1.Why do clinicians not tell you about what your #epilepsy symptoms are? Just woke up from a reset sleep but it’s led to morbid curiosity Googling. Those weird head sensations I get are called ichtal headaches. There are 3 types: pre, post & ones without seizures. I reckon I get>
2/ all 3, but I’ve never heard of them before, even though I’ve definitely described them to my #epilepsy consultant. I’ve felt like a bit of a knob, trying to describe the odd sensation that I call an ‘epilepsy head’ and how I can tell it’s different to ‘normal’ or a headache. >
3/When I get asked how I can tell I always feel like I’m coming across as a hypochondriac exaggerating a symptom. There it is, in black & white, on Google, so it must be true (tbf, the sources I was reading were peer reviewed articles😜) Seriously, why don’t medics tell patients>
4/ that these symptoms have names, are universally shared? That the sensations they are struggling to describe without the accompanying vocabulary or understanding as they are quizzed on why they know the symptoms are #epilepsy related are real? I end up holding back out of >
5/ embarrassment or anxiety. I don’t know what is important to say, differentiate between what is #epilepsy, stress or mental health related. I’m scared the consultant won’t either, as you can only diagnose based on the info you are given. If I had some of that language shared >
6/ from the beginning I can guarantee that I’d give more comprehensive info at appointments and also feel more confident. My Mum & bro had epilepsy all of their lives and just used to call them ‘epilepsy headaches’. >
7/ It’s very rare for clinicians to tell patients of risk of death from #epilepsy. Death can happen during a drawn out period of seizure (status epilepticus). #SUDEP (sudden unexplained death in epilepsy) is a risk too. But we don’t get told. > everydayhealth.com/columns/out-of…
8/ The risk may be 1 in 1000, but in my family 2 people out of a statistician’s equation died from #SUDEP/Status Epilepticus. I have always told myself my epilepsy is negligible in comparison to my Mum & brother, so my own risk is also negligible. However it can happen to people>
9/ who have only had a couple of seizures. My Mum was only 3y older than I am now when she died. My brother was only 27. All of us shared trauma, different symptoms of mental ill health but it was there. So I think about the statistics that glibly say that people with a mental >
10/ diagnosis of personality disorder have a life expectancy that is 19 years less than general population, are 75% less likely to be mothers (if female), more likely to end up in prison. Add in a few more diagnoses, trauma, health inequalities, intersectional marginalisation >
11/in other areas. It is scary. My cousin died by heroin overdose on the same day my seizures returned. It is very likely that his onset of epilepsy as an adult led to him purposely OD-ing & dying by suicide after losing his driving licence and job. That’s a lot of death in one >
12/ family that is epilepsy related, as well as all of the additional health inequalities that most people on intersections if marginalisation and trauma experience. It’s never as simple as just a dodgy brain 🧠, is it? Pesky humans and their socio-environments messing up lab >
13/ tests and meaning that no RCT will ever accurately predict how an illness or medication will impact on an individual. Otherwise, we would be told about #SUDEP & Status Epilepticus beforehand, maybe giving us a fighting chance to prevent it?
1.There is something so heartening about seeing a Tweet that acknowledges that the issues #LXPs have are real & they do have an impact. Because discrimination usually isn’t acknowledged #LXPs never get to hear the words “I’m Sorry” as a genuine apology as opposed to being in the>
2. context of ‘your perception’ being skewed or ‘your feelings’ being hurt, which is like a backhanded way of being told that the way you are being treated is caused by you & not the people doing it to you. It places fault back with you, rather than being the responsibility >
3. of people accountable within organisations to change discriminatory behaviours. It lets people who lead organisations off the hook if there’s no acknowledgement an issue exists, because then there are no national campaigns to appease, no pesky equalities targets to reach. >
1. The #BPD label & diagnosis: a thread. At this years #BIGSPD21 Ian & @JaneCannonMBE gave a presentation describing the experience of losing both of their teenage twin daughters to suicide. She & her husband have campaigned for young people to be able to be diagnosed with #BPD >
2. to be able to access appropriate services. Their daughters Chris & Sam were constantly being told that because their problem was not an ‘illness’ that could be medicated, they could not access any treatment. Both had all of the main symptoms that fit a #BPD diagnosis & >
3. struggled to manage the emotional turmoil they felt with self harm & suicide attempts. The interesting thing is they both wanted the diagnosis in order to be able to access services. They both rejected the idea of services for trauma and instead wanted ones that were for >
1. I’ve had years of knowing stuff isn’t right and being gaslighted into it just being my ‘perception’ or pathology. It’s a pretty cruel thing to do when talking to someone diagnosed with a label that likes to include an ‘unstable sense of self’, ‘paranoid ideation’ & >
2. ‘severe dissociative symptoms’ as part of its diagnostic criterion bullshittery. After finally catching wind that actual evidence existed that I had been excluded, lied to, had things hidden from me, I felt so relieved and happy to finally have something solid to show that >
3. although I’m a loud proud member of the Mad movement, I’m not losing the mind I’ve worked so hard to keep. But that has been replaced by sadness that people would actively use my disability - which I am open about for work purposes - to gaslight me in this way. I have to >
1. I am so, so proud of my fellow Mad activists/allies & supporters who came to a board meeting to support a collective of us raising concerns about #LXP working during public questions. There were ten of us altogether. We had come together in the space of a week, identified >
2. shared concerns about career blocking, exploitation, deliberate exclusion of LXP staff. We gave the recent secretly turned away funding for an #LXP senior post as an example. We had three people scheduled to ask questions, but - and u couldn’t make this shit up... >
3. The third presenter, who was due to ask questions on staff wellbeing wasn’t able to due to being hospitalised over the weekend with a suspected stroke. Being mad is stressful, unfortunately. Instead, two of us covered their section. We left feeling good that the questions we >
1. What people refer to as ‘personality disorder’ in terms of ‘emotional dysregulation’ is interesting. Rather than dysregulation, I’ve noticed a lot of people appear to have a highly sensitive, finely tuned reception to other people’s emotional communication. Not everyone of >
2. course, that would be a massive generalisation. But a lot of people can sense or have intuition of when something feels wrong, or a persons mood is good or bad. Much is likely to have come from early childhood experiences where this skill kept some people safe. It’s less of >
3. a mystical power, more of a supernatural skill that has been developed. But it doesn’t mean that the emotional communication your highly sensitive instrument can be read or interpreted accurately. The emotional data given by the other person when learning the skills as a >
1. This is the reality of the toll that mental health activism takes on campaigners. Campaigns often have to be done at the last minute, where issues are only discovered after the publication of an evaluation, shortly before a deadline to public responses, or to stop a roll out >
2. What people don’t see under all the protest is the toll the protest takes. Bethan’s presence on Twitter is a strong, formidable force - an intimidating wealth of knowledge that busts a hole in the shitshows that pass for involvement. People don’t see the the toll that >
3. level of head over the parapet takes. In addition to the mental gymnastics of reading and interpreting complex shit, breaking it down to its basics and then reapplying principles to it to working out the gaps and building up a robust counter argument, there is the emotional >