Thread by @nrem511

I really want to talk about something, but I feel uncomfortable. I have nobody to explain it to and it's probably more in my head than anywhere else.
I don't want to feel like I should be ashamed to write nsfw content about a fictional character because of 'age'. It's upset me.

To me a fictional character is ageless and not a real person, that's the whole point. Telling someone your content makes them uncomfortable because the character is the 'youngest' in a show makes me feel like I'm somehow 'wrong' for creating vanilla a/b/o nsfw content about them.

I've blocked the person, for their sake and mine, because I found a nice place to share and talk about something that made me happy and I don't want 1 person to spoil that. Maybe now I've said this I will feel better, but right now I feel weird about it 😕

I deleted the post eventhough others had reacted very positive and now it's reposted in a different place, which I'm okay with, but also feels like I've been made to stay in a separate lane because of one person and their discomfort with the character not being 'aged-up'.

It's hard enough to find content about the character without it being reduced to immature cutesy stuff. In my eyes the character is feisty and knows their own mind very well! That's part of why I like them, they're naughty and devious and it's funny but also gives me inspiration.

I've disabled comments on this post because I feel very anxious about it and I thought simply blocking the person would solve it, but it's made me feel insecure about posting content with that character in. I still have though and I KNOW more ppl LOVE them like I do, but ...😕

I don't know ...part of me just wants to delete everything and fuck off, but the bigger part of me is very lonely and loves talking to people about things that make me happy and knowing I can do that WITHOUT shame is very important to me. Like I said, this is more in my head 😔😶

I love sharing things I've written & making others happy, seeing it resonating with them. Apart from this 1 person I've had only positive reactions to what I wrote about the character.
I wasn't going to say anything but my brain is upsetting me so I have to let it out.
Sorry ❤

Just writing this is making me feel nervous. I don't want to upset anybody or cause any issue, this is my twitter account and my feelings which are valid and although this didn't happen here it's made me feel once again like I just don't fit in. Pls mute if this is boring, sorry.

Maybe I'm not suited to groups of people talking about content or characters, maybe I'm just not on the same level. If I see content that makes me uncomfortable I just mute/block and move on, especially in a place where it says 'general nsfw' content! That's a big umbrella!

I definitely wouldn't make a point of referring to the fact that the issue is specifically the 'age' thing and that the character is the 'youngest'. Like, what are you implying exactly? I'm not a bad person for wanting to play with this character in different settings (incl nsfw)

I don't want to feel like I 'shouldn't' be creating content about them because of 'age'. In my eyes they are no different than the characters portrayed as their peers in the show. I'll stop talking about it now. It's just my brain making me sad.
Love to you all and sorry 😞 ❤

One more thing, there are a handful of really lovely sweet kind amazing people who I talk to here, I'm sure you know who you are. I just want to tell you that I love you and I appreciate your time and kindness. I hope I'm able to return it tenfold because your are great ❤❤❤❤