Controversial opinion that shouldn't be controversial:
Echolalia isn't random or meaningless. Echolalia is a form of autistic communication. 🧵
Most people when they look at me would have no idea that I am: 1) autistic , and 2) have echolalia.
In other words, autism & echolalia isn't a look. Here's what echolalia is, with examples:
According to WebMD, echolalia is the repetition or imitation of sounds, phrases, and words.
Most people think that echolalia is bad and should be stopped. How much you want to bet it's because they think it's annoying.
Examples of my echolalia are that I repeat words that for some reason just trigger this joy in me. Someone said, "Plop!" and all I could do was say plop and make up plopping words. It was actually my way of engaging with that person.
A phrase that I repeat frequently is "I just want to go home." Whenever I'm upset, stressed, frustrated, overloaded: "I just wanna go home." I started saying, "I just want to go home," when I was home.
Echolalia has a purpose. Stop pathologizing echolalia.
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Task initiation is hard for many autistics, whose brains may be geared toward staying in the midst of a few high-intensity interests.
Task initiation is an executive functioning skill that involves knowing how to begin an activity. For many autistics, getting lost in the midst of a task comes naturally, but actually kicking off the task is the hardest part.
Starting a task is difficult. It requires breaking down an activity into small pieces. Tasks are usually made up of multiple tasks. In fact, tasks often have multiple starting points. So, in order to initiate an activity, we actually have to start multiple times.
Why I, an autistic person, do not like the phrase "info dumping": 🧵
According to Dictionary[dot]com, info dumping is providing a large quantity of backstory or background information all at once. It is a slang term that almost always has a negative connotation.
The term has no clear origin but may originate from copy/paste responses online.
Most recently, info dumping is used to describe autistic individuals when we talk about our special interests.
Apparently, we don't share our passions. We don't describe our passions. We don't teach about our passions.
Ever seen one of these emotions charts? These guides are meant to teach people what emotions are. Except, as an autistic person, I could never relate.
I spent hours staring at these emotions charts. I memorized and copied them. I thought emotions were something to mimic. A set of vocabulary I needed to burn into my mind.
Then, I learned a word for my experience that is often used to describe autistics: Alexithymia.
At first, alexithymia, or the inability to recognize my emotions in myself or others, felt like good way to describe my autistic experiences. Until I started taking off the mask.
I reclaimed stimming. I reclaimed echolalia. I reclaimed my authentic facial expressions.
Empty phrases like, "How are you?" are social nightmares for many autistics. Turns out, these confusing greetings are called phatic language, and they drive a wedge between autistic/allistic communication. 🧵
Over time, I've scripted replies to, "How are you?" But no matter how many times I say, "Pretty good," "Doing all right," or just nod, I'm filled with panic. Does this person actually want to know how I'm doing? Why did they ignore me when I responded, "Fine. How about you?"
"How are you" is an example of phatic language. Although it seems meaningless, non-autistics actually build social bonds with this kind of greeting. However, given that autistics bond & communicate differently from allistics, phatic language can be frustrating and even isolating.
Meltdowns & shutdowns are communication. Autistic bodies are telling us & telling others that we've reached a limit. We can no longer mask our pain, force our bodies into situations that harm us, or endure the pressure of doing things that others force us to do.
Autistic brains are working overtime. Our bodies are regulating unsupportive environments. Most environments are designed with NTs in mind.
The result: Overload. Meltdowns. Shutdowns.
When autistic brains reach the processing limit, our bodies respond in ways that are neither good nor bad. Meltdowns & shutdowns may hurt or lead to danger, but they aren't intentional behavior meant to hurt/endanger.