Thread by @LiamKircher

Unseen Unhappiness 🧵

I just left the gym after a morning workout on a random Thursday in December 2 years ago.

I could barely work out that morning, I couldn't think.

I was stressed to the max and my brain felt like it was about to explode from overthinking.

1/ I sat in my car in the gym parking lot crying.

I was 20k in credit card debt.

My work visa in the US just ended and I couldn't work

I had a failing relationship

My business was near failure

How would a 23-year-old, 2 years out of college put himself in this position?

2/ I'm going to get vulnerable with sharing this here. This is a story of where I was and where I am now in a matter of 2 years.

Some days you forget to be proud of yourself and today I am taking the time to soak it in and pat myself on the back.

Why am I sharing this...?

3/ Because it is a more selfish motive than anything and I hope that I can provide someone value out there that may be in a similar situation that I was.

So let's dive in.....

4/ I was 23 years old and 2 years out of college, I was about to get married. Yes, you read that right.... married.

I grew up fortunate enough with parents who have a loving and amazing relationship so I thought I understood how love worked and how it's easy to find a lifelong

5/ partner.

I graduated college and thought I needed to have everything figured out. I thought I needed to get a job, find a girl and marry her, and start a family all while in my 20's.

Well, I almost did all of that until I really started digging deep in myself and...

6/ reflecting on where I was in life and who I truly was.

I was in my 20's and really had no idea who I was.

I was afraid to be alone in life.

I didn't believe in myself and I really underestimated my full potential.

I literally had no idea what the fuck I was doing...and

7/ I admit I still don't some days.

I lived 4 years in what I thought was a happy relationship although something deep down was not right.

I had unseen unhappiness that drove me to take on debt I didn't need, drove me to do things that were 100% uncharacteristic of myself, and

8/drove me to days where I truly was depressed. (I am not typically one to say this out loud and I am a very happy human but I was depressed and I just didn't know it.)

That day I was crying in my car outside the gym something changed about me...

9/ I sat there for 6 hours in that parking lot just thinking, diving deep into myself and trying to understand truly what got me on this spiral downhill of unhappiness and how I was so BLINDED the entire time to not see it.

To this day I do not have the answer...

10/ but what I do know is that I didn't sit and dwell in the situation.

It took some balls and a fuck ton of tears but I pulled myself up and made a decision that truly change the entire trajectory of my life...

I didn't get married and I went back to Canada.

11/ I remember seeing my mom and sister when I walked into the house and I started crying from pure happiness. I spent the entire day with my family.

The next day... I got to work.

12/ I came home to a business that was on the verge of failing but it was generating me enough money so I could survive. I put all my effort into that, I started reading books, I started working like a mother fucker every day...

13/ I started seeing my friends more, and most importantly making decisions purely based upon my happiness and what I wanted to do.

Fast forward to today...

14/ I have a successful cleaning business.

I just launched another business with 2 partners.

I own 1 rental property with almost 100k equity.

I have a 55k stock portfolio and a 35k crypto portfolio

AND most importantly I am HAPPY!

15/ I am happy with who I am, where I am, and where I see myself in 10 years, 20 years, 30 years, etc.

Yes, you never know where life will take you, and sometimes...

16/ you may feel trapped in situations.

But let me be the case study for this.... your self-happiness and life matters more than anything.

Life is short, cliche and lame yes but it really is true and I never understood that till a huge pivot in my life.