After 15 years of not knowing where the hell my seizures are coming from, I got some interesting news from my neurologist today that cleared up quite a bit…🧵
I had an 72 hour EEG done in September (on my bday 😒) and had to push “the button” about 3 times—basically any time I felt an aura coming on, I had to click it so they knew where to look specifically in that time frame. 2/
Well APPARENTLY when he looked at the footage during those times, there was literally ZERO seizure activity 😳
But it felt the exact same way as the auras I get from an epileptic seizure. So wtf? 3/
Turns out, they’re psychological. My anxiety is SO FUCKING BAD that I’m literally triggering myself.
So now I’m being referred to a psychiatrist to get anxiety medication and I’m kind of…happy? 4/
Normally I’d like to think I could “handle it”, but clearly it’s worse than I thought.
Way worse.
Idk what it feels like to not be anxious and now I’ll finally get a chance 🥲
I had a FB memory pop up last week that I had completely forgotten about and when I re-read it I fucking cried.
It was a few years ago when I worked at @ultabeauty…my coworkers and I looked outside and saw a young man standing by the front of the store. 1/
He was basically only a few inches from the glass and kept tapping on it, occasionally hitting it lightly w his head. I didn’t know much about autism at the time but I knew immediately that he WAS autistic. It was also practically freezing outside. 2/
We approached our manager and concluded that we may need to contact police bc he’d clearly been left there by someone and was struggling quite a bit. However, not long afterwards his own MOTHER spoke up…3/