there is a very radical, powerful state of mind, state of being, that people throughout history have recurringly tried to talk about, but it's v hard to get the point across because people who don't want to hear about it will look for problems with the imperfect utterance
its the feeling of being the author of your own fate/destiny, of being in charge, being truly self-sovereign, earning your own respect and admiration, feeling your own body and mind standing by to assist you, the captain of your soul
we can talk shit about this all day, argue about the details, blah blah, the comments section appended to this is tens of thousands of pages long full of procrastinators & avoiders looking for fine print technicalities &excuses to support their argument that they're not in charge
n ya kno what, if you argue against it, you're right. you're not ready. it's wise of your fear to protect you from the absolutely searing light of self-responsibility. it's like a weight on your shoulders that will break your back if you don't have the right form. u have to train
this quote is in the right spirit of it
there is no test to pass but your own
you have to seize it for yourself
there are a bunch of movies that have scenes that try to capture the emotional reality of this, I remember Into The Spider-Verse has it
Moana has it (the call isn't out there at all, it's inside me), Frozen has it (you are the one you've been waiting for all of your life)
it's you
you are already the monarch of your life but you have to see it and accept it
i don't think I could have shipped Introspect without listening to frozen, moana, spiderverse, superman, avatar, etc soundtracks etc over and over again lol
it's not an intellectual thing, you need the emotional reckoning, it comes from the gut and heart
I’ve been ruminating on a hypothetical holy grail of information architecture for years and years now and every 3-6 months or so I have some new epiphany that feels like it’ll change everything, and it kinda does but not as much as I originally hoped
I’ve talked about a few critical things before
- bricks/spreadsheets as the densest way to display information
- the importance of desire paths
- “magic phrases” – passwords, really, but that word has come to become associated with a very specific login, so need a diff word
For some period of time I was painfully fixated on trying to represent my entire twitter corpus, I even unintentionally sent a couple of earnest devs down that hellhole, none have returned lol sorry friends
I realize now that’s a mistakenly needy frame. You can’t eat the sun
been thinking a lot lately about culture and scales of influence
there’s the immediate local culture, and then there’s the bigger wider context that the local context is embedded in. the bigger context, the “overculture”, is typically abstracted away and imperceptible, ignored
this is recursive – once you get out of the hyperlocal context of your family unit, your peer group, you find there’s a wider community with its own issues, it’s own baggage and backstory
this applies not just to space but to time- the present now is embedded in past & future
been thinking about this again because I’ve been vaguely troubled by my perception of the general absence of visible big-picture long-term thinker-planner-doers who aren’t institutions
I worry that people don’t see it, though it’s probably likelier that they’re just quiet
feeling kinda angry about the idea of successful nerds getting gatekept out of nerd communities upon becoming successful
my personal definition of a nerd: a nerd is someone who is driven by curiosity. the more of your behavior is driven/determined by curiosity, the bigger of a nerd you are
I think most nerds will broadly agree with me on this definition, but some nerds will include this additional component of "a nerd is someone who endures negative social consequences for being a nerd" – being bullied, ostracized, broke, romantically unsuccessful, etc etc