I. The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the bump, bump, bump, on the back of my head as I am dragged down the stairs behind Christopher Robin. Bump, bump, bump, driving the things I have seen out of my mind. I do not wish to stop bumping. I do not wish to remember!
II. Once upon a time, a very long time ago now, about last Friday, I lived on a placid island of ignorance in a forest all by myself, before the buzz-buzz-buzz of dreadful revelation, before I tasted- oh tut, oh bother! Oh sanity-destroying sweetness of the honey of curiosity!
III. Bitter wisdom. Would that I, a Bear of Very Little Brain, had less brain yet! I might never have tasted that metaphorical honey. I might not have followed that damnable song to its source.
Isn't it funny
How it never is sunny
Down! Down! Down!
Where R'lyeh sleeps drowned?
IV. I shall not herein detail every investigation we launched, nor the affair that cost Rabbit and Piglet so much in '22. My journals are sealed, the letters burned. Still, I hear the sound that thing made. Heffalump. I hear it in dreams, and I wake screaming! Heffalump.
V. Poor Piglet! He deserved better. He wouldn't stop the investigation and I, to my shame, abetted his destructive journey. Even the blasphemous Woozle- of which I am sworn to write nothing, say nothing- would not dissuade him. Piglet joined me on the expedition of '26.
VI. There in the uncharted South Pacific we found our terrible, longed-for, aeons-drowned destination. There, equidistant between the East Pole and the West Pole, which people do not like talking about. And well they should be reticent! Then and there it was we lost Piglet.
VII. When that thing awakened, the priest of the drowned city, that ravening spawn of the deepest oceans of time, oh how we fled! But Piglet was lost. Brave, foolish Piglet remained. That horrible last glimpse I caught of him-- a Very Small Animal Entirely Surrounded by Water!
VIII. I returned to England broken in body and mind, and retired to this wood under the name of Sanders, hoping I might hide just long enough to finish this manuscript of warning to the heedless daylight world, tut-tut, of the doom that sleeps so lightly and waits to rise again.
IX. I fear I am not alone here. Glimpses in the wood. Noises in the night. Messages are drawn on the frosted panes of my windows by unseen, inhuman hands:
HELP!
PIGLET (ME)
and
IT'S ME PIGLET, HELP HELP
Yet I know it isn't Piglet out there.
I know.
I shall not have long.
X. So bump my head on the stairs, Christopher Robin. Bump, bump, bump! Give me what little peace I have earned. I shall hide these papers from you to do likewise.
And that is really the end of the story, and I am very tired after that last sentence. I think I shall stop there.
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1. I am extremely sorry that a set of tweets I made in anger last night sent some signals that justifiably raised hackles; several people have patiently explained to me that I was not expressing myself well or wisely, and I believe I should trust them.
2. I will not be deleting those tweets. Nobody forced me to post in anger and make an ass of myself, and if I unnecessarily and clumsily upset people then I get to take responsibility for that and eat the consequences like a grownup.
3. Last night, Alexandra Rowland posted a statement on their website concerning myself and my wife, Elizabeth Bear.
1. Here's a few more useful pandemic lifestyle tips from hazmat class. Everyone has heard of a Hot Zone, of course. It's the dramatic one, the big flashy zone, the one that gets all the attention. But did you know about the Warm Zone and the Cold Zone?
2. The Hot Zone is the area in which one has a reasonable expectation of exposure to A Bad Thing. The Cold Zone is, essentially, the entire rest of the world beyond the borders of the incident response, where no trace of That Specific Bad Thing is meant to be carried.
3. Now, "the Warm Zone" is not just an overly technical way of describing the buffer between them. The Warm Zone particularly means a controlled working space for transition between the Hot and Cold Zones. It's where equipment is donned, removed, washed, etc.
So, I drew you a cartoon. It's about a guy named Eggbert. And there's a thread that goes with poor Eggbert...
1. Not long ago I gave y'all a stern fatherly lecture about some concepts that were pounded into my head by years of hazmat and EMT training, and as our collective situation is what we might politely call "in flux," I've got some important new stuff for you.
2. The best advice at the present time is to cover your nose and mouth to slow or prevent transmission of the virus when you must enter a potential exposure situation (work outside the home, shopping, essential errands).
Okay! Let's talk a bit about risk management and our not-so-excellent friend, the novel coronavirus COVID-19.
Why should you pay attention to a single thing I type?
Because unlike some other Robin Hoods, I can talk with an English accent.
1/23
Just kidding. My English accents are crap.
I was a paid-on-call firefighter from 2005-2016. In addition to firefighting school, I was also required to earn a certification in Hazmat (HAZardous MATerials) Operations and re-certify annually. Ten more times, that was.
2/23
I was also required to train as an EMR (Emergency Medical Responder), and I picked up a bunch of other certifications and special classes, including incident management, confined space operations, water rescue, fire officer, post-mortem procedures, etc.
Up next: A late-night thread about worldbuilding secrets and things in proximity to Lando Calrissian's pants.
Worldbuilding! A term with a lot of baggage. A craft and a theory that causes headaches for creators at every experience level. A dirty word to some, but only, I would argue, because we too often misapprehend what it can mean.
Worldbuilding is just a hook on a belt.
Worldbuilding has a dread reputation as an act of homework, an act of self-entombment under tons of trivia. An act of penance! First the creator suffers! Then the audience is made to suffer! Everyone involved must prove their worthiness in the NERDLORE CRUCIBLE!
I fell hard for Harlan Ellison stories as a teenager. Not an uncommon thing. I scoured my high school library for anything with his name on it, then hunted places like Uncle Hugo's. If you wanted Ellison you had to learn a new love for used copies, yellowing pages, torn covers.
His publication history was as patchwork and chimerical as his reputation. He was world-famous, he was obscure. He was ubiquitous, he was a distant fluttering heat mirage. He was an angel, he was a sentient hemorrhoid. He was impossible to work with, he was the Pro of Pros.
When I was hunting his stuff, in the hazy pre-eBay paleolithic, it seemed like God's own shotgun blasted his work out to the bookstores of the world at random intervals, to no discernible ballistic pattern.