THE TOXICITY OF PERFORMATIVE ALLYSHIP

It's been a while since I've done this, but it's time for some more critical reflection abt my program.

I open my email: "Black Day of Healing 4/22/22 - you are invited and protected to attend"
...🧵 #MedTwitter For context: Black Day of Healing is a DOPE event organized by @UCSFPediatrics resident, @TianaWoolridge. It aims for all UCSF GME programs to protect a day of work for Black folx across to come together/heal, acknowledging that Black residents do EXTRA labor, face racism, etc.

🚨📢An IMPORTANT Publication📢🔥

We talk about microaggressions often, but all our recommendations on how to respond come from expert opinion, not from research. This paper changes that. I believe our findings are practice changing for #MedEd /1

journals.lww.com/academicmedici… We assembled a truly all-start cast for this project: @megobrienmd @m_prabhjot @kateluptonmd @AliciaFMD @KarenHauer4.

This project builds off our work on stereotype threat, where we found that microaggression were a key initiator of stereotype threat. journals.lww.com/academicmedici… /2

Actual chronicles of an interracial friendship 2021 Edition:

I spent New Years with one of my besties (who is white).

Him: Just take our car
Me: No way, we are in an all white neighborhood
Him: Dude, there is nothing to worry about
Me:...

/A THREAD Me: There is no way that I will drive a fancy car that I do not own in this neighborhood.
Him: It's not even a fancy car, its a Subaru

*Me Internally*: Feeling gaslight and angry. Clearly he does not get it... /2

Today, I participated in a med school's day on mental illness. I found myself indescribably moved hearing another panelist's story abt her sister who died by suicide. "Some people ask me if I am angry at my sister...How could I ever be? I'm sad that she suffered so much" A THREAD Suicide is highly personal and very sensitive. The darkest moment in my life was the day I decided to kill myself 5 years ago. That day, I entered a horrible spiral of hating myself becuz I was going to hurt everyone I loved. Hating myself only made me want to kill myself more.