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#InternReflections, Day 7

This final reflection isn’t really a story. It really just centers on gratitude.

Yup.

Was internship tough? Yes. Was I scared a lot? You better believe it.

But damn, I loved that year. So, so much.

Let me explain why: Image
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I didn’t know if then, but that year was where I cultivated a #growthmindset.

It was humbling.
It was inspiring.
It was empowering.

And—dare I say it? It was fun.

It was. Image
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The learning curve was exponential. The new relationships and expectations were overwhelming at times but, in hindsight, they were the best part.

Totally.

One thing I’m super glad about is that I heeded some great advice I heard during my intern orientation. . . . ImageImage
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One of our chief residents said something like:

“Pay attention. This year is magical—but fleeting. You will blink and it will be over. So keep your eyes open and hold the magic close to your chest. Then it will always be inside of you.”

Not a direct quote. But close. ImageImage
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And so. I paid attention. I journaled and reflected and watched and learned.

Because of that, I remember it all.

And even though there was joy, pain, sunshine, and rain. . . there was always magic. And there still is.

Always if you know it’s there and look for it.

Yup. Image
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So my advice to interns of all ages is the same that was given to me.

Pay attention.
Feel the magic.

Then hold it close to your chest.

And also. . .

The days are long but the year is short. You know stuff. You’re ready.

Now let’s go.👊🏽

#growthmindset #yougotNOW Image
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P.S. As a habitual reflector, I have an entire collection of July 1 selfies from former trainees. I tell them someday they’ll be glad that they have that photo.

I sure wish I had one.

So that’s my last advice—take a July 1 selfie. And tag me, okay?

Cool.👊🏽

#July1Magic ImageImage

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