Irony is my favorite thing in the world. On the same day I get my blue check mark rejection, I also get my infamous Twitter Swag box. I am in love but Twitter just don't feel the same and in the words of Ryan Young, "They were like, can ya just take the box? 🙄🙄🙄" 🤣
Seriously though, rejection aside, I was very grateful and honored to be invited to speak for #TwitterVoices and amplify the work of Disabled Native Twitter. It was an uplifting moment in a time of uncertainty and grief.
As soon as the event was done, I rushed to the hospital to sit with my mom. I told her all about the joy and honor of being among so many briliant disabled folks from all walks of life and the passion they have for justice and change.
It was the last night that I got to sit with my mom with the hopes of her coming home. The next morning is when we learned that we would have to let her go and the day after, we stood by mom's side, played her favorite songs, held her hands and watched her take her last breath.
Which is also why I am just now getting my box, it was returned the first time it was sent out because I was in NM for my mom's memorial service with our folks in Taos.
I am very, very grateful to be have been a part of #TwitterVoices and for all the brilliantly fierce folks that I got to share space with and laugh with that night. It was the last time I felt joy without the shadow of grief.

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25 Jun
Dear Non-Natives and Christians
This isn't a time for you to talk, express your outrage or unload your outrage and sorrow on Native people as the veil is pulled back and your eyes opened to the atrocities that Native people have suffered in the name of Christ.
This is not a time for you to defend your beliefs or tell us they weren't "real" Christians. It's not the time for you to try and distance yourself or try to justify these atrocities.
It is time for you to listen as residential boarding schools survivors across the US and Canada speak candidly about the violence and death they have witnessed and survived.
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I had to wear a mask long before COVID and sometimes I would get stares but that's it. COVID normalized the mask wearing while also politicizing the mask.
Now that restrictions are being lifted, people that once stared and then went on their way, now go out of their way to make you feel unsafe, they will purposely invade your space, cough, make comments and in some cases flat out get violent.
I am immunocompromised, my uncle died from COVID, my aunt barely survived. My sister's partner was hospitalized & on oxygen for months after he got COVID. I was on an active COVID ICU ward with my mom, I watched COVID ravage her body & I was with her when she took her last breath
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Homophobia in NDN Country and the church is why I never felt normal or like there was something wrong with me. It wasn't until after my divorce a few years ago and moving from OK to LA that I had space and support to really think about my sexuality.
Turns out nothing is wrong with me, I'm just the A in LGBTQIA2S. Asexual, I am asexual. It's not the result of hormone imbalances, chronic illnesses, my mental health or trauma. That's not to say these factors don't play a part in other's asexuality, they just don't in mine.
And it definitely wasn't the tap water in Native communities!

I just am. I also assert the trauma that I have experienced didn't impact my sexuality but was the result of my sexuality being invalidated and disregarded.
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Being chronically ill is some bullshit. Do you know how irritating it is to not only have health issues but to have to humble yourself and tell the last person you ever want to tell "You were right" that they were right cuz you are stubborn ass of a person.
My kidneys suck, they are pretty much bearing the brunt of this flare up and my sugars have been very unstable, high one minute and dropping super low the next. My partner had just got done telling me to keep a few glucose tablets in my pocket but did i listen?
NO! I didn't reach them in time and passed out l, bruised up my ribs hitting the counter on my way down. Thankfully, I'm short and round, short fall before I just kind of roll.

Pretty accurate mental image of me falling 🤣
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This morning I was shocked to see a youth advocate saying "whatever you want to call yourself","there is water on certain reservations and indigenous communities that make you gay"
and "being gay, being programmed to be gay and then messing with science to fuck your hormones up to create you to be gay are entirely different things"
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Origin Story:
On this day, this exact time 40 years ago, a blue butted monkey took me directly from my mother's loins as I blew spit bubbles and he held me up in victory so the world could bow at my lil infant feet.
The world rejoiced and then roared with laughter when the blue butted bastard dropped me, but that's besides the point cuz' I'm still cool as balls and still destined to be world dictator......but here's to another year of being adorkably awkward and kicking ass.
Broke my hiatus twice but I had to this time because I'm alive. I did it. I made it to 40.
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