Thread by @monaeltahawy

Weight: 115lbs

Text: There is a moment when you’re learning to deadlift that background moves into foreground, like those paintings full of dots that required you to look beyond the foreground into the background, so that the picture becomes apparent.
#ThisIs55

Training with Jeana Fanelli is shifting the tectonic plates of my being.

There is an earthquake at the core of my being and I am living and loving it.

New essay soon.

Until then feministgiant.com/p/postmenopaus… #ThisIs55

I wonder, in this essay, if the anxiety I experience during my menopause transition is my despair at the fuckery that once flummoxed younger me.

I am shifting that despair now. Lifting gives me the inner power to do that.

feministgiant.com/p/essay-menopa…

I began lifting for the sake of muscle mass.

Dr. Stacy Sims and Selene Yeager have a great "GUIDE TO KICKING ASS, FEELING GREAT, AND CRUSHING GOALS THROUGH MENOPAUSE AND BEYOND."

And I feel as great as that sounds after I lift!

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Then as I approached my grief anniversary in November, the month in which I also became, finally, postmenopausal, lifting became the way I mended the mind/body split that trauma so often causes.

For too long, my body was an afterthought.

And now here we are, finally, talking

When I wrote about that on Instagram, someone recommended this book and after reading the introduction online, I thought "Fuck, yes!"

wonderwell.press/books/lifting-…

This is all me thinking out loud for my new essay, coming here soon.

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