Thread by @nickcammarata

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie Oh god, I’ll try

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie I’ve assembled my own like 30 frameworks for perception and I’ll get lost in describing them if I try so I’ll just describe what it feels like with no commentary. For context I’m walking around a little park right now

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie Oh baby nick what do you feel wow you feel powerful why oh it’s because you’re excited for work why does that feel powerful oh you’re excited to show to me what your skills can do cool! Is everyone excited for the gym we’ll be there in fifteen minutes yeah it’s sad our ankle is

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie hurt but it’s because of dancing and we looove dancing it’s so much fun! I really like being here with all of you oh teen nick what do you feel oh you’re wondering if a girl likes you. Ha that’s cute but you should also think through whether you like her it’s totally reasonable

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie given your time 13-17 why you don’t ever question if you like someone because you think the world is scarce but we’re all here for you now and you can take a breath. Look around at the trees they’re beautiful which is your favorite, if you had to draw what that tree makes you

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie feel can you do it? Flash it in our mind. Wow that’s beautiful that makes so much sense, I love the waves on the side like that ....

Okay that’s like a random 30 second livestream. Except almost none of it is lingual it’s mostly just feelings. Maybe 20% lingual

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie Interestingly when I did this I completely forgot I was doing it for all of you. My fingers were just this separate process handling the logging of things that were happen on autopilot. I can “assign” parts of my body tasks and theyll mostly go do them

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie I think the broad thing is I used to feel like one big piece and now I feel like a system of subprocesses I’m like the leader of. Except I’m very explicitly the slave. I remind the parts all the time that I don’t need anything from them, if they want to hurt me they can

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie If they want to call for attention they can, if they want to take over my whole qualia state they can. Any part has the full ability to get me to stop whatever I’m doing, they just have to send the message. My only goal as a leader is to make them feel comfortable and supported

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie generally things feel in harmony and when it doesn’t (every couple days or so) I’ll immediately ditch whatever I’m doing and sit down with an eyemask and go inside and figure out what’s going on for an hour or however long it takes. Most of what I do is just manage this system

@visakanv @metaphorician @metaLulie Now I’m kind of nervous, that was really intimate, I don’t really ever share that I’m doing this when I’m doing it