knowledge to understand and that doesn’t make the ideas bad.
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neurotypicals get an ego boost - a need on par with oxygen - by inventing fictional people doing imaginary things they can feel superior to & then post it online so the people who agree with everything they say will validate them and boost their ego more. they are so fascinating
NDs are making fun of it not making sense as if the words making sense was ever the point lmao NTs really do throw words around like spare change and NDs get on the ground trying to pick up the coins and count them, leaving the NTs free to do whatever they want unopposed
i find it so fascinating how strong cognitive dissonance can be that NDs insist I’m wrong when I tell them that NTs think in social constructs and don’t convey their actual meaning with their words when NTs are out here tweeting stuff like this for the whole world to see
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16 Mar
wanted to RT this bc i love the honesty & the convo that resulted and it’s a really good example of how even knowledgeable mental health professionals who really care usually can’t identify many autistic people bc even DOCTORATE programs don’t teach them much about us
and for the record i don’t think anyone could or should watch that set with no other info and say “she’s autistic, 100% accuracy,” bc anxiety or PTSD could manifest in experiences like that, but it’s very characteristic of autism & neurodivergence & should be recognized that way
especially in the context of everything else about me & the fact that i’m not socially anxious and even back then always confident & full of self-love, scripting social situations & knowing i couldn’t share my full self was very indicative of simply being autistic in an NT world
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yes i look very different and no you should not mention it, i won’t like that
hmm a comedian with a very monotone voice, who makes jokes about not understanding social rituals, dresses like she thinks it’s the 1950s, sits in her room feeling COOL, and spends her time thinking about how names are weird and wondering what bees would say. so neurotypical!
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