one of the major reasons i've been able to start a running routine and enjoy running is because i've consciously said to myself over & over that this is not about weight loss, it's about getting strong, and forging a relationship to my body outside angst & panic attacks. 1/
there's so much messaging from everywhere - family, friends, omnipresent culture - that the only reason to exercise is aesthetic. that alienates people from their own bodies so much! i stayed away from anything fitnessy for so long bc of those messages. 2/
but just getting stronger and living in your body and inhabiting it fully - your pulsing limbs, your racing heart, your growing strength - is lovely in and of itself. don't let anyone tell you the only reason to move is to get smaller. fuck that. get strong enough to punch bears.
(also don't literally punch a bear.)
(also i know it's silly to be preaching only ~4 months into this whole thing, but it's a big change in my life enabled solely by blocking out a decade of shittiness)
not a bear puncher yet but i got guns. pew pew 😅
anyway goals
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about to try running for 30 minutes straight... wish me luck.... #couchto5k
I DID IT I FUCKING DID IT I DID IT IM NOW A SWEAT HUMAN HYBRID IT TOOK SINCE APRIL 3 BUT I RAN FOR 30 MINUTES STRAIGHT
you officially "graduate" the app at 35min. and then there's a 10k sequel! but once i hit 35min i will stop posting here. this feels like a milestone to me :)
literally never give strangers unsolicited weight loss advice. never. never do this
this also applies to relatives, friends, acquaintances, coworkers, and anyone in the world. don't ever give out unsolicited weight loss advice. it has never helped a soul, and it's cruel and harassing behavior.
so many people are objecting as if it's their god-given right to be cruel to family and as if you are the Only One who Has the Secret Knowledge that a fat person is fat. they know. i promise
this was honestly a really hard run but my knee held up and i didnt stop for 20 minutes straight again!!
running with med-withdrawal brain zaps/parasthesia is... an experience! like running through a series of invisible barbed wire fences while covered in spiders
just a lovely soupçon of extra sensation to the joys of being a beginner runner in 81% humidity
its 2:44am and im sad again. and i cant write. this is a struggle posts account until further notice
being sad for weeks at a time without interruption is a real bummer
not even the cool russian toska kind of sad just a grimy self-enveloped pustulent disappointed kind of sad. like a piece of asphalt that smells like piss, not a desolate garden in shambles or etc