i loved you because i saw something good in you. that good doesn’t go away just because you did bad to me. i know the good is still there. i also now know, you struggle to fully embrace it. i now know, that you lean towards the path of destruction because it’s familiar to you.
i now know, that what you did to me wasn’t personal. i now know, that everything you said to me wasn’t necessarily a lie. i think you believed you were capable too, you just didn’t know how to make the pieces connect. you didn’t know how to walk the talk.
mainly because no one taught you but also you never taught yourself because you didn’t realize how bad it was. no one ever cared enough about you to hold the mirror to you. until me. i now know, that you are not my responsibility.
just because i see good in you does not mean it’s my job to help you see it. i now know, that willingly withstanding their abuse does not equate to “how love works”. abuse is not love. love does not feel like a cage. love is not staying up late, crying more days than not.
love is not feeling exhausted wondering “when will they just get it and love me how i’m supposed to be”. love, self-love is leaving and finding what you rightfully deserve after giving it all to yourself. i now know, how endless and vast my love for people can be.
i now know, to forgive myself for all the love lost and not blame myself for their lack of respect or appreciation. i now know, that sometimes loving someone means letting them go. i now know that when you truly love yourself, the act of letting go becomes easier.
when i think back, i don’t feel regret. i feel proud of my selflessness. i feel hopeful that one of the many lessons i taught has stuck with you. i feel happy bc i smile & laugh again & don’t think about you as much.
i feel good because i now know, that i’m much stronger & wiser than i was yesterday. i know i can make it through anything. i am responsible for my rebirths and i handle them with grace. 🌻
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